people always say, until you suffer loss then you'll cherish what you've lost. i don't want to be like that. i don't want to drift from my friends/family/you. but i admit, i think i've neglected some friends. no names but i guess you all know who you are.

for you, i don't want to lose you when it's too late. i know it's a busy time for you with all the stuff you're piling yourself with. i don't think you'd even have time to read this post. but please please don't overwork. time for us to spend together now is getting little. and i really want those times when we could just meet everyday to come back. guess i really need time to get used to it but currently, i can't help but feel worried and lonely. ): but thanks for all you've done for me especially yesterday. the pasta, the tees, the hugs, these will accompany me for now. and thanks for meeting me for lunch today. i know it's not convenient for you to travel for dover to somerset and back again. thanks for spending the effort for me to be happier. but it just aches me to see you tire yourself out.

bleh, emo emo emo. well, haven't got much to update on. glad that cass called me back yesterday after MIA-ing for so long. YOU KNOW HOW MUCH YOU WORRIED ME??!!

garh. sigh, i can't think of anything else but him. i'm getting possessive. HAHA! dependent is more of the correct word? i remember some time ago i was talking to gf about being dependent on our other half, about how we just can't help it. i'm glad that feeling isn't lost. yet! i haven't grown out of it? i'm not sure if he grew out of it or not but i know i haven't. childish, naive, but it's like this.

eight months now and we aim to go further. but really how long will we last? i've heard and known couples who'd talk about getting married and starting a family. ourselves we've talked about it too. but somehow, so many cases prove otherwise. empty promises, stupid excuses, selfish breakups, and much much heartache and tears. do we all mean it when we say "i love you forever"? i can't help but ask myself this question. in the end all i got is more confusion.

fortunately, i'm quite assured. it's just that sometimes i'd think too much. haha. he did well when it comes to assuring me that i matter to him. i guess no other guy will be able to do that for me. ups and downs in this relationship is of course unavoidable. but i'm glad we made it through those times. really thank you so much for all the joy you've given me.

ok friends don't get jealous alright? haha. i love you all too! i've mention in one of my archives. haha. really appreciate all of you! thanks for sharing all the joys and woes together. thanks for wetting my shoulder and letting me do the same. haha. without you all, i don't think i could've made it this far. yay! give yourselves a round of applause! *clapsclapsclaps*

ok, finally finished this post in the midst of keying orders and sending emails! haha.



-LeeUuZ

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