i'm sorry i left you lying there for this period of time all by yourself. even at times when i have this urge to reach you, but failed to do so. all because my life's been controlled by school projects and erm, other friends.

it's not that you don't mean as much as they are to me. it's just that, hais. i don't know how to put it. i guess you should be disappointed in me as i am myself.

all those late night partying.. drinks.. supper.. i know they're just excuses. i can have so much fun without you, so why can't i do it with you? it's sad i know, that i have neglected you just so i can be out there spending and enjoying time with other people but you.

even the recent times that we've met, i dealt it with much haste. only meeting you because i have no dates or have nothing to do. what we have used to be so effortless but now it's such a chore. i hate us being this way.

i feel like i'm using you, sorry ):

it makes me feel so guilty that you are always here for me, whether for good things or bad. and that i could always find comfort in you. guilty that you would always welcome me back with opened arms, but i would leave the instant someone else finds me.

and worst of all, you don't hate me.

why do you treat me so well?

i can't promise you anything. but know that even as i can't be there for you, i still do always think about you. about all the things that i want to tell you, and for everything that you've done for me all these years.

please don't give up on us. i'm fighting hard to save this relationship.

am terribly sorry for what i've done.































I'LL BE BACK TO FIND YOU SOON (X

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