saved this post as draft first cause i'm not at home.

anyway, my life is becoming more and more of a routine. ever since i was studying for my prelims, i've been visiting the same places over and over again with the same people. well, can't say i didn't enjoy myself during those times i guess. it was actually really fun. LoL.

hmm, didn't go to school today. felt like i needed more time to study than to slack in school. been thinking about the purpose for a school. well, a school is where we learn stuff, get tested on those knowledge, and get out into society to contribute. unfortunately, with baboon around, things are getting no where. it's bad enough that the school cheated us of our september holidays by claiming it as our studybreak for prelims. now? they're unwilling to give us studybreak for our O's! why?! it's not like we're very productive during school. only for certain lessons, teachers would let us do papers and we can ask them if we needed help. well, for the rest, it's just plain slack. except for PE. LoL! i love PE! just yesterday, we played soccer!! wait, should concentrate on, I PLAYED SOCCER!! haha. know why? it's the first time i played soccer after such a long time!! physiotherapy has stopped and so i can do whatever i want!! haha. and i really enjoyed myself. hope the rest did. though like, oohlala and i got assaulted? LOL!! so MAN. xD

ok, i drifted from the point. the point is!! most of us are much much more productive when we study by ourselves than in school! why? cause the school environment seems to be so slack and so we-just-finished-our-prelims mood. well, i don't want that. so i decided to go study. we turned out not so productive cause i was too tired. but still, i wouldn't have studied if i was in school so thank goodness. but seriously, we should really kick that slack mood!! yes i understand we just finished our prelims but it's already ONE week.

ONE.
WHOLE.
WEEK.

please stop dreaming and start mugging.

sadly for me, i didn't well for my prelims so my chances of getting what i want is very very slim. really very disappointed with myself i guess. just hope that i can do MUCH MUCH better for my O's so as not to be as disappointed as i am now.

alright, i got to go. i'm again not at home.



-LeeUuZ

♥ 8:25 PM

ok, i blame myself for being a curious sister. LoL! i had to go visit my little brother's blog and very unfortunately, had to do some stupid thing. baah!! nevermind, i'm too bored.

Instructions:
1. Put your music player on shuffle
2. Press forward for each question
3. Use the song title as the answer for each question even if it didn't make any sense, NO CHEATING
4. Tag 6 people to do this =)

Here it goes!!

1. How are you feeling today?
I'm Still Here - Johnny Rzeznik
phew!! i guess i didn't get too depressed that i have to kill myself or something over my prelims!! haha. i'm still here guys!! no worries!! xD

2. Will you get far in life?
MrQ - Jolin Tsai
most probably? cause the song seems to be so high and all. LoL! i don't really know how to intepret this. stupid shuffle.

3. How do your friends see you?
Movin!! - Takacha
they see me MOVING!! haha. think more like mugging? haha.

4. Will you get married?
Back For Good - Take That
whoa. back for good? means what? that i'll break up with my boyfriend (if i have one) and then end up getting back together?? wait! i'm confused...

5. What's your best friend's theme song?
Love Me - Collin Raye
if it's cass, i guess should be!! haha. details? nah, ask her yourself!! (hope she doesn't see this xD)

6. What's the story of your life?
Stars Are Blind - Paris Hilton
searching for true love? man, sound so fairytale. LoL. i DON'T KNOW how Paris Hilton thinks. haha.

7. What was high school (secondary school) like?
Serenade - Fruits Basket Anime
peaceful? i guess? nah. had ups and downs. but still, it's where i found peace i guess. xD

8. How can you get ahead in life?
Somewhere Only We Know - Keane
going some place only we (who?) know? how do i intepret this??!!

9. What is the best thing about your friends?
For Fruits Basket - Fruits Basket Anime
this song is talking about bonds. yeah, the bonding with my friends.

