sorry for the sad entries and all. i really miss him a lot. cremation on sunday got me buried in tears.

onto happier/funnier stuff. i almost got the funeral burnt. haha. fire has been my best companion for the past few nights.

first i got scalded by the incense in front of my grandpa's portrait which left mom laughing silly. i got a blister on my elbow as a result.

then an electric stove broke down and emitted sparks at me. left a burn mark on my shirt. )X

and lastly, while transferring the wax that heats the buffet, i accidentally dropped it when mom went "aah". incidentally, the wax was burning. THUS, the melted wax spill all over the buffet table and tada! table on fire.

such a klutz.

didi is damn smart. he invented a new word called,

TRANSACKETITE (pronounced as tran-zeh-ge-tyk)

what he meant to say was transvetite but don't know why it ended up like that. left cousin jovian and i laughing to tears and it became our word of the funeral. hahaha.

anyway, thanks to all the kind souls that tried to console me and stuff. i appreciate it very much. (: without you guys, i guess life wouldn't be as easy.

and erm, i happen to notice that i have readers from the U.S. hi there. hope you enjoy reading though my english is quite poor.

gonna make a call now.

♥ 12:27 AM

it's been two days since he left. stayed over last night to watch and guard his body at the wake with mom.

i saw mom cried. i guess she misses him damn much. to her, grandpa was almost like another father. someone so close that she trusted him with her children.

grandma has been strong so far. the one making jokes and laughing the loudest. but i guess we somehow know that she's sad. and it hurts to see her in this state. not eating well, not sleeping well.

last night handsomeboy came over to bring supper. so sweet of him to drop by.

i waited as mom dozed off hugging xiaolan beside me on some chairs. poor lady, she only slept for an hour plus since his death. for no reason at all, i kept looking at his body. some part of me longs for him to slowly open his eyes and flash me that smile again. but again, i know it won't happen.

around five in the morning when mom was more awake, i went to nap beside the coffin. and i felt as if he was still around like when i was little. moving towards me with the smile on his face and squatting down beside where i napped. watching me rest.

and i started to whistle his favourite song. and i hummed. before i knew it, i was in tears again.

silly me

♥ 3:48 PM

for all the things i did
for all the decisions i made
i never had regrets

till today

i regret when after receiving the call
telling me to go home early after training
that he might not make it through the night
and i stupidly did

i went home after training

and it was the first time i left early during training
but i guess i wasn't early enough

i decided to get a cab home
as usual
they would drive past even though they are not hired
as usual
i had to wave madly to flag one down

why didn't he wait for me?
i was less than five minutes away

got the call and a voice muttered,
he's gone

tears became uncontrollable
everything seemed to have slowed down
i missed him

when the cab stopped outside my house
i couldn't feel my legs

run, i told myself but nothing
only managed to go faster when i was rushing to the room

tears came silently
and i asked myself,
why didn't i come home straight after the call?

i learnt alot today
some things just can't wait
singapore cabs suck even more
instant noodles go down easy when you're upset

anyway,

thanks for spoiling me when i was small
with cartoons, sweets, outings
thanks for teaching me tactics
in chinese chess, tic tac toe
thanks for sharing stories
of your love story, war, my parents
thanks for the concern
about my studies, health, relationship, tabletennis
thanks for just flashing
that big wide smile before i saw you bedridden

i'm so sorry i couldn't reach home in time
爷爷，我好想你

♥ 1:54 AM

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this song calms me.

Our Last Summer - Colin Firth, Pierce Brosnan and other casts from MAMA MIA

♥ 10:40 PM

saturday was my cousin kuangshing's wedding. congrats and hope you two stay happily ever after. (:

sadly, playing "i knew i love you" at weddings are getting cliche. in the two weddings that i attend most recently, both cousins, both used the same song. so much for the lovey dovey theme.

ohwell, at every event, there's every reason to camwhore. why? BECAUSE YOU DRESS UP AND LOOK PRETTY. (X for me that is. haha.

at home

just leaving home

in the car

during the wedding with didi and andy

after some wine

wahahahaha! i'm a happy girl. (:

and after the weekend (just friday and saturday) break of not meeting handsomeboy, met him after the wedding to watch the disastrous disaster movie. haha. it was super lame la. though the part when the princess from enchanted was really dumb made us laugh, the rest was -.-

on sunday, we went about our usual pasttime, yes, toy catching. figured marina square has really cute stuffed toys like xiaolan, we went back in attempt to catch the big stitch.

and we did! (X

but guess who followed us home too?

can you see them? in the yellow blue red colour peeping out from my pocket?

