hurtful words, they never fail to push the limit of my sanity.

♥ 12:00 AM

i bruise damn easily but i don't cry.

doesn't mean i don't feel the pain when i get hurt.

♥ 3:02 AM

after like so long i finally got the photos from my cousin's wedding back in december.

don't know if i mentioned it the last time, we had a dslr to play with during the wedding. so during the early morning, went to my cousin (steven)'s house to wait for the bride to come over.

while waiting, jing and i were experimenting with the dslr. hahaha damn fun (X



sorta became our mini-photoshoot session. haha. but we got serious when the bride arrived and jing went to do his job,



yes, opening the car door and getting the ang bao. LOL! kept saying how much he wanted to do it hearing about all his friends doing the same thing.




after traveling like to and fro, finally went home to get the rest we needed and before we knew it, we were off for the wedding dinner at fullerton!












eric is a damn good photographer! let me show you why!















it's just glasses but the way he shot it, the lighting, effect, makes the glasses look so alive! it's like a professionally shot wallpaper for desktops! awesomelicious! (:













marriage does not only bring the couple together, but the entire family too. since marriage is such a great "bond-er", more people should do it! just make sure that the families aren't against it. haha.

ps: LOVE THE DRESS (:

♥ 4:45 AM

kay i'm back. well, not just but like couple hours ago. was so tired that i fell asleep before i did anything else when we got home just now.

anyway, it was pretty awkward for me cause nobody from my "clique" (people like jing, hanyun, kaihan... etc) were there. and the aunties were just staring openly at me. it's like the moment i stepped into the house, all their eyes followed me and i hear murmurings.



"it's her daughter la...."






"she change a lot hor..?"



stuff like that. and when i finally got introduced as "her daughter", they were like bombarding me with how much i've changed and many other stuff that boosts your ego. LOL.








"wah now so pretty huh..."






and on and on and on... it was damn embarrassing and i could do nothing but just SMILE and WAVE. it got worse later on in the evening but i'll leave that for later.

so we were waiting for the lion dance troupe to come (yes lion dance, dad's lecturer/adviser is rich and generous and very very deep rooted to the chinese culture). as i've said, it was awkward for me cause i knew no one. resorted to DJ MAX until the lion dance troupe finally came!



you know right, i was damn pissed off with my BB's camera. it really sucks to the max can! somehow wish that my SE C902 was still with me. but nevermind! maybe it's time i get a camera.

alright the "gets worse" part.

you know how the lion would pick up oranges from the ground and throw it into the crowd for 大吉大利 (prosperity for the coming year). like you see in the following photo.


all the aunties would like try to bribe the lion with angbaos so that it'd throw the oranges to them. like a small token of exchange i guess. it was very amusing to watch.

so whilst enjoying the performance, the lion got up to look around for its next "receiver". suddenly, it just came over and stared at me. and i guess i was supposed to take the orange from the mouth and then!!!! it just wouldn't let go of my arm. you know there were two girls around my age sitting right in front of me and they had to move aside for the lion to "flirt" with me.

i think they are pissed off cause if i were them i would be! i think..

aiya then the aunties, including mom, were laughing and stuff. so did the entire lion dance troupe.

ohwell, as least this year i will 大吉大利.


the finale and wishing us good health for the coming year.




went around exploring the house after that. it's damn cool cause the entire place is filled with antiques!




























it's super fun walking up and down just looking at those antiques. like a leap back in time while welcoming the new year. and i finally felt peaceful cause the antiques weren't giving me weird stares. haha.

and i realised how comfortable it was "appearing offline". no disturbance or distractions. and i can really enjoy my music and blog. and it's like, you guys will never know if i'm really online or not. haha. i can pretend not to be and avoid awkward conversations. NICE.

♥ 3:52 AM

CNY as usual is pretty packed.

but when i have nothing to do, i really have NOTHING TO DO (perhaps i should start studying but it's quite pointless cause i only have one paper and it's waaaaay long later like next friday afternoon).

coming online has turned pointless already as there are practically nothing to do up here!

facebook is boring me out and i don't play games.

friends usually talk to me face-to-face or simply call/sms me. which kinda makes msn pointless too.

the only stuff that i do up here is to watch videos, listen to music and blog.

i have to admit that much of my entertainment at home is dependent on one factor, JING.


you can't say we're best friends la. but we do talk a lot to each other when the time arises. and i truly enjoy annoying, teasing, and being every other thing that makes up an irritating older sister. HA!

but, he's working..............

went to comb bugis, cityhall and the whole stretch from somerset to orchard yesterday with yiting. damn tiring cause we kept walking and walking. as the sky turns darker, standing on the escalator makes me wanna fall asleep.

ohya, this was the dress we got together. she wore it yesterday and jing was like,

"eh, that one not your dress meh?"

hahaha. anyway, it's a damn good buy cause it's so versatile and i'm wearing it now to go my dad's boss/tutor/mentor/whateverlecturer's house. (it's somehow an alumni committee gathering)

wanted a proper rest at night but tim and nicolas asked me out. hahaha i think i have a problem with rejecting them but ya, i went out.

ended up at a dimsum spot and we just chilled and relax.



got joined by delvin and we went his house for a small charity event. LOL.

OHOHOH!! see that cap! lost it for like don't know how many months and mom sort of just found it like last week or something. thought it was gone for good. MIRACLE!! (:

alright, dad's rushing me. abrupt end bye!

♥ 5:06 PM

you know what i hate seeing when blog shopping?




ughhhhhh..

♥ 4:44 AM