life gets more and more interesting each day but the motivation for me to blog gets lesser.

but i'll just leave the blog here due to my archives. so guys! feel free to browse through them and enjoy what you'll find!

school for me will be starting in april! well, i wouldn't mind encouragements and stuff cause i'll still come back to visit. hehe. (x

cheers!



-LeeUuZ

♥ 10:42 PM

went to watch the juniors yesterday. this year's competition were held at geylang methodist and i think the school organizing it is dhs. not sure. anyway, both B and C girls won their matches yesterday.

after seeing them, i felt so encouraged. it's like, jiehui melinda shiyu chilli shunzi gelin, they're so grown up now! haha. back when i was sec4, these girls were like little children. they needed alot of encouragement and assurance. and now! they're the ones supporting the team and encouraging the present juniors on. man, i feel so old. but i'm relieved to see them like this now. furthermore, the B girls are so bonded! even though when they can be quite cheeky at times, gossip alot among each other, i see the amount of trust they have for each other. so heart-warming right? (x

anyway girls! rock on for the rest of the competitions. i'll be coming down to give you all my support. do ourselves proud ok? (:



-LeeUuZ

♥ 1:44 PM

oops, i know i haven't blogging lately. somehow, i lost a little interest in doing so.

anyway, cny didn't feel like cny this year. i don't know is it due to the many transitions or just the lack of enthusiasm, but it sure didn't feel as hyped up as the past years. am i getting old?

duh.

eighteen seems like an entirely different world to me. it's like a love-hate relationship. i want to be eighteen so that i can go clubs and pubs legally. i really love the feeling when i dance. it's just so, free? what i do on the dancefloor is just me and only me. how i express myself through those songs. and feeling my body working out, it just makes me feel confident and sexy. (: but again, i'm afraid. now being more exposed to the outside world, the cruelty of the world, i'm afraid. it's not like i haven't seen any of it. it's because i know of the dangers, that's why i'm afraid. it's because of the nightmares i saw people around me go through, i feel that the world is truly evil.

saw gf's blog about missing the innocent childhood days. i miss it too. if given the chance to live completely in the control of my parents and school and stay naive, or to know what i know now and given the freedom that all kids yearn for, i'll choose the first.

many envy the amount of freedom my parents give me. how my curfew was to return home by midnight till i was fifteen. how i could return home in the early mornings just by informing my parents of my whereabouts. how my parents trust that i won't do anything that'll harm my body like smoking or sex. stuff that i'll regret for life if i attempted them. honestly, it's really great to have parents like that. but again, all that freedom, it made me grow up too fast. i see things that people my age haven't seen. i know things that average girls my age don't know. the feeling of being more aged than my friends, i feel so far apart from them.

i don't think i'm more mature than the rest. i just feel that i've seen quite alot. us human beings, we are really sinners that deserve death.

on the lighter note, i watched 27dresses, CJ7, kungfu dunk, ah long pte ltd and sweeny todd! of all, i think 27dresses and sweeny todd are the best. johnny depp is really an actor that i admire alot. even more so after sweeny todd. please do watch sweeny todd if you can and if you love musicals. if you don't really like singing, please still watch it! appreciate the amount of effort that was put into the movie.

alright, i'm off.



-LeeUuZ

♥ 6:02 PM