10. What's in store for this weekend?
Five Colours In Her Hair - McFly
something weird?? LoL!

11. What song describes you?
Change The World - V6
yes!! i do want to do so!! firstly, i would like to remove baboon from our school. next, fire her "comrades". LoL! and then!! i'll proclaim studybreak for everybody!! haha. xD

12. To describe ur grandparents?
Yellow - Coldplay
duh... they're chinese! xD skin colour!! haha. nah, they're like the shining stars in my life. really important people i guess. without them, i don't think home would be so homely. LOL!

13. What song will they play at your funeral?
恋爱达人 - 罗志祥/小S
WHAT?! nevermind. at least it's a nice song so many will definitely enjoy. haha. yay!! die happy! O_O

14. How does the world see you?
First Love - Utada Hikaru
noob in love? pure? innocent? naive? take your pick. xD

15. Will you have a happy life?
Take The Lead (Wanna Ride) - Wisin Y Yandel Ft Bone Thugs and HArmony
yes of course! haha. sounds happy. LoL! exciting maybe. definitely happening. haha.

16. What do your friends really think of you?
Fill My Little World Right Up - The Feeling
AAaaAaAWwWWwWWWwwWWw!! i fill up the empty spaces in your hearts!! cool! that's really sweet. haha.

17. Do people secretly lust after you?
忘了爱 - Toro
erm? maybe they're too depressed that i don't notice? LoL! surely......

18. How can I make myself happy?
I'm Still Here - Johnny Rzeznik
how come repeated song? who's still here? family? friends? God?

19. What should you do with your life?
Movin!! - Takacha
again... but well, i should be moving my big fat butt and go mug!! haha.


20. Will you ever have children?
Five Colours In Her Hair - McFly
weird? as in weird that i'd have children or my children would be weird? or it's weird that i won't have children? huh? HUH?? confused...

People to do this:
1. Tze
2. Hoi
3. Ninny
4. Marlow
5. foongjie
6. fidell

yay!! finally done! going off!!



-LeeUuZ

♥ 11:25 PM

i hate that guy. i really do! that stupid hypocritical son of a toot!! always acting like he cares.

why? are you making fun of me? telling me you would do much much worse than me when we both know you won't? stop acting like a slacker when you ain't one and stop asking me to "console" or "comfort" you. please, just quit acting. i'm really sick of it. i'm so tired of trying to "make you feel better" and stuff. quit bothering me!

prelims prelims prelims. or any other exam. why do i always face all these crap? stop complaining if you got an A1 but didn't get higher crap, i can't even pass alright? i know, you have high expectations of yourself but please stop sharing the info with me. it's bad enough failing but you always have to rub it in.

thanks alot. you make me feel like a retard.

it's so noisy! always so noisy. how i wish one day i can just escape from those noises and sink into the tenderness of silence. today, i kept praying. i was thinking about my life in the future. what will it turn into? i also prayed for silence which was granted when i got out of class.

why is it always so noisy? those three words forever echoing in the noise,

"i'm a failure.... i'm a failure....."

SHUT UP.
am i going mad?

all because of that idiotic fool

-LeeUuZ

♥ 6:16 PM

ever wondered what's the worst torture that people used in the past? well, it's called the black box. it works by placing a "prisoner" inside a small container that is painted completely black. then, the person will be kept in darkness throughout the torture. what's so scary about the black box is the confinement in a tight space where the person cannot even move slightly out of position. furthermore, the person will have no encounter with light through the time of imprisonment. sadly, the person can't die too. cause the "torturers" will give water and make sure the person survives. well, most don't anyway as they die from insanity.

when i first heard about the black box, it didn't appear as scary as it seems. until i tried sitting in a position for the whole day!! it sucks.

well, i concluded that the limited room for movement wasn't the scariest part of it anyway. actually, the worst part of the black box is the solitary wait. it is when the person can only look forward to the release when the "torturers" give water or brainwash them.

waiting.

