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    Thursday, August 30, 2007

    sigh, look at the title! man, she's giving the sarcastic comments thing. sucks. hates it when she does that. i really don't mind her ignoring me and stuff. simply hates it when her sarcasm starts rolling. like this morning when she woke me up for work. i heard her waking my brother first so i was slightly awake. still, my reaction was slow. so like she went,

    "jie, you going work?" and everything happened so quickly. i heard her said that and was about to nod my head. then she went, "oh, not working?" and she walked away. -.- like this.

    "jie, you going work? *i'm going to nod-*oh, not working?" *mom walks away tralalala*

    grrr..... made me so pissed early in the morning. so i just pulled myself off the bed and battled with my toilet. sigh. if i have to go through this every morning, i swear (as in not really swear. just-aiya, you know what i mean) that i'll move out. sigh, but it's not that bad actually. noticed that when my mom starts showing me attitude, my dad will compromise by not giving me stupid comments. yea, that's the only positive thing for me with my family now. sometimes, i'd rather my family be less formal. like when my friends come, just acknowledge and leave us alone. leave us alone as in not ignoring. but like, just politely keeping away. maybe ask once or twice if they want any drinks (which there's no need to cause i'll ask first) then just go. don't have to "try and mix" with them. i know they're trying to be nice and all, sometimes, it just appears to be forcing themselves with my friends. and it may seem that they coming down hard that kind. scary etc. and if there is really a need to joke with my friends, at least make the joke like a joke. like equals funny equals we will laugh and not shocking us with the amount of age gap we have and causing everyone to gape like idiots.

    ok ok, i know i should learn to appreciate my parents. living in fortunate but don't know fortunate. haha! at least i've got a roof over my head and a blanket to keep me warm. but then again, i don't get any allowance from them anymore. i'm paying for my transport fares, food, clothes and miscellaneous expenditures. ): that's one bad thing about working? well, thank God that my dad is humane enough to still cover my HP bills instead of dumping it on me too.



    -LeeUuZ


    3:29 PM


    Tuesday, August 28, 2007

    well well, pushing my limits these days. been reaching home late, sleeping late, but waking up early for work. but life now for me is fulfilling. though i'm not studying, my life is still as interesting as ever. work may be mundane from time to time, i guess that's why most people in the working class do find time to skive off. xD

    so yea, i skived today. it's like i've been slogging my butt off the past weeks and haven't really gotten a rest. plus meeting LL and all (really can't bear not seeing him haha!), i gave myself too little time. kind of reach home at 2am this morning. and i think i slept at nearly 3am. so i decided to take the day off and sleep through it. which i apparently managed to till LL called me. apparently, somebody skived off work too! haha. nevermind, we hardly get to spend the whole day with each other these days anyway. even weekends, i have church piano and we have family stuff. so well, got a well-deserved time together. went his house and we kind of rotted for quite some time. think like two three hours? finally went for lunch and he got his hair cut. aww handsome! then we went to get his deodorant! haha. so funny can? he wanted to smell the deodorant so he sprayed some on the front and back of his wrist. but for the last one, apparently there wasn't enough space for him to test it on his hand. so! he sprayed directly in his face!!! haha. well, it was an accident. cause he wanted to spray infront of his face from the side. then don't know why the thing was facing him instead then *PSSSSTTT*! hahaha. had a good laugh. we went back to his house around 6pm. LL then tried on this shirt that belongs to his bro and it cost two hundred plus bucks! dashing. *faints* hope to see him in it soon. xD dinner we went to TM's International Family Buffet. haha. finally some good food after so long. i enjoyed my salmon sashimi. haha. and we just ate loads of stuff. unfortunately, i got a nasty call from my mom and it kind of just spoiled my mood. lucky LL's really good at cheering me up so i didn't stay grumpy for long. so blessed to have him at times like this. :) then we went window shopping! well, as usual i guess. TM's never boring when he's with me. then we went back to his house awhile to watch some show. throughout it he kept irritating me with his doll. LOL! not doll, some stuffed toy. tell you all about it another time. haha. but we had fun anyway.

    great day for recharge. i just wish we can carry on this kind of life till the end. without my mom calling me of course. well, just glad that we can do this today.

    oh, exams are almost over for poly students right? some already have finished. good luck to those still at it. and strive on jc people! do well for promos k? haha.

    sigh, wonder why i feel so empty now that i'm home. and i think i need more trust from my parents. i'm no kid anymore.



