while procrastinating about studying for accounts, i hopped to cherelle's blog and saw this.

remember last month there's an article about a ns guy who died during the training in brunei? that's his girlfriend's blog and they were together for four years. when i first came across that article, forgot who was i talking to, i merely argued the fact that the medical checkups nowadays are so jialat. everything that they do, it's like just for show. as long as they get it done quickly and get over it. in the end, innocent people suffer because of the lack of integrity.

for me, that matter was one of those, wah another one died during ns again? something is really wrong with the army. can boyfriend stay at home with me? and after that day, i thought nothing much of it.

it's so cruel.

how other's death were treated as merely news to us. simply a topic for us to gossip or debate about. i'm utterly ashamed of myself.

as i read through the blog, i could not help but to cry. crying is not helping and i know that. but to see her struggle through daily life with the absence of her loved one, it pains my heart so much. to see her thanking everyone for their encouragements, thanking her late boyfriend for the memories, and living, she is one incredible lady.


i can't imagine what'll become of me if i were in her shoes. but after knowing her story, i know i love him so so much. i cried partially because of him. he's really the most important person in my life now, apart from my family. i know, i love him genuinely. because her story, wouldn't have made me cry so much if it wasn't about something dear to my heart too.


i congratulate her for finding love, the purest of love that one can ever find. she's one lucky girl to find someone that means so much to her, so much so he's the meaning to her life. many people spend so many years in vain trying to get what she's already gotten.

dearboy, thank you for being my special person. thank you for loving me so much. even when you don't say it out, or just being super mushy on purpose, i can feel it. like times you've told me, that even when you got bored/tired/sian of me, after a day or two, you'd feel weird without me by your side. and that's when you add,

i know that you're a part of me.

you have no idea how happy and loved that made me feel. thank you so much, i love you too.

to charlene if you ever came across my blog, thanks for reminding us about what love is. stay strong.


love is not about having someone
to accompany you when you're lonely
love is not about wearing couple tees or couple rings
love is not about how good the other person
makes you feel in front of people
and love is not defined by the number of calls,
messages, emails you exchange

instead,
love is what makes you lonely when
that special someone is not around
love between two souls have no need to be
seen on t-shirts or rings
love is about feeling good even when both
of you are puking or farting in front of each other
love is defined by the times you are together or apart
whether you're doing something or nothing at all
simply just enjoying being with that special someone

to dearboy, family, friends:

♥ 5:53 PM