first of all, i'd like to thank the girls team for all the cooperation and dedication they've had throughout the year. and because of that, we're in the semi finals for IVP. (:

love you girls!

can't really enjoy the moment properly though. haven't slept for almost two nights already. this is the second one.

projects really suck to the max during this period. it's like, everything is crammed together in this tiny period of time! a realization today was that we just got back our mid-semester test papers, but in two weeks time it'll be our end-semester test already. WTH!!!??

tell me, who is being overworked?

now i understand when people say that in poly you have no time for CCA. and i guess i have to agree to that certain extent. really admire those who can juggle both well at the same time.

to tell the truth, i've never been juggling my studies and CCA well la. it's always compromise. i actually prefer more physical kind of stuff like sports and i tend to work harder and excel more in them. i love the feeling of my muscles aching after training.

DO NOT, i repeat, I DO NOT LIKE the feeling of tiredness for chionging projects for few nights.

anyway! about the overworked part. i've got a roleplay in say less than 11 hours? and then i have a deadline on wednesday 11am. finally, the performance for understanding theatre on thursday.

not to mention i'm still in the midst of IVP which will end on wednesday. looking forward and dreading it at the same time. i know i won't have a proper rest till then.

hais, SUCK IT UP ANDEY.

focus, stop blogging, get back to work.

♥ 3:09 AM

did bad during IVP today. what a contrast to monday's performance.

it's always the times you've failed that have the most impact on you.

i swear i won't lose twice to the same person. well, in the case when their standard is near mine la. and only the official matches count!

ahwell, we're still in the running for semi finals so hope we continue to do well as a team! (:

apart from that sad story! i just wanna say i love acting! yes i've mentioned it before! especially those theatrical kind (: even if my part is just a tiny tiny one, i wanna make sure i get it right cause every little thing on stage makes a huge difference to the overall feel of the play.

hehehe that's just the happy thing for now.

♥ 2:05 AM

eh eh where's my new year entry?

as usual, TP has crammed all their deadlines together and everyone seems to be in these categories:





















ANYWAY!

it's the first time for my life in TP having stayed up all night, reached school at 8am, returned home by 1130am to sleep, woke up at 430pm to prepare for training, finally reaching home at 11pm.

damn tiring. and it's not like i did it for fun-joy-laughter. days just lapse together and i can't really tell a day from the next.

so start of 2010? a blur all together.















having said that, 2009 was also a blur. it was fun while it lasted. again i broke another of my rules.

i've had my most share of clubbing, drinking, chalet, laughing, crying, and INJUSTICE.

yes, INJUSTICE.

so much that i have to say it again! INJUSTICE!

i've mentioned it briefly last time -> HERE

i had my matric card (identification pass thingy for poly students) confiscated just because i sat on table protruding from the wall.

YA I KNOW! stupid right? there wasn't even a sign that indicated that we weren't allowed to.. and TP's damn rich for changing all the desk in the school, can't they just put up a couple of signs that will only cost about a tenth of that?

so the one who confiscated my card said,


"do you want to know why you're not allowed to sit on the table?"
(no, it's ok -> i said this)


"well, i'll tell you anyway."
(huh then you ask me for what? stupid ah you. know the meaning of NO? -> this was in my head)


"because the table may break and you will fall and injure yourself blah blah blah.."


aiya, whatever la. from this, i derived that,


point is, i always question authority. to see if authority is not misused. i want to know that i deserve the punishment i get.

and a whole lot of other stuff.

in the end i had a disciplinary hearing just before one of my mid semester tests. totally screwed up that day. reason being i was forced to apologize.

meaning i was driven into a corner, no way out. i can choose to continue reasoning and state my stand, and i will end up missing my paper. AND THEN, there will still be no conclusion.

the situation was clear, i HAVE to apologize to get out.

when i made views that the disciplinary lady could not answer, she'd say,


"well, it's our responsibility for our roles as educators........."