    -LeeUuZ


    11:59 PM


    Saturday, August 25, 2007

    finally! LL finished his mid years! haha. i'm so so happy. haha. it's so hard for me to keep myself away from him to let him study and all. and it's like i just feel so lonely during these exams period. everyone, i mean EVERYONE, is having their exams while i! am just working routinely. haha. sad right? bleh, miss mugging with my friends. but well, working's fine especially when i get that pay. haha. maybe i should do more OT. haha.

    anyway, so happy he finally finished his exams. or else, every second i go out with him would make me feel so guilty! even when i visit him at night, his mom would be telling us not to play. would be nagging for him to send me home so that he can study. haha. well, it's over! hope he does well, hope. but for now, i'll just enjoy waiting for him to prepare supper! haha. i love LL's cooking loads and loads. it's so creative, so simple, and so delicious! haha. can we switch places in the future? i'll work for the house income, you stay at home and cook for me and the kids! hehehe. like that the kids can enjoy good food instead of living in fear of being poisoned to death every day. hahaha.

    hmm, interesting stuff that happened today? guess not. but my upperstudies left me! first was this colleague called jacinta who was the one i took over. then june! well, she hasn't exactly left yet but her comings to work are getting rarer. she was the one that coached me alot alot. then was huiying (there's so many huiyings in singapore)! the one who i can chat with all day just about jap music and anime. she also taught and reminded me of alot of important stuff. well, today, peixuan left. she's not exactly my upperstudy, but i had so much fun hanging out with her. haha. she's like so silly and her actions and all just bring the CorpSales department so much laughter. well, hope you all do well in your uni now that you all left. and huiying! good luck with your new job. haha. intro me more anime alright? xD

    !! smells good. the supper arrived! hahaha. ok, i got to go. being forced to eat it now. boo... :'( see you all soon! especially those who finished their exams! cheerios!



    -LeeUuZ


    1:30 AM


    Thursday, August 23, 2007

    who's xiaoLeeUuZ? my laptop! haha. yes i love her loads. though sometimes (well most of the time) she hangs on me, but i still love her. i feel this connection every time i touch her keys. it's like she understands how i feel. like just now, i opened this email yingen sent me. but i didn't read it. don't know why, i just left it open and i went ahead with the shower. then i had this call. which made me a little disappointed because i was really looking forward to it. well, maybe it's just that i had high hopes for it. so i teared a little and was feeling abit down. so i went back to xiaoLeeUuZ after the shower. i was still feeling sad so i just looked for something to distract me at that moment. well, apparently it was the email i left open. so while i was reading, this song called I Will Follow You Into The Dark played. a really sweet song i think. and yea, after reading the email i brightened up. haha. cause it showed really funny pictures of animals doing stupid stunts. haha. thanks yingen for the appropriate email. (thank God for letting me read this mail at a later time be it coincidence or not)

    yea, i love xiaoLeeUuZ. but it still doesn't make me satisfied with her condition. lags and hangs like heart attack. eratically and suddenly and terribly. scare me know?

    anyway, so rare of me to blog twice a day. hahaha.



    -LeeUuZ


    10:36 PM



    have you guys ever experienced irritating phone calls from miscellaneous characters for surveys or to promote some credit card? i'm sure most of us have right? sigh. i hate them! i know, in their position, it's their job to do so and it's not very easy handling customers over the phone (especially angry ones like me). but it's like, there's always an age limit for this kind stuff what. so can't they ask the age and occupation of the customer first? i mean it's like so idiotic of them to ask soooo many questions and end up, they find out that the survey or advertisement they were doing are all for nothing. ironic aye? like i remember during the holidays last year waiting for my results, i had a couple of phone calls ALL EARLY IN THE MORNING! i was so tempted to just slam the phone at them right? destroy my beauty sleep. so like, the first called me and said ALOT ALOT of stuff which i'm totally not interested in. and finally the question popped,

    "oh by the way miss, what's your occupation?"

