finally got time to update. but i'm sacrificing my sleep time cause in the day i have school and more to worry about.

the "AND MORE" refers to project datelines and also my piano practical exam. hais. finally it's here and on july7! just after my birthday luh. am i sad or what? plus i don't practice usually, pretty last minute. so going to fail ):

on the teeniest tiniest happy note, i can sleep in for all my sundays from after the exam! well, not that encouraging though.

so for the trip, managed to camwhore with jing. haha. it's in our blood.


i did mention we don't really look alike right? but i think this is only one of the very few that we look like siblings. mom always say that we look more like a couple instead luh. yuck, damn incest.




looking at that motivates me to do crunches. hahahaha. but the motivation was only for three seconds (X




and then they got all hyped about measuring height right outside the theme park. haha. and i got a candid of mom, LOOK!



ain't she just adorable? the time when i released the shutter was convenient enough to capture this. haha.



typical jing. having a picture of his own is never enough luh. need to steal limelight. hahaha.

and that's all before we took jing to his virgin club experience at Safari! weird clubbing with your family la. especially looking at your own parents club.

i think i mentioned them dancing on the kelong to demostrate their prowess at dance right? it's like they're pro but it's just weird watching they ARE our parents.

same thing here. just weirder.. hmm..


dad's not in the last picture cause he went back to the hotel early. and i'm RED! as usual la.. haha. that time had 2M04 steamboat, don't think i drank a lot but i got damn red. and everyone who walked past me, will look stunned and exclaim,


second day at genting, had bonding time with jing luh. LITERALLY. we just spent the entire day together, shopping eating and themepark-ing.




















we left to KL the next day. and i think i was too busy shopping that i didn't take any pictures! haha. made good buys, but not cheap luh.

and we stayed at dad friend's house.

went for lunch somewhere near the last shopping centre we went to, forgot the name though! and there's a cute girl and i finally took pictures.




and many other little cute things too.....




hahahahahaha! abundance of FLY cuteness. and they put it on the table where all the customers can see and might be eating on it later luh. gross but awesome sticky papers!

journey back was delayed twice!

first by this old mercedes whose engine got too hot that burnt the whole car into a black skeleton. can't even see number plate to buy 4D la! hahahaha.

the second is some chain car accident. it's soooo THE NORM. lol.





when i got back, school started immediately. was praying that TP would close cause of H1N1 but no it didn't. still, first week of school was quite relaxed as some tutors got quarantined. because of that, we're now in the second week already. damn fast.

and i went st james on saturday! so long never club with rubina already. she is really damn funny when she drinks la. hahaha.

then i got to know even more of my course mates. even though i can't remember their names right now, but i know the faces already! improvement ok? i'm not good at remembering faces de.

and i caught,



during the week. can't say it was damn good la. but it was quite enjoyable to watch i guess. quite funny too. (:

ok, getting very tired le. just finished an overdue assignment and had training before that.

maybe i should just put off my birthday la. too busy to have anything luh. unless, someone care to plan for me? HAHA.

♥ 5:07 AM

ugh.. haven't got the time to properly update on the Genting-KL trip. but entertain you all with this funny video first (:

guys, it's a useful trick if you want to get a girl's attention too!



HAHAHAHA!!!!

AAAAWWWWW but damn drama mama. hehehe (X










BY THE WAY,






































yay damn happy!

♥ 12:21 AM

i'm back from MALAYSIA already! (:

SHOP-EAT-PLAY-SLEEP everyday!! hahaha that's the life. will update more when i get my pictures onto the laptop.

shouldn't have gone to school today. tutorial was canceled cause tutor went japan. wah, i also want to go...

finally watched the finals of American Idol, awesomeness. yea i'm slow ok?

BE BACK TONIGHT! (:

♥ 3:05 PM

leaving for genting in another THREE HOURS! jing and i decided to ton now and die on the journey there. ha!

thing is,

I HAVEN'T PACKED MY STUFF!

reason being...................... two things.




1) i was doing an entry about my views on plus-sized models. it's right here!

http://www.mtvasia.com/Funstuff/Contests/BloggerContest/viewentry.php?id=158

do view it and rate! supports greatly appreciated (:



2) this one shall be kept secret for now. heeeeee.. i'll tell you all when everything's done proper!



alright, i should do SOME packing now.