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there they are! wahahaha. souvenirs (:

so tiny that we couldn't do anything with them though. sad.

i decided to retake the family portrait!



wait, i think someone's missing. hmm...

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OF COURSE! the giraffe! kakakakakaka!

today was actually a disappointing day for me la. went for a job interview which i screwed up. so sorry handsomeboy for throwing my temper at you even though it wasn't your fault. and sorry gf for like letting you see me like this. lX

but it's over already and i just called two potential jobs. hopefully i get one of them and PLEASE, don't be a scam man.

rushed to training. in the end played best out of seven matches. the catch, points start at 6-8 with the server at disadvantage. it was hard. and coach told us, the first person to win four matches will be exempted from running rounds around the track. number of rounds depend on the number of matches you lost in the attempt to win four rounds.

i lost one. ):

and i had a super stressed and tight last win. DRAINED. proceeded to finish my one round.

so long since i last ran. love the feeling when the wind blows against your face. and i love the exhaustion afterwards. wahaha! i'm a freak.

ok, I REALLY NEED A JOB. money no enough already. ):

♥ 1:41 AM

chou ji dan (smelly egg) and xiaolan (small blue)! HAHAHAHA! xiaolan, eeyore, was caught today when handsomeboy and i was at marina square. (: so happy when we got it. cause it's so big and huggable. i also love chou ji dan cause it's just ugly in a cute way. LOL

ohya, chou ji dan has a brother called wang ba dan (bastard) at handsomeboy's place. heehee. reason why they have crude names is because we spend so much money and time on them. the rest of the stuff toys were easily caught but don't know why the dan brothers took extra.

BUT WE STILL GOT THEM (X

sorry ah. i keep posting these expeditions. haha. sorry for any jealousy, envy, rioting, or future spams on my tagboard. LOL. but friends! you can have fun with them when you visit either one of our places. TEEHEE

i want to show you guys this video of a ventriloquist from America's Got Talent. the name is terry fator and his puppets do impersonations of over hundreds of singers. i love this video the most cause the songs are sooo nice. (X

first song is THAT'S AMORE, followed by I LEFT MY HEART IN SAN FRANC.
enjoy!

ok i better go already. wedding to attend tomorrow and i have to wake up around 7plus 8am.

♥ 3:25 AM

WHEE! handsomeboy surprised me just now by getting me supper. so happy can? really spoils me badly that guy. haha. and he managed to catch like more toys. haha. i haven't took any pictures of them yet. but he caught a HUGE giraffe and more dolls from lilo and stitch. (X



so i have to comfort myself by taking pictures! (X






today, handsomeboy brought me to tcc at bugis. and i ate this super delicious sandwich.




some baked pasta thing which he ordered and regretted after seeing my sandwich and tasting it. (X




shucks now i'm hungry already but i just ate!

hmm, i got myself a new pair of fake lashes and also a french manicure kit. and i spent like 2-3 hours doing the french manicure on ONE hand. and i still messed up the manicure. in the end, only four fingers were completed (but quite ugly).

sad luh. how come so hard to do!? and it's so frustrating la. maybe i should just stick to having people do my nails instead luh.

ahh, the only comfort i get is when i wave my hand, THEN my nails look pretty. HAHAHA. or i'm in the dark. BWAH! that so sad la. i failed trying to be a girlie girl. lol

still can be proud of myself when it comes to putting on fake lashes. (X

well, back to serious stuff. been training more recently cause it's the holidays and pol-ites are approaching. i'm very excited about it but worried at the same time. not very sure if i can perform up to standard. but coach is training me hard. hope i don't disappoint him and the team ba.

