since ages ago, my dad has been an egoist. anything he says is right, no one can argue or convince him that it's wrong. till when i grew older like during secondary school. before i knew it, i was arguing with him with every other single thing. but as people grow older, they tend to get careless and all. stuff they say, they know it themselves that they're no longer as quick-witted as they were in the past. dad's getting old.

but the thing is, my mom is really a great mom. despite times i've argued with dad, she tries her best to maintain the harmony between us. and what's even more impressive, is that mom guards dad's ego. just that day when we were returning from kelong, dad's car got some sort of bump. didi suspect it was due to the reversing and accidentally bumping to the back. well, we all did think so. except dad though. so mom told us,

"don't let your dad know what actually might have happened. since he already thinks that someone crashed into his car, just let him be. this way, his heart won't ache so badly over the car."

wah, noble hor. i don't know if i'll ever be able to do that in the future. well, i do aspire to be like my mom since i was young though.

apart from dad getting old, grandpa is too. this worries me quite a bit especially now that i'm always away from home. i know i should be staying at home and all. but sometimes, i just get so distracted by other things that i become lazy to deal with stuff at home. ):

anyway, he's getting slower in thinking, actions, and reacting. and i missed his birthday celebration today cause i chose to go training instead. i'm so unfilial. feeling real guilty now. sigh. i guess it's just pack and parcel of life and everyone has to go through this. i just wish i could turn back time so that i can tell him properly how i appreciate him when he is more clear headed and more gray than white. ): regretting ain't going to help. guess when i go home tomorrow, i'll get him his favourite, curry puffs.

lastly and on a lighter note, i just want to say, my grandma is amazing. she's a great cook, and she knows many languages. mandarin, hokkien, teochew, cantonese, malay, some english even! and she picked up english just listening to people talk. people meaning like didi and me chattering away. cool huh? just like few weeks back, i heard her speaking fluent malay to some management staff in the condo. (X

yup. that's my family. i don't want to procrastinate anymore. i'll grow more independent. to be one that the family can rely on.

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