    "STUDENT."

    and you know what?

    "ohokbye. tuuuuuu..........................................."

    -.- thanks alot. the following caller was even worse.

    "err, hi. i'm *** from thisthisthis company."

    "oh, someone from your same company called me just awhile ago. i'm a STUDENT."

    "oh-tuuuuuuuu.................."

    GARH! don't you just hate them? never mind. today! while i was at work with my head full of orders, this irritating chinese woman called me.

    "HAR LOW? NEE HUI JIANG HUA YUU MAH?"

    at first, it was so uncomprehenable that i went "huh?" typical typical. i was already annoyed at that point because i was BUSY. i emphasize, i was BUSY! but she had to go on,

    "WO XU YAO HUA NEE LIANG SAN FEN ZONG DE SHI JIAN WUN NEE YI XIE YOU GUAN blahblahblah*dununderstand*"

    so i was like sorry i'm busy i got to go in chinese. and she doesn't care! she was like, oh nevermind, just two to three minutes of your time in some weird chinese slang. sigh, so i just played along. it was already so hard trying to understand what she was telling me and all, plus! i had to resist scolding her and just slamming the phone down. then, the question came.

    "ER, SIAO JIE, NI JEE SUI?"

    "SHI QI."

    "NAH NEE SHI NIAN GAO JEE?"

    "CHU YI."

    "ORH. DUI BU QEE. tuuuuuuuu......................................"

    #$%^&*&^%$!@!!!! i want to strangle her can?!?!?! irritating. wasted my time. so rude somemore. well, at least she said sorry, the other two didn't bother. sigh. what's worse? I DIDN'T GET TO SLAM MY PHONE! SHOULDN'T I BE THE ONE WHO WOULD BE LETTING THEM HEAR THE "tuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu......................."? argh. scammed.

    ok, i have to get back to work. hahahaha! sorry if the post seemed draggy. can't help. lunch and aircon just makes people drone. xDD



    -LeeUuZ


    2:25 PM


    Monday, August 20, 2007

    i'm bored! i hate it when everyone's having exams. well, for now. xD cause it's like everyone's mugging BUT ME. hate to say this but i really do miss mugging. though i guess i won't be as motivated as i was during the 'O's but i know i can mug by myself. really missed those times while in macs or airport mugging with cass, hoi, nee or the occasional guan and dan. also one or two times with kenny kayhowe they all. ): boo. i really miss mugging. it was the time when i had the most fun and also the most tormenting periods of my life. i mean like, mugging is fun when friends all take a break together. but it sucks when you're left with nothing but fries, small sprite and idiotic mac staffs chasing you away. not to mention cocky holes who have nothing to brag except for being how smart they are. yes it tormented me. i knew during that time i hated anyone, just anyone who makes scoring As sound so easy. i hated those who sore over their Bs while i was struggling for a pass. yup. totally sucks aye? fortunately for me, i've got friends who care for me from all angles. messages, cards, sweets etc. or just plain considerate of my emo-ish temper.

    haha. want to share some pics that i took during that period of time anyway. fun reminiscing those "tough" times. xD























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    FOUR!
