i guess alot of stuff runs through a human's mind while waiting. it's a time when a human is most vulnerable to satan's attack. just today, when i was waiting for cass's mom to fetch me, i felt so many emotions! worst of all, they were all negative. i mean like, no one likes to wait for people too long of a period. frustration sums up with impatience. furthermore, those lead to anger and disappointment. all these can cause humans to be in a way, "sinful" towards each other. lucky for me, before those emotions piled, i saw the car arrive. LoL!

ok, back to the black box. most of the time in the box, i guess the person would be waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting...... get my point? there's too much time till a person starts to ponder upon so many things. furthermore, when a person is placed in a black box, naturally, fear will be instilled due to the unknowns of whatever the "torturers" would do. then, the person has to fight with their own hunger, their restriction of movements during this time of "waiting".

another scenario, waiting for examination results. most people are so nervous till they breakdown even before they have a look at their scores. LoL! the waiting period makes them think too much and start to imagine the worst case scenario. in the end, the person would be so stressed up just thinking about all those rubbish.

ok, my brain kind of stopped functioning all of a sudden. shucks (dolphins!). but you all get my point right? haha.

and!! i managed to write something thought-provoking!! haha. well, at least to me. xD



-LeeUuZ

♥ 12:27 AM

ok, i've been telling myself to mug mug mug. but it doesn't seem to work. maybe it's cause the prelims are just over and i can't get the mood down. sigh. well, i'll be trying again after church today. fortunately, we'll be getting back our results on monday so good or bad, i'll definitely have the motivation to study again. haha.

alright, i'm just plain bored of my life i guess. that's why i keep blogging about all these useless stuff. where did the old me go? those times when i blogged about stuff which were thought-provoking to me. don't think i do much thought-provoking stuff nowadays. ok, let me think and see what story i can come up with. but for now, i'll just leave the post as it is.



-LeeUuZ

♥ 1:29 AM

ok, after John Tucker Must Die, Little Man is quite enjoyable too. haha. i'm beginning to explore the life of the after sixteen. LoL! that was lame.

well, for those of you pure and innocent *coughs* think try not to watch Little Man cause it's super sick! haha. but those who enjoy sick humor? i say go ahead. but be sure to be sixteen already! haha. trust me, watching it legally is much more satisfactory than watching it illegally. haha. you won't have that guilt hammering behind your head and your heart won't pound so hard against your chest when you enter the theatre. haha.

by the way, i went out in the end. haha. wanted to study at first but when i saw cass and shek slacking away........................................... haha. yup. then cass and i started being really really narcissistic (is this how it's spelt?) and took loads of pictures. LoL! took a one-to-ten album and some really spastic ones. we took shek's handphone and took like? think twelve pictures. cool xD.

alright, i'll go off soon. after i watch finish naruto. xD



-LeeUuZ

♥ 1:07 AM

didn't have time to say it yesterday but ohwell.

PRELIMS ARE FINALLY OVER!!

ah heck. it's not like it's O's that's over. though i was actually quite happy yesterday proudly proclaiming my freedom to some. xD but it's kind of sickening to feel so relax now cause, we all know that it's not over yet. and realistically, i'd prefer if the school gave us more prelims. LoL! please don't murder me for that. as in like, we won't be feeling so relax now. and! we have to continue studying for the next prelims. which is much more useful. really need loads of exams to keep us on our toes and get us really drilled for O's. furthermore, i want to judge my abilities so that i can work on my weak points. sigh. i feel so.....? aimless? something like that.

well, but i did have my share of fun when prelims was over. went to watch John Tucker Must Die with foong, bing and brenda. haha. LOVE that show. it was really funny and we enjoyed ourselves during the movie. well, only the part when foong suddenly placed her face right beside mine. was shocked. imagine you enjoying a movie then suddenly, you feel somebody staring at you. when you turn, only to realise the person beside you has his/her face barely 3cm apart! gosh, not a good idea to sit beside foong during a movie. hahahaha. then after the movie, we went shopping. which is kind of sad cause we had no money. =(

so around 5.30pm, went back to tampines to find cass and hoishek and we ate dinner at eastlink mall. well, apparently, i had nothing to do so i just slacked. turns out my conscience was stronger than my body thus i took out the prelims Additional Mathematics paper to redo! LOL!! ok, now i think i'm mad. and many of you would too. O's is the only thing that made me study so hard. friends from my primary school wouldn't even recognise that it's my blog they're reading cause i seldom blog about studying (except recently)! sigh.

