i decided that my two hundredth post has to be a meaningful one. haha. and yes, FINALLY over a period of one and a half year i posted two hundred posts. that's an average of around ten posts per month.

well, recently i kept reading blog entries about love love and heartbreak. and i wonder about my own relationship. frankly speaking, this is the first relationship i have that lasted this long and is deep rooted in my heart. previous relationship(s) was/were really superficial. guess i was more immature back then and the meaning of love was only about companionship.

then i think back again about the number of suitors i've had. it's really not much. and among those, i've had girls looking weirdly at me wondering if i was straight or not. haha. i remember that time it was really funny cause i used to have very short hair. and i don't exactly look straight. haha. (x the names i was given, xiaodi ahboy etc. was really fun back then. but back to the main point, i'm really surprised that i'm in this relationship right now. though the shock has worn off since long long ago, basically i feel that it's either pure fate that it happened or it was merely an accident that had a twist. LoL. seriously, i'm really thankful for him appreciating me for who i am. and for bearing the unbearable me for so long. ahahaha. and knowing the guy he is now, somehow i don't seem like the "one" he'll look for. sometimes i envy all those girls who he points out to me when we go out. quite demoralising actually. those girls are really so pretty and have like so many people admiring them. ): but in the reality, looks just matters! it's all about the first impression i think. sigh, and the girls he points out are really really pretty. ): so how he chose me?

all these just makes me think, am i just lucky? lucky to know people that led me to him. lucky enough let me just drop in his presence. and lucky enough for him to happen to find me so-called attractive during that time. but, i'm glad i was lucky! (x

ok, that wasn't very meaningful. LOL! but anyway, my weekend was pretty fun. i mentioned that i went to his workplace on friday night. apart from that, went to ahstt chalet at aranda. man those secondary ones are really really screamy. even my primary school kids at qiaonan behave better than them. though they are quite cheeky but at least they don't screech. LOL. come on, screechers please enrol some place else. cause ahs don't screech, we roar. we make big cats look like kittens. sigh, whatever happened to the school? miss the roars of "SHEN ZONG...... SHEN ZONG!! *clapclap*" during basketball season. i know the last time when i went back ahs during one of the trainings that clashed with the basketball match, the stadium was so cold. only sports class people from secondary two and above were there. the rest of the school? it's really sad to see the school spirit fade away after we left. the school does not feel as homely as it used to. but anyway, the chalet, i only chat awhile with some juniors. awhile means like really awhile. not more than five minutes. sad right? only played mahjong with jL cass and shihui. later on went to supper with cass and jL at xinwang. haha. so fun. me and cass make really good investigators! (x

then yesterday, had rehearsal at yms for my piano teacher's christmas concert/fund raising for charity. then i brought jing to find cass at geylang. tsk tsk. we went to the pub and ktv-ed for five hours plus straight. then i got scolded by my mom on the phone. -.- whatever. said i was teaching jing to come home late like me. like what the hell? he could go home late when he's with his friends. she has no problem with me coming home late too. don't understand the fuss about me bringing jing along. MENOPAUSE.

ok, this post is getting pointless. hahaha! so much for being the second hundred. (x



-LeeUuZ

♥ 2:36 PM