    FIVE!


    well, we kinda went on till TEN! haha. but that's too much for the readers i guess. xD sorry mom! putting unglam pics of us. haha. no choice. only got yours. anyway, ready for more? ahahaha!! more random shots!























    yesyes. i remember what you guys did to a photo of me. thanks loads.
























    guess who's sleeping again? xD
























    and who's doing the stupid stunts again. LoL.
























    yesyes, my GF is cute with short hair. but she didn't cut it in the end.
























    i believe i spend more time doing this with her than studying. xDDD



    haha. fun right? i have loads more. but i really don't know how to uploads pics correctly. always ends up kind of messed up. sigh. anyway, i'll entertain myself with some anime now.

    good luck to those mugging!

    to LL: jiayou k! i know you can do it. look forward till the end of your exams. (:

    to nee: sigh, pangseh me again. nevermind. rest well study more!

    to GFF: don't keep playing!

    to laoma: stop acting busy and STUDY!

    to 07S22: mug hard k! girls! i'll treat you girls to a feast after the promos alright? good luck and mug hard!

    to DISCUs: haha, stay fun. trust the Lord to lead you all the way k! be praying for you all.

    to the rest i missed out: all the best!

    hahaha. i sound like i'm leaving. xD



    -LeeUuZ


    10:55 PM


    Sunday, August 19, 2007

    anyone can help me design blogskins?? or like show me a site that is not www.blogskins.com? please? i so dearly want to change my skin but i just can't seem to find a proper one nowadays. sigh.

    hmm, as the title suggests, i had a hair cut! haha. now it's short. but not as short as how it used to look. xD if you guys are thinking i'm back to my secondary one till three haircut, you're wrong! haha. well, basically it's just short. but it's the girlie type of short. not girlie as in straight fringes and straight ends. just erm, whatever. look for me to find out more! haha. xD anyway, i think it's really nice. different look from what i usually have. haha. sadly, supposed to cut short with neh but in the end, she PANGSEH! haha. actually, it's not her. haha. cause the hairstylist commented that she's not suited for short hair? correct me if i'm wrong. so yea, in the end she got her fringe changed and got pretty cute feelers! haha. know she loves them.

    well, i'm feeling kind of bored. want to upload pictures of national day but i'm going out soon. watching rush hour 3 with mom dad and bro. heard it's really funny but has no storyline. haha. guess i'll just enjoy the movie laughing my head off. i already have a bad feeling my bro's going to mimick the show a million times after it. haha. he's beside me and lucky he's not looking at me blogging. know why? warcraft! haha. i know he's playing warcraft but i think i've strayed too far from computer games to know which is he playing. i know it used to be dota and tower wars etc. sigh, i'm getting old. xD

    i want songs!!!! haha. i want that 881 song! LL please send it to me! please please! haha. bleh, reason why i'm blogging now is also that i can't see LL. ): having exams on tuesday so he needs to study. i'm so scared that i'd burden him and affect his studies.

    alright. got to go!



    -LeeUuZ


    3:12 PM


    Tuesday, August 14, 2007

    sigh, i'm bored. and i miss LL's presence. but it's like i just met him just now, maybe it'd be better if we didn't. but i just can't help but miss him. furthermore, it's going to be our sixth month after midnight. all the more i wish he was here beside me. sadly i can't be wilful now, i know he's got exams.

    well, work still fine as always. just kind of wished that it'd be smoother like i can go home on time. sigh. on days i can't do OT, i really don't want to stay another minute after knocking off. but recently, really can't bear to leave work on time seeing the amount of work piled up on us.

    aaahhh!! i can't think. the only thing that's on my mind right now is LL and more LL. ): i really miss him loads. why why? i'll see him tomorrow. it's just few more hours. i so feel like going to find him now. but he's studying! ugh.

    so sorry readers letting you all go through my wilful rants. but i guess all of you might be too busy studying too. this is the exam period for poly and mugging period for jc after all.

    oh yea! got to know of this anime called NANA. it's really good and i love it loads. the songs from it are also brilliant. got this song called A Little Pain. it's really touching and sad. the meaning of the song is just plainly missing someone dearly and feeling a little pain. wishing that the person would just stay with you from now onwards till forever. can't get sick of the song. anyone wants it? xD other songs like Rose and Lucy are really punkish and can get you rocking along with the rhythm. bleh, what's the use of telling you all, just go watch the anime yourself.