laoren came around 10plus? yeah. wanted to "celebrate" the end of my prelims but in the end? we were rotting everywhere. LoL. we actually had this crazy idea to walk to pasir ris park through the park connector but well, i said it was crazy. in the end we decided to talk near the swimming pool at my house. talk talk talk. then around 1am, walked laoren and cass out of my condo. haha.

so currently typing this post, i was thinking if i should go study later. as in previously, i wanted to wait till my prelims results are out but i'm having second thoughts.

but enough about studying. NOTE!! i changed the video at my welcome page. it's the song i've been rambling about in my previous post - I'm Still Here by Johnny Rzeznik. go check it out aye?



-LeeUuZ UuZing off (lame -.-)

♥ 12:54 PM

woohoo!! i have an off-day!! and guess what? i just woke up. hehe. typical me. xD

hmm, have any of you guys watched the movie Treasure Planet? haha. it's a terrific movie that i watched when i was? primary six or something? i'm not too sure but it's kind of long ago. but it's a show about self-discovery. also adventure and fantasy. haha. it's really really cool. really encourage you all to watch. haha.

anyway, they have a song inside called I'm Still Here by the Goo Goo Dolls. it's the bestest song i've heard yet. well, i kind of realised that i love Goo Goo Dolls' genre! as in really. at first, i didn't know about the song Iris which was by them originally. when i first heard it on one AMV (anime music video), i fell in love with the song. now? i didn't actually realise I'm Still Here was by Goo Goo Dolls cause one friend showed me the artiste who sang it was Johnny Rzeznik (hot guy but unfortunately, married). LoL! i actually told my friend that it sounds like Goo Goo Dolls without realising, IT IS THE GOO GOO DOLLS FRONTMAN SINGING IT?!?!! haha. so yeah. baah! whatever. here's the song. if anyone has it, send me please??!!

I'm Still Here - Goo Goo Dolls

I am a question to the world
Not an answer to the earth
Or a moment
That's held in your arms

And what do you think you'd ever say?
I won't listen anyway
You don't know me
And I'll never be what you want me to be

And what
Do you think you'd understand?
I'm a boy, no, I'm a man
You can't take me
And throw me away

And how can you learn what's never shown?
Yeah, you stand here on your own
They don't know me
'Cause I'm not here

And I want a moment to be real
Want to touch things I don't feel
Want to hold on and feel I belong
And how can the world want me to change?
They're the ones they stay the same
They don't know me
'Cause I'm not here

And you see the things they never see
All you wanted-I could be
Now you know me
And I'm not afraid

And I want to tell you who I am
Can you help me be a man?
They can't break me
As long as I know who I am

And I want a moment to be real
Want to touch things I don't feel
Want to hold on and feel I belong
And how can the world want me to change
They're the ones they stay the same
They can't see me
But I'm still here

They can't tell me who to be
'Cause I'm not what they see
Yeah, the world is still sleepin' while I keep on dreaming for me
And their words are just whispers and lies that I'll never believe

And I want a moment to be real
Want to touch things I don't feel
Want to hold on and feel I belong
And how can they say I'll never change?
They're the ones they stay the same
I'm the one now
'Cause I'm still here
I'm the one
'Cause I'm still here
I'm still here
I'm still here
I'm still here

-------------------------------------------------

what a beauty.



-LeeUuZ

♥ 1:31 PM

i discovered something real cool! haha. well, it's nothing much.

but if you try this steps, you'll be like ok............. LIUYING SO ROCKS!! haha.

1. go google
2. type "leeuuz" (a.k.a me of course) in the search box
3. click "I'm Feeling Lucky"

and you will sure be lucky!! haha. i'm not going to say what'll happen. try it if you DARE! hahahaha!!