I WANT TO WATCH MAMA MIA AGAIN. ):

♥ 2:46 AM

on sunday morning, like 140am, handsomeboy and i decided to catch a movie at ehub. there wasn't much choices for us i guess. i really really wanted to watch mama mia, but he wasn't very hyped up by a musical.

instead we watched bangkok dangerous. wah this movie, super stressful man. haha. and i think it's those artistic kind of movie la. though it's not bad, but aiya, too heavy hearted already.

so we came out around 320am just in time for mama mia which was at 340am. so we thought, why not? hahahaha. and it was the best decision for that night la. hahaha. I LOVE MAMA MIA! like compared to bangkok dangerous, it was stress-free, light hearted, FUN. and the cast were great. (:

anyway, want to show you all a video of handsomeboy's favourite song for now. haha. it's from mama mia also.

Winner Takes It All - Meryl Streep (originally from ABBA)


meryl streep is a damn good actress. haha. maybe you all remember her from the devil wears prada? haha. and handsomeboy told me, that this incredible actress finished this scene in ONE take. pro right!!??

lalalala! so in the mama mia mood now. (X

♥ 1:26 PM

no one can beat handsomeboy man. haha. the way he treats me, i don't think there'll be any other guys who'd do the same. i'm so so pampered by him luh. so much that my mom may become the second place when it comes to pampering me. haha (:

anyway! handsomeboy got me the thai love song cd! i love it love it! not only has it got my favourite song, khon jai ngai, there are also other pretty happy-go-lucky songs. haha. and i realised a lot of chinese songs are taken from thai songs luh. or is it the other way round? nah, i think the songs are thai then translated to chinese.

oh well, whatever it is, this is another song that keeps getting stuck in my head.

Yahk Raung Dung Dung by PALMY (pretty!). in english means want to sing out loud. (:


hehehe, there's another MV for this song where palmy is all over in town and stuff. more carefree and fun and not just looking at her and the band. haha.

so today, handsomeboy took off and we went shopping! we caught another THREE! this time it was at suntec. man i tell you, our fengshui place is definitely bugis. cause we spend like twice lesser at bugis. still, very happy that we got the three. (:

we shopped at the top floor of suntec and i found this beautiful beautiful white tube with ruffles at the front. and it needs to be buttoned to be worn. i love it so much ok? like we were meant for each other. (X and i also got a pair of boots. heehee. so excited about wearing them.

aiya, i know you all read this like i taking advantage of handsomeboy like that. ): like all those things he buy for me, do for me. and what i do for him? ): sad luh. but he told me,

you don't worry la. when i say i pay, means i pay. no other meaning.

aahhhh, make me feel so touched and loved. (: i will work hard, learn cooking, massaging and STRIP DANCING to pamper him. LOL. you don't believe i'll do the last one right? hmph, i will. haha. show him only, not you all. hehehe.

YITING DON'T DROOL.

hahaha. don't know why i said that. just felt like saying that cause she hasn't unlocked her blog yet. and she hasn't publish any post.

still haven't got the pictures from genting yet. rar! i want to see them badly. haha. i also want to show you all badly. LOL. (X

♥ 7:27 PM

and is the bag chio or what! haha. handsomeboy got it for me while shopping in genting. (: i'm the luckiest gf in the world.

♥ 5:37 PM

so rare of him to fall asleep before i do. ohwells. just felt like blogging. no pictures though. not at home ma. hahahahaha.

went bugis just now. actually, we really wanted to quit catching the toys at the arcade. but aiya, we caught another two today. LOL. i promise you, they are gorgeously adorable. (X

i'm having my period cramps. had the pain the whole day already. and accurately enough, my periods seem to be coming on the 10th of every month now. it's the consequetive third month already. it's a good thing ba.

BUT, to girls, getting your period is never a good thing. unless, perhaps, maybe, you're having sex with your bf/flings/ONS/whatever and you're afraid of getting pregnant, then getting your period IS a good thing. haha.

