i remember on one of the saturdays with jiami-jie as the speaker for the sermon, she told us an analogy of life.

LIFE is like a PEN.

all of us is like a pen. our ink be our lifespan. yes, all of us may appear to have the same amount of lifespan, but really, how many of us really live our lives till our last drop of ink? it's like you can buy a brand new pen and it can just fail you on the next day. no matter how expensive or how exquisite is the pen, all comes down to an empty shell if the ink dried up or is used up. and how many of us can really write out poetries of life? really make good use of our ink instead of scribbling it away on walls or bus seats? our lifespan is as unpredictable as that of a pen. how do we know we'll be able to write till our last drop of ink? what if we just dried up? what if we were dropped on the ground and our bearing at the tip doesn't work anymore? but while we can, it's really up to us if we want to make good use of our ink. be it drawing beautiful pictures, scribbling formulas etc, it's really up to us.

why am i saying all these? my ex-neighbour, uncle mark, had just passed away on august fifth. his wife, joanne, and two children, shaun and ethel, missing him loads now. went to the wake just now and sigh, it's really my first time seeing joanne so sad. i felt heartbroken. seriously throughout my life knowing auntie joanne, i've never seen her frown at all. she looks stern when disciplining her children but other than that, her face is always full with that radiant smile. losing uncle mark must have hurt them badly. personally, i'm not close to uncle mark but i'm still pretty affected by it. life is so unexpected. i still remember seeing him on chinese new year just the start of this year. now he's gone, really gone. but the consolation of it all, i know that the family is blessed by God's grace. and with confidence, our faith, we know he is in heaven with the Lord. ask me about this blind faith, why do i trust in God so much? why did He not save the good people in the world? why do kind people get punished for being kind and the evil ones run scott free? for that i can't answer you for i'm not God. but what i think, God wants the good people to be in heaven already. maybe God doesn't want them to wait too long and rewards them with the early admission into heaven. or perhaps, God wants us to learn lessons from all this. well, we can only guess. but i'm sure this faith of mine will lead me on. and i was really reminded of the urgency for the salvation of others. also, to cherish every second i spend with my loved ones. please Lord, don't take any of them away from me just yet. truly i haven't been living a Christ-like life. when was the last time i brought someone to church? when was the last time i really spend time and effort to pray for the salvation of my family? when i think of all these, i cannot help but cower in a corner knowing the ugly side of myself.

"i will soar with You above the storm"

Lord i want others to soar with you too. for now, God bless auntie joanne and family. God bless my family and friends, whether believers or not. lastly, God bless LL, and thank God for him. also thank God that he bothers to try and clear his doubts by asking me loads and loads of difficult questions. i really want to answer them all for you but really, experiencing the love yourself is really more convincing than anything else.

may grace be upon all of us tonight. amen.



-LeeUuZ

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