-LeeUuZ

♥ 12:35 PM

i did the craziest thing yesterday, staying over in Mcdonald's to mug. woohoo!! am i good or what?

well, the reason i did that was cause during the day, i was more or less doing stuff that includes not studying. went to church expecting a great worship session but it turned out to be slightly disappointing. maybe it's because it's called Praise and Worship Day that made me gave that high expectation. sadly, it was more of a normal service than a worship session. but at least. there were a couple of people saved and a few rededicated. so it wasn't all that bad. just kind of wished that it was better and all. was really looking forward to a rest but guess that's that.

so after service, went to my usual place to study. which led to my overnight stayover in McDonald's! LoL! it was fun i guess. as in the group of people i was with. guess i'll never be able to accomplish that if the group weren't there. haha.

so today, i arrived home in the morning at around 6.15am!! cool. and i bathed and slept till like 2pm! haha. guess what? i went back to study in McDonald's! haha. had to restudy my physics. stupid Mrs Lam scam us with some lousy five year series. in the end, i found my ten year series that i bought last time and tada!! realised that the stupid FYS scammed me! boring.

ok, so i'm home now but i'm leaving it in around six hours. my house is like a hotel. LoL! except it's free. hahahaha!



-LeeUuZ

♥ 11:50 PM

finally!! the toughest part of the prelims IS OVER!! haha. i'm happy of course. been mugging the whole week till late into the night everyday.

well firstly, the prelims. hmm, i think i didn't do too well. but hopefully, i won't do too badly either. LoL!

haha. i'm at a loss for words. the whole week just went by like this ---> mugexammugexammugexammugexam!
basically, the only non-studies related stuff i've been doing lately would be eat, drink, sleep, shit. haha. ok, at least today was better. i accompanied nehnehpok to shop for the september babies' presents. my legs ache from the experience. LoL! then well, after shopping, i went back to that same old routine. need i repeat? haha.

oh, here's a song i want to share. anyone watched Anastasia? the Disney movie like years ago. well, there's this really nice song! nehnehpok sent it to me today. haha.

Once Upon A December:

Dancing bears, painted wings
Things i almost remember
And a song, someone sings
Once upon a December

Someone holds me safe and warm
Horses pranced through a silver storm
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memories

Someone holds me safe and warm
Horses pranced through a silver storm
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memories

Faraway, long ago
Glowing dim as an amber
Things my heart used to know
Things it yearns to remember

And a song someone sings
Once upon a December

----------------------------------------

i recommend you people to hear this song man. it's really nice. furthermore, the lyrics are so beautifully written. maybe it's best that you guys watch the movie (if you haven't) too!

alright. i'll go off, not to mug but to watch my anime and sleep!

REST is my REMEDY! xD



-LeeUuZ

♥ 12:46 AM

phew!! first paper for prelims ended today at approximately 9.20am. well, i guess it was quite ok. it's the first time social studies had easier topics. LoL! well, the day started of with baboon yelling at us and the teachers. somehow, she was yapping away on her own and none of us bothered to pay any attention to her. haha. what happened was, she went like,

"Do you all understand me?"

the hall, ".........."

baboon, "no answer?"

the hall, ".........."

lols. that was fun. and she had to repeat so many times but only to obtain the same result. LoL! secondary fours and teachers rock on!! xD

anyway, after the exam, had some fun with sports class girls. haha. then went off with ninny so she can go home and i can go study. then, met jun along the way so he joined us. haha. went to hang out awhile with jun then he went home while i go for my physiotherapy. oh!!