    AND! anyone watched 881 yet? haha. go watch it! it's pretty good. genre is musical. songs are really really catchy! haha. but for those who do not understand hokkien well, erm, i guess you have to read the subtitles then. shan't spoil it for those who want to watch it. haha. the show's quite hilarious too. >.< must watch?? wouldn't hurt to try it out! HAHA.

    time fly faster till i meet him tomorrow. i wish i can control time. fast forward till i see him then slow everything down. so that i can spend an eternity in that moment. sigh, wishes and more wishes. how many of them really do come true?



    -LeeUuZ


    11:38 PM


    Sunday, August 12, 2007

    national day for me this year was different than the past years. usually, it'll just be a good rest when i'd just lay at home and sleep. night would either be watching NDP live on tv or i'd be heading down somewhere with my family to watch the fireworks display. this year however, i went high tea-ing with my family at swiss hotel. which was very poshful. haha. we were at this restaurant 72 storeys high and i could see everything. really everything. singapore's really small. haha. anyway, the food was not bad plus it's a buffet so it was worth it. took some pictures whilst i was there but can't post them cause i'm too lazy to upload them from my phone. haha. so as i mentioned, i could see everything, we spotted this rehearsal thing. we saw loads and loads of people holding red and white umbrellas in a field forming a mosaic of the singapore flag! and it was brilliant. bro and i had fun trying to take pictures of it. cause it's like the people would close their umbrellas and wait for the signal. then! as the signal goes out, they'd open their umbrellas simultaneously with the effect of the blooming singapore flag! haha. cool!

    after the extremely full and much satisfying buffet, which i ate loads of strawberries, my relatives left for fullerton. one of my aunts booked a room specially for my grandparents to enjoy NDP and also have a good rest. while me, bro, jov, aunt ling and mom went shopping. well, we were supposed to buy bread but we kind of sidetracked. so bro bought a shirt while i bought an onitsuka tiger shoe! haha. man, my salary's going to be depleted in such a short time. haha. whatever i guess. been quite some time since i last splurged on myself. the last time i did was getting my hair rebonded. yea well, the shoes are so so pretty! haha. ok then we went to fullerton. i admit, the place was just right for watching NDP cause we could see the performance grounds from the balcony. what's more, the toilet totally rocks ok? haha. sadly, i really couldn't stand one of my aunt (dad's sister in-law). and LL was so near me (he's at orchard! while i'm at raffles place) so went to meet him. so sorry, i'm always late these days. thanks for being so gentle with me. haha. i knew he wanted very much to go home and rest but he still brought me to watch the fireworks just cause i wanted to. so we went to the marina square food court and whoa, loads of people were already camping there! haha. so we squeezed into the crowd. turns out, dads with kids were everywhere and the kids were on the dads' backs. which i found really irritating cause their butts would be right in my face everytime they turn. grr. well, despite the squeezing and the pushing and the butts, i enjoyed every single second of the fireworks display. partially, LL was there with me and had this romantic feel to it. LOL. well the other was that the fireworks this year were just so beautiful! like better than past years! just wished it'd last longer. so there we stood watching the fireworks, i just felt that the crowd was gone. it was just us and the fireworks and it could never feel so right. thanks LL for always giving in to me and my wilful requests. :)

    well, i want to blog more but i'm falling asleep. so much for laptops being so convenient that you can even use it on your bed. xD



    -LeeUuZ


    1:24 AM


    Tuesday, August 07, 2007

    i remember on one of the saturdays with jiami-jie as the speaker for the sermon, she told us an analogy of life.

    LIFE is like a PEN.

    all of us is like a pen. our ink be our lifespan. yes, all of us may appear to have the same amount of lifespan, but really, how many of us really live our lives till our last drop of ink? it's like you can buy a brand new pen and it can just fail you on the next day. no matter how expensive or how exquisite is the pen, all comes down to an empty shell if the ink dried up or is used up. and how many of us can really write out poetries of life? really make good use of our ink instead of scribbling it away on walls or bus seats? our lifespan is as unpredictable as that of a pen. how do we know we'll be able to write till our last drop of ink? what if we just dried up? what if we were dropped on the ground and our bearing at the tip doesn't work anymore? but while we can, it's really up to us if we want to make good use of our ink. be it drawing beautiful pictures, scribbling formulas etc, it's really up to us.