"the school system states that........"


yes yes. win already lor.

am ashamed of myself for apologizing to something that i felt i did no wrong. there were supporters, just that they also can't override the "school system".

hais. so how again was i reminded of this INJUSTICE?

my communication skills tutor went into labour and guess who's the relief tutor? -.-





past is past. but i'm still plotting some kind of imaginary revenge. pathetic.

just when i thought 2008 was a dramatic year, 2009 just went and outdo it. I HAD A CAR ACCIDENT FOR CRYING OUT LOUD. and i did the craziest things like bbq-ing in the middle of the night, ON IMPULSE. and i lost a toenail ):

wish i could post more pictures but my laptop is STILL DOWN.

so for 2010, i guess it'll probably beat the other two so i'm hopeful? LOL.

things i hope to get done this year:

1. get my driver's license

2. get abs (still working on it)

3. get a job (wait, i think my internship is like nine more months?)

4. do something i've never done before

surprisingly that's all. things get simpler every year huh? hahahaha. (lazy more like)

but some things will always be the same. like not sleeping at the "planned" time, which should be some three hours ago.

so happy new year all (:

do remember to visit QUEERLAMP for pretty preloved items!

♥ 3:40 AM

either you're not putting any effort into the work or you're just plain stupid.

and i am pissed off.

seriously, i don't give a damn whether you're tired or not. EVERYONE IS TIRED during this period of time. did you even stop to think, on top of your stuff to edit, i have others too? not to mention my own workload for the project PLUS another individual journal to complete.

the word "sorry" is viciously abused by you.

sorry doesn't solve anything. saying sorry and not doing anything to improve the situation is not helping.

i gave you chances. i spoon feed you personally by giving hints in the right direction. time and time again, you say you get it. time and time again, your work proved you otherwise.

honestly, i can just accept any crap you send me cause it'll end up as rubbish anyway. heck! i'll save even more time doing it on my own then reviewing and editing yours. that way, we'll save each other a whole lot of time and avoid any grievances possible.


because i feel that there is a need for you to learn. that's why i bothered review your work and getting you to redo over and over again.

since you're not bothered to put in half as much effort as me, i shan't be bothered with you any longer.

not to worry, you'll be getting the results of the project too. maybe just 10% of it.

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needed to get that out. complaints that i'm too direct and tactless when i'm commenting. i agree with direct but not tactless. i'll be tactful when there's a need to.

i guess when you want to get things done, you can't fear people's judgment. judgment clouds your mind, distracts you from your purpose. judgment makes you soft. when you're soft, no one listens to you.

quote from Iron Man,




even if they hate you for the things you do now, the results will show and respect will be earned later on.

note that i'm not the kind that just sit back and allow my groupmates to suffer on their own. i do not do pure editing, i delegated stuff that i think i'm capable of handling to myself instead of passing it to others.

fair or not, they can tell you.

ughhhh school school school. boring rants.

♥ 3:15 AM

awhile back, i was messing around with my PSP using the wifi and stuff. damn tedious though cause I had to scroll and type using "sms" method. Which simply means,

I CAN JUST DIE TYPING A SENTENCE.

however with the BB now, everything's much much easier. time-killing is also made easy (: youtube-d with it while waiting.

so, am attempting a proper blog entry. thing is, i'm not good with html codes but i'll still try to make this post as colourful in any way possible.

had lunch at st11 kopitiam and the tabletennis uncles were sitting around having just finished their morning practice.

digressing, IVP's in a few days. very worried about it because, we haven't had much preparation done since it arrived just a month after our MST. which we had a two week break before training resumed. to make matters worse, the holiday season marks the inconsistent attendance of the team due to vacation and temporary closing of the multi purpose hall. think next year, i'll implement a ban on going overseas during this period of time. HAHAHAHA kidding! but seriously.

guess there'll be loads of evaluation to do after IVP.

back to the point of this post, those uncles are pretty successful people. among them are bankers, engineers, and businessmen in general. they are really a bunch of awesome people even though some might piss you occasionally.

so they were talking, and two of them quoted,

"Anything that be solved using money, is not a PROBLEM. *laughs*"

argh irritating. rich people talk.

anyway, they were also advising a PR on how to apply for a successful citizenship. which is pretty cool cause i never knew there were "shortcuts". haha. i guess that's why they're so different from all the other uncles sipping kopi around the place.

moral of the story? tabletennis uncles are successful people because?




















they ARE TABLETENNIS UNCLES (:

Ciaoz

♥ 4:08 PM

keep going thai disco these few weeks. fun fun fun!

and a realization that male species in general,






what a way to start 2010. no wild guesses please!

♥ 2:48 PM