ANNOUNCEMENT:
LEEUUZ IS OFFICIALLY DISCHARGED FROM FURTHER PHYSIOTHERAPY SESSIONS.

haha. finally! my physio was torturing me with tests to see if i was fit to be discharged. haha. well, obviously I'M FIT. xD then i was off. and obviously, i would inform cass who was still struggling. haha. so, she told me to find hoishek in tampines macs. then i was like, "so weird..." but well, i went in the end cause cass said she was there. BUT she had to leave. -.-

well, actually, i didn't regret going. hoishek taught me math! haha. sorry if i gave you a headache. LoL! i know i'm a noob in math. hahaha. thanks for helping anyway if you happen to come by my blog. xD

oh! ninny also finally saw the movie i made for her. haha. took me SO LONG! haha.

alright, got to go!



-LeeUuZ

♥ 11:24 PM

my vicious cycle:

8am - alarm goes off, i wake.
8.10am - pack my books. drink my tea.
8.30am - goes out of the house.
9am - reaches study destination. starts studying.
12pm - takes a break, eat lunch.
12.30pm - continues studying.
7pm - takes another break. dinner.
2am - goes home.
2.15am - reach home. bathes.
2.30am - sleep.
[ repeated ]

this is really tiring. the worst day was when i reached home at 3.30am! gosh, i should really have a day off.

sigh, the sad thing about this holiday is that prelims start right after it. yuck. can't even let us go through the holidays in peace. baah!! so i declare this holiday to be my worst holiday of my sixteen years on Earth.

well, but the only thing i can commend for this holiday is that i learnt loads. haha. i guess i wasn't paying enough attention in class so i don't really understand my lessons. however!! when i studied during the week, i managed to understand and memorise my stuff!! and the funniest part was that i managed to spot mistakes in the chemistry textbook! haha. well, not really a mistake. just some un-detailed information. LoL! shows how much attention i was paying aye? xD

i just sneezed! i've been sneezing alot lately. hopefully i don't fall sick!

cell today was weird i guess. sigh. wonder why am i so emo these days. sad.

alright. i'll go sleep soon! bye!!

SECONDARY FOURS! JIAYOU FOR PRELIMS! xD

should i go for it - jazz?

-LeeUuZ

♥ 1:03 AM

i'm SSSSSOOOOOO tired!

i really did wake up obediently every morning to mug at the airport! and i'd mug till so late into the night that when i return home, my family is asleep. thus, for the week so far, i've only talked to my brother for less than two hours!! and i talked to my mom for less than an hour! gosh. and they're the closest family members to me so you can roughly imagine how little i communicate with my grandparents. but the best is my dad, lesser than ten minutes! pro aye?

oh!! i forgot to mention in my previous post!!

I PASSED MY PIANO EXAM!!

happyhappy!! i seriously thought i'd fail. like after the exam, couple of friends asked me about it and they could tell i was quite depressed over it. my first reaction would be either "fail!" or "the weather is nice...". LoL! well, i even thought myself to be unworthy of the pass! i didn't practise enough, i didn't dedicate myself enough. but THANK GOD! haha.

by the way, did you all realise? i'm online at 10.30pm!! means!! i went home early!! but i didn't slack too. had tuition. LoL.

alright, i'll go off now.



-LeeUuZ

♥ 10:20 PM

i

feel

accomplished.

haha. guess what? i really did wake at 7.30am and went to study!! cool aye? it's one of the rare times i've seen myself so dedicated to studying. LoL. but the morning wasn't all that fine. my buddhist aunty came over. baah! so i immediately put on my earphones and avoid looking at her so she wouldn't disturb her intensely studying niece. thank goodness she didn't. well, she did in the end. when i stopped at around 10.30am to watch my little brother play maple. haha. told us her son, my cousin, weiliang korkor, would be dancing for the President's Star Charity. LoL. anything!

so had piano as usual. getting along quite well with my pieces. xD i think they're really beautifully composed music. alright, i shan't blabber about stuff that most of you guys won't understand. haha. then after piano, ninny came over to my house to study. STEADY! haha. at first, we were really serious and all. really studying and ignoring the surroundings. however, when i called home to order KFC, both of us sort of lost the momentum. OOPS. haha. we couldn't resist the darn KFC!! LoL! it's too good. well, we were studying in my condo's games room so food and drinks weren't allowed. HA!! but who cares? just had to hide the food properly and enjoy them all we can right? later on, two guys came in to mug too. around evening time i guess. then it was all quiet. don't want to disturb the other party right? hee! so it was abit awkward and stuff. ninny and i was daring each other to sing out loud. LoL! finally, my mom and grandparents took turns to ask if we wanted to go up for dinner already so yeah, we went up.