    why am i saying all these? my ex-neighbour, uncle mark, had just passed away on august fifth. his wife, joanne, and two children, shaun and ethel, missing him loads now. went to the wake just now and sigh, it's really my first time seeing joanne so sad. i felt heartbroken. seriously throughout my life knowing auntie joanne, i've never seen her frown at all. she looks stern when disciplining her children but other than that, her face is always full with that radiant smile. losing uncle mark must have hurt them badly. personally, i'm not close to uncle mark but i'm still pretty affected by it. life is so unexpected. i still remember seeing him on chinese new year just the start of this year. now he's gone, really gone. but the consolation of it all, i know that the family is blessed by God's grace. and with confidence, our faith, we know he is in heaven with the Lord. ask me about this blind faith, why do i trust in God so much? why did He not save the good people in the world? why do kind people get punished for being kind and the evil ones run scott free? for that i can't answer you for i'm not God. but what i think, God wants the good people to be in heaven already. maybe God doesn't want them to wait too long and rewards them with the early admission into heaven. or perhaps, God wants us to learn lessons from all this. well, we can only guess. but i'm sure this faith of mine will lead me on. and i was really reminded of the urgency for the salvation of others. also, to cherish every second i spend with my loved ones. please Lord, don't take any of them away from me just yet. truly i haven't been living a Christ-like life. when was the last time i brought someone to church? when was the last time i really spend time and effort to pray for the salvation of my family? when i think of all these, i cannot help but cower in a corner knowing the ugly side of myself.

    "i will soar with You above the storm"

    Lord i want others to soar with you too. for now, God bless auntie joanne and family. God bless my family and friends, whether believers or not. lastly, God bless LL, and thank God for him. also thank God that he bothers to try and clear his doubts by asking me loads and loads of difficult questions. i really want to answer them all for you but really, experiencing the love yourself is really more convincing than anything else.

    may grace be upon all of us tonight. amen.



    -LeeUuZ


    1:31 AM


    Sunday, August 05, 2007

    bahh! i hate myself sometimes. when will i ever learn? sigh. i lost at national 'b' to a primary school kid. and man! it was so wasted! she's like the lousiest primary school kid that i'll ever meet and i just wasted my chance like that. sucks badly. it's not that she's any good or what. i mean, her basics are really strong but that's all it is to it. i have more skill, more tactics, and more experience. why the hell i lost? because i'm scared. sigh! how many times do i have to psycho myself in order to start winning again? i remembered secondary two, i was so looking forward to east zones being the first singles and all. like the matches we played in school, i got the best scores. in the end? my first match again cchsm, i lead 2-0 at first but lost 2-3. and then on for the WHOLE east zones, i just fumbled and fall through it. i suck right? basically i just know that my opponents are no match for me but i just can't win the game! and when i finally pshchoed myself into the WIN WIN MUST WIN mentality and the NOT AFRAID OF COMPETITIONS mindset, i was secondary four already! late huh? but at least i did it and it rocked, hard. and now i lost it. sigh. is it just because i changed a rubber and playing style? is my mental so weak? i can't blame my lost on the rubber nor can i place it on not training as much as that kid. i know deep down in me, i just know it's myself that i have to overcome again. how long will it take this time? and shucks, i just missed the Dr Ng Eng Seng cup sign up dateline. means i can't work on my mental. it really sucks to play good off court but badly on court. i wished it's the other way round. :(

    i remembered last night after playing at tampines west, i kept repeating "sha! sha! sha!" *smash* over and over. and i kept thinking about how i got to the stage of mind when i was in secondary four. kind of got some idea. sadly i'm working so i can't really go about thinking about tabletennis all the time. but i really thank LL for being so patient with me all these while. i know he's been putting a lot of effort in training me. it's natural to be worried about me and get frustrated to see me pull that kind of stunt infront of you huh? so sorry. i'll do my bestest best next time. sigh, so much for tabletennis in this post.