OHYA! cass told me, that in recent studies, girls can actually get pregnant even when they're having sex during their periods??? LOL. tsktsk to all you naughty boys and girls out there. don't think you smart smart ah, have period then never use condom.

siao already. so random luh.

and handsomeboy was asking me,

"how come you never blog about me winning in the casino?"

well here you are. (:

presents i got back from genting? a blocked left ear, flu and cough. still i feel like going back. for the shopping, the theme park, and the pampering that handsomeboy gave me. haha. it was really enjoyable. not fun, but we enjoyed ourselves.

and while i was there, i kept thinking about visiting the village i went to during chiangmai trip like three years ago. miss the relaxed lifestyle and the people there. i wonder how they are doing, have they repainted the wall that we painted for them? do the kids still remember us?

memories memories. they form the significant parts of our lives. giving us life's treasure, experience. i love taking pictures because i want to hold on to those memories. but handsomeboy prefers to keep memories in his head. wah, he got huge disk space can?

so when the kids did not take pictures of us (the people who went there), will they still remember us?

ah, so emo.

and i got my results already. it's lousy la, to me. on the happy note, i didn't fail anything. but the sad thing is, i didn't ace anything. overall GPA? not what i want. yet it's something i expected from the amount of effort i put in to attend the lectures and tutorials. quite demoralised. after all, it's only my first year and such a grade, the rest of the journey will be tough.

uni? maybe i can continue to dream ba. ):

whine as i will, i should be contented that i don't have to take supp paper already. but i just can't. i'm so sorry to those that i might/will offend. i really don't mean to hurt you guys ba. i'm just really disappointed with myself. all those resolutions, those aims, they seemed to have gone.

ahwell, no worries. i'll get over it pretty quickly. it's just that i have no distraction right now.

just buck up and do what i can luh. jiayou everyone who didn't do well. for those who did well, good for you. for those who did damn well but complain about getting As instead of Zs, fuck off ah. i really hate those people. LOL

ok i think i cheered up already. (X

and i better go sleep. as i've said before, though it's the holidays, i'm sleeping lesser than on normal school days la.

and to a special someone, i hope you'll feel better. really pains me to see you so upset. i know you try to put up a strong front, but i can feel it de. after all, how long have i known you ah? don't smile if you don't want to. don't laugh if you can't. makes yourself feel miserable and it hurts me too. i'll be here for you anytime yea? loves

♥ 2:50 AM

hey we're back! haha. i miss singapore! especially the food. genting was ok though. went to the theme park, had my first casino experience, and i'm spending plenty of time with handsomeboy.
















take care! (X

♥ 5:52 PM

well, yiting hasn't blogged yet. but i'm here anyways. just don't understand what's so difficult about blogging. and i can't get lazy till i don't blog at all. it's because we're lazy that's why we blog right? to kill time and stuff.



hahahaha.

i can only get too busy to blog. so i'm not busy now, and i need to kill time, plus! i have few pictures i want to upload and share stuff with you all. so i'm blogging! WHOOPEE! (X



oh yea, after the olympics, tabletennis has an obvious increase in popularity. why i say that? because of the full bookings of tables at community centres, sports halls etc. it's great to see more and more people enjoying the same sport as i do.



the problem is, some people who watched the olympics, think they know tabletennis! and more than that, they dare to question people like us who played tabletennis for at least five years. the atrocity. and how long have they known the sport? maybe few hours around the duration of the match? BAHH



hopefully, these people will stop acting childish and have more sportsmanship.

and shucks, i really want to finish this post but i have to help handsomeboy do some stuff. got to go already. ):

well, i'll leave you guys with something i promised.

here's the family photo! only the bear and turtle is bought. the rest are CAUGHT. (:

and this is a little preview of more stuff i want to blog about. cute ain't he?

and finally, tada! i'll be back on tues to finish up on my post. i'm in a hurry! toodles~

♥ 5:50 PM

ok. i didn't take a pic of stitch's sister, here's what else we've got. LOL

the second picture is the nua stitch! haha. nua like it's so soft and stuff. hahaha. nice to hug and use as pillow also. (X i think we got to stop going bugis already. haha.

yes there you have it. have a pleasant night ahead.

♥ 9:38 PM