at my house, ninny was enjoying the meat. LoL! but of course! the meat is as delicious as me!! wait, where did that come from!? ohwell. after dinner, went to the piano to play. haha. i was watching the PSC to try and spot weiliang korkor. haha. and i did find him! he was the backup dancer for this really old singer. haha. little brother and i was laughing like nuts. xD

so went back to piano and stuff. play play play till we forgot about the time. sadly, ninny had to go. don't miss me k? you'll see me tomorrow!! xD

i'm at home now. waiting for my "prime" time to arrive so i can study geography. haha. but!! my anime is loading so ever snail-likely. sigh.



-LeeUuZ

♥ 10:53 PM

i just realised SOMETHING!! i study better at night. LoL. i reached home around 11.45pm just now went to bathe and stuff. so my hair was wet so!! can't sleep. in the end, i decided i shouldn't waste my time lying on the bed waiting for my hair to dry. instead, i should study something.

guess what? i decided to study geography. and to my BIG BIG SURPRISE, i managed to understand every single word i read!! furthermore, i was able to memorise the properties and all. cool aye? think i should do this more often. it has been a really productive one hour. LoL. anyway, i can confidently say, TEST ME ANYTHING ON PHYSICAL WEATHERING. hahahahaha!! not being cocky, but realistic. gaahh!! i feel so accomplished. xD

alright, i'll go sleep now. waking up at 7.30am to study. fierce or what? xD



-LeeUuZ

♥ 12:58 AM

changed my blogskin. simple but nice. ohwell, i wasn't the one who designed it anyway. but job well done to the designer.

well, today's Teachers' Day. so i'm at home now feeling really lazy to study. went to visit a friend's blog and thought through loads of stuff. especially just now when i looked through all the pictures i took till this far of the year. time really flies. i wonder how would i feel if i didn't get my camera. without those pictures to remind me of the good times that happened this whole year.

yesterday, had english composition. i wrote about "I shall always remember 2006". well, i wrote about factual accounts that has happened during the year. it seems that this year has really been a good year for me. and it's the year when my relationship with my family and friends is strengthened. i matured loads in my thinking and reasoning. and i've become a person who can control her emotions really well. i remember i used to cry for my results last year till this year's mid-year. but ever since then, i've been trying really hard to control those emotions. though i did have mood swings and stuff but it has become easier for me to handle.

well, about my relationship with God, it has become really on and off. every saturday i go to church but i don't know who am i worshipping. and stuff happening around me makes it even harder for me to improve it. still, i haven't given up on this relationship. though i don't know who am i worshipping, i understand that it is God i worship. and i understand that God will never give up on me no matter what so i shouldn't too. i crawling back to Him. crawling really slowly, but reaching out. my heart's out there searching already, just wish that my body will react too.

hmm, i really want to write a long list of thankyous to everyone i know for this year. but i guess i'll reserve these thoughts for graduation. haha. wait for me people! xD

but for now, i want to give thanks for 4E. this class has been my source of joy. be it being "bullied" by those people who sit on my right and behind me, or going kuckoo with ninny, doing stupid stuff with oohlala rebec and xinni, protecting my mokozis from marlow etc etc. this class really brought me loads of joy. and there are too many to list down. especially for improved relations in class. i don't think i need to list down cause it's quite obvious. well, guess all of us will naturally open our hearts when we'll be separated soon.

heehee. that's about it for this post. 2ho4eva! don't be jealous!! i'll dedicate one long long post for you as you've been a really big part of my life in AHS. yup! just that you have to wait till graduation. xD

Autumn is cold but really colourful.

-LeeUuZ

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