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♥ 3:54 PM

why is it when i start to feel things are going right, everything falls apart in an instant?


it's driving me insane dealing with everything. it's the first time in my life i'm starting to think that i'm being fucked by life. i'm not the kind of person that gets put down so easily. but it's getting harder each day.

my relief is in searching pictures that i'm able to express myself through. hais. i would love to take my own pictures and have them here instead. i'm still learning and there's many restrictions for a 5mega pixel handphone camera.

not that i'm complaining. i do get not bad pictures when i get lucky.




it's damn frustrating nowadays. i'm confused over everything that i'm supposed to do. and i seemed to mess up every part of my life. love, friends, responsibilities....



recently i've become more and more moody. and i get tired of socialising. in the first place, i was never the sociable kind of person la. just that in poly, you really need to socialise in order to survive.

no, not peer pressure la. reputation and good connections is what you'll need right? to get all the help you can get.

hais. i feel so alone even though friends keep telling me that they'll be there for me and all. really appreciate it very much. but sometimes, i just feel that i need to be alone to clear my own mess.


people who know me well should also know that i'm not the suicidal nor the self-inflict kind of person la. so no worries aye?

thing is, do you trust me?

i'm hurt and exhausted. my only output is training, blogging, and dancing. blogging is starting to get restricted in many ways. mainly because it's a huge information source for people who know me. i love to keep people in suspense..

i should get over it la. for now, just let me dance away my troubles at butter factory tomorrow. finally.



and here's a few songs to share..




before i end, shopping is always the best remedy for girls i think. went to buy my bikini yesterday. it's something that i've been eyeing on for a pretty long time. finally it was on discount and i found my courage to get it. can't wait to wear it (:

and, i really love this blogshop --> http://treslovechic.livejournal.com

advertising for free!! haha. so many stuff i want to get in the newest collection la! there's the black striped zipper top, black lace minivest, jackets, acid wash highwaist skirt, shoes, belts..... OMG.

aiya i'm a goner la. i realise i spend excessively when i feel extremely upset or extremely happy. i really need to get a better part-time job now.

ps: i wanted to watch FRIENDS but look at the time now? somemore i got to wake at 1130am.

night all.

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♥ 3:28 AM

ivan's birthday was madness la. drink drank and got drunkards in the house. haha siao. everyone puked in the end. except for me and nic i think. hahaha.

BUT I THINK I'M DAMN USELESS.

only drank three redbull vodka and i got super giddy with my heart pounding in my head. in the end i just lay on the bed for an hour plus before i "regain consciousness".

that was when some guy came and ask me,


"you know who am i?"

i thought he looked like one of the earlier guys,

"leon?"

"what? you say i am who?"

"leon?" still a blur..

"eh ivan come, she say i'm leon leh.. who am i?"

doubts myself, "ivan's friend?"


LOL!!! turns out that was nic la.. hahaha damn irritating. i felt so blur la and my head hurts like crazy.

took many many pictures. lazy to give details la. just enjoy them like we did (:






love the last picture of michelle and me cause my eyes looks BIGGER! (X and notice how red we both- actually, look at how sober christina looks luh while lijia michelle and me are red like lobsters.




and we played tag teams for BIGTWO. the pair with the most number of cards left have to drink one cup each.










and more group pictures!!! (:



yay.... fun (: they all finally fell asleep by like near 5am leaving me and michelle to chat and keep an eye on them. went to get breakfast and i finally got my appetite back! quite a relief.. all the stuff pent up inside me, i finally got to relax.

work has started for me. i think cause of my bad knee, standing for straight six hours is super taxing for me. and i keep missing meals cause i'm not really sure about the protocol of the place.

looking forward to wednesday night cause we're going BUTTER FACTORY! hehe. so long since i last clubbed. very very looking forward to it. better don't last minute cancel la. i'll be damn dulan.

and i re-read xiaxue's older entries.
http://xiaxue.blogspot.com/2005/09/fucking-unfair.html

hais, i feel it man.

anyway getting really sleepy already. so i'm going to finish this up.

recently i got to do this personality test. the result is quite unexpected but very true. ohwell, here's one part of it,

Recent disappointment has led you to become truly introverted. You are becoming suspicious of everybody and consequently you now feel that you are unable to trust anybody. Unfortunately it would appear that you are curbing your natural enthusiasm and imaginative nature - perhaps this is because you are fearful that you may become over enthused and find that you could possibly be carried away by wishful thinking. You are keeping your distance to see whether attitudes towards you are sincere - but this watchfulness could easily develop into suspicion and distrust.

♥ 4:33 AM