    lazing around again in this sunday afternoon. bored. bro went with cousin to WCG at suntec. wanted to join them at first but i got lazy and wanted to reserve my time in case i suddenly feel like seeing someone. :) haha. oh ya! thanks melinda shiyu and shunzi for friday. though it was only a short meeting and all, really thank you girls for celebrating my belated birthday with me. thanks for the food and the cake. makes me feel so blessed to have juniors like you all. haha. thanks much. :)

    hmm, my piano teacher got me a cd! haha. she's really nice to me and all. like my close aunt or something. she's really been taking good care of me since i was primary two? i think so. whoa, this will be the nineth year since we knew each other. cool huh? kind of watched me grow up. gorgeous lady. xD

    i love jazz much much.



    -LeeUuZ


    4:09 PM


    Friday, August 03, 2007

    woohoo!! finally the national 'b' division competition has started! haha. waited so long for it. i'm excited. heehee. will be playing in an official competition since i changed my rubber. haha. so i was so expectantly getting to the place with LL on a cab. LL was so sweet, made ice milo for me to drink during my competition. thanks :) it was really really delicious. haha. so yea, we took a cab down. when we arrived, the place was already filled with people and man, they are all so PRO! like really. i felt really demoralised when i saw primary school kids playing at my standard and higher. phew, kids nowadays huh? reported and waited for my opponent to come.

    (the name below was changed to protect the privacy of the character involved)
    "BLAH BLAH BLAH! PLEASE REPORT TO THE OFFICIAL'S TABLE!"

    and it went on for some time. so i was looking around frantically. but yup, my opponent was no where to be seen. so they finally went,

    "LIU YING! PLEASE REPORT TO THE OFFICIAL'S TABLE!"

    and so i did. i won. wow. 3-0. 33 points straight. i thrashed my opponent 11-0 in all three games. whoopee! haha. NAH! it was a walkover. shucks, wasted LL's effort and our time. sigh. in this situation, there's two sides. one side, i feel really disappointed for not having to play. it's like i'd rather lose than win by walkover. like so irritatingly lucky. haha. well the other side would be like, heck! i won anyway. next round here i come! LoL. yup, sad right? never mind. next match's on saturday evening. against another alien name. but somehow i heard her name somewhere before. hmm. just do my best right?

    so like being really disappointed and irritated with not having to play, LL and i decided to leave. and guess where we went? LL brought me to this place called Singapore Action Group of Elders. sounds cool? the initials are even better. S.A.G.E! hahaha!! wicked sick! it's an old folks home which is refered as le lin to alot of tabletennis players. it's because there's a tabletennis room there which ALOT of ex-national players go to. so it's like an IMBA fortress. how pro? even RI/RGS/RJC standard can't win. LoL. maybe RJ got chance but still... anyway, i was so so amazed by the place. like super cool. and the old men there are really nice. cause i was new there and all. they saw me standing there with this burning desire to play so they gave me the chance to. i played with two people. first is this old guy who's going to be the veteran for changkat next year. he's not bad! i lost. shucks, i could've made it a more even fight. it's ok! i'll beat him next time. then i played with this guy but i forgot his name! he's quite famous in sg tabletennis. heard even national players have tough time playing against him. and yea, i got trashed. but it was fun fun fun! haha. and he taught me some techniques which i found really useful. going to use them during my next match. yup! haha. so i kept playing set after set with this guy till it was like? 11plus? oh no. LL signalled me to end it. and then we left. his dad came to fetch us. lucky! we're at toa payoh man. so far far away. so we went for supper which kind of sucked. the food all tasted like it was kept overnight and brought out to cook again. seriously, LL's cooking can beat them anytime. trash them flat! haha. really love LL's cooking. :)

    so now i reach home already. bathed already. going to sleep soon. just thought that i'd like to update on how cool S.A.G.E. is! haha. think i'll frequent that place again soon. hehe.



    -LeeUuZ


    1:14 AM