POL-ITE started already and the girls have won SP and RP! technically speaking, only SP cause RP had two walkovers and we were losing 1-2. but lucky we made it i guess.

for those who are disappointed with your performance today, don't be! it's not your best, true.. but we know that you can and you will do better! so let's do well on thursday and friday against NYP and NP (:

i'm here today because i want to write letters to people. everything's messed up again.

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to the first you,
signing in to msn, the first name i'll always see is yours. but today when i signed in, as usual i saw you. but your nickname..

"u give up on me."

do you have any idea how much it hurt me? i couldn't take my eyes off it no matter how much i wanted to. i thought while showering, did i really? just doesn't make any sense. afterall, i thought it was mutual? weren't we still laughing and joking about it? didn't you make promises? but i think it's time cognitivity rule over affection.

how can you say i give up on you when i never did? yes i said i was tired. but i didn't say i was finished. the difference is that when i get tired, i need rest, after my rest i'll carry on with the journey.

it is more about you giving up on yourself, you giving up on us. you've made your choice even though you knew clearly what will happen. ignorance?

i don't even care if i'm known to be the badguy. i only care about what you think about me and what's going to happen to you now

just so you know, a simple remark by you causes pain to my heart. this time, it managed to pierce through the numbness that was within. i really hope you know what you're doing.


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to the second you,
i'm speechless. it shocked and terrified me. i was told many times that my judgement is wrong but i didn't believe them. i believed in you and i protected you. but what i found out, i guess you will never know how it came about. you see, in life there's karma. things that you do will come back and haunt you. while i'm still in disbelief, i keep thinking back to the times when you told me stories, were there links among them? were you trying to hint me something? or you simply can't let me find out about that double-life you're living. i guess now i'll just leave it be. until the day you tell me from your very lips. i guess i'll never trust you again.

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to the third you,
just forget me.

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ladies and gentlemen, have i or have i not just won the prize for the world's most rotten judgement?

♥ 11:58 PM