so tired. alright, been really busy at work for the past week like i've mentioned in my previous post. and there's loads more to come too. sigh. but i still love work i guess. the difference between work and study is that there's NO HOMEWORK! haha. :) so like no matter how much work i have, i don't need to bring them home! whoopee! haha. and i really like the feeling of rushing and the pressure during work. it just really feels satisfying after i've completed my tasks for the day. heheh. feels good! xD

well, being tired for the week, my weekends are still as fun-filled as ever. supposedly, i can rest early and wake up late in the morning (or afternoon). but i think i sleep even later and wake up even earlier than usual. haha. oops. ended up today feeling really tired. LL too. haha. and like just now, we wanted to go play tabletennis. in the end, the weather was just too suitable for just lazing around and doing nothing and SO! we didn't play. and we wanted to metro for the sale thing. but erm, i started lazing already at like 6pm. so i told LL to wait awhile for like maybe 10-15mins that kind. turns out, i jerked awake at 6.30pm to realise LL was sleeping too! haha. so i woke him up and he wanted another 5mins. ok, so i fell back asleep. haha. so the process kind of repeated itself until just now, 7.30pm! the both of us finally reluctantly left the bed. err, for LL it was the chair. haha. cause erm, i DON'T KNOW who was using the bed. hmm, yups. xD okok, we all know who that person is. no need to spit it out right? xD

well, the weather is really good for sleeping. the nap was well-deserved for the both of us anyway. feeling more energetic now. i absolutely love naps at his house. haha. especially at times when we both fell asleep together. in this cold weather, feeling his warmth by my side is just like heaven. :)

hmm, yesterday we went to colin's belated birthday bbq (COPYCAT!). xD luckily the rain stopped before the bbq began so it wasn't that bad. but the weather was really chilly. after the bbq, LL and i went to play this candy machine we always observed and analyse but never trying it. and man, the stupid game is just so addictive! as we watched the checker climb higher and higher to the jackpot, our hands just continued putting coins into the bloody machine! in the end, we spent like $12??? and we didn't have time to continue till the jackpot. but there was some consolation. we got LOADS and LOADS of sweets. didn't expect we had so many of them. well, it's not like we need them anyway cause we're both diabetic anyways! xD

blah i'm bored. LL went down with his mom to burn stuff. :( this is kind of demoralising. as much as i want him to receive salvation, i still can't stop him from being a filial son. as much as i pray for his salvation, i can feel him drifting further and further away from God. i guess if i was in his position, i would too. in his position, i know and understand his feelings. knowing that things aren't going well for him and God seems to be the one who caused him all his misery. but i can't convince him that if he just let them go and just receive salvation, he'll feel the ease and all the pain would just go away. i know he'll be reading this blog too but well, i don't know how much i can convince him here. for now, i'm trying my best to answer his questions and all. really hope that i won't be the cause for him to drift away.

alright, i'm done with this post.



-LeeUuZ

♥ 8:03 PM

sigh, i've been busy all day at work so far. more busy to come after 2pm. so meanwhile in this short short period of rest, i decided to blog.

well, work really sucks today. it's the first time i haven't got time to check the clock on the computer and tada! it's lunch time already! unfortunately, i still had stuff to rush so i only went to get lunch around 1plus? sigh. and i was actually so looking forward to lunch but due to unforseen circumstances, i actually despise lunch today. so much for plans. not angry, just a little disappointed. actually thought that i could feel much stronger after lunch to continue battling at work but i just feel wearier now. i want to go home! well sadly i can't. as in not because my boss don't allow me to leave or anything. just that i know if i leave the workload on my colleagues will be super heavy. what can i do? didn't have enough sleep last night too cause was chatting with cass on the phone. don't worry mom! it's not your fault!

i heard about something worrying last night. feeling abit guilty about it though i shouldn't be. hopefully i can solve it soon. for now, pray that everything will be done through rational thinking and pray that i can talk sense. yup, shan't reveal much.

ok, i need to get back to work already. sigh. i hate today.



-LeeUuZ

♥ 2:03 PM

hi all! rare for me to blog on a sunday afternoon aye? haha. guess we're all pretty tired. well, i absolutely love weekends cause i get to go out till late at night and i get to sleep all i want too! :)

friday night i went for dinner with LL, his sis and mom. ate at some hongkong restaurant i think. hmm, not too sure. i ordered the pork rib ramen and it was quite good i think. but the dumplings are not really my taste, erm plainly it sucks. haha. after dinner, LL and i went to wander around before going home and we were stopped by this lady asking for a survey. and whoa! the survey booklet was thick thick THICK! haha. took ages for us to finish it but we still did in the end. then we went to walk around the pasar malam. bleh, think you all 'd be falling asleep reading this post cause i can't find anything entertaining to write. haha. OH!! some guys just look so good in pink. haha. not the hot pink type. i mean like, light slightly pale pink <-- like this i think. anyway, i just wished that my parents would allow me to stayover at his house during weekends that kind but i guess it's really too much. haha. nevermind.

last night, went to cineleisure to watch invisible target with LL, hoi, colin and junwei. i didn't know cineleisure opens SOOO LATE at all! quite a number of shops are opened till 3am!! haha. so cool. it's all cause of the late night movies. yup, watched the movie at 3am which ended at 5plus this morning. haha. wanted to go home but it was raining so heavily. in the end, the five of us ended up sleeping at the second floor of cineleisure. haha. got woken up by the security who scammed us saying the rain has stopped. idiot. the rain got lighter so we managed to "escape" and took the MRT home. man i'm tired. reached home at like? 7plus 8am like that. dad was in the living room when i staggered in and he didn't look too surprised neither did he appear pleased. whatever i think. really bad on terms with my dad these days. been bugging me with all sorts of stupid things like not waking up on time and all. saying stuff like won't be fetching me to work if i caused them (mom him and bro) to be late. it's not like i asked for him to fetch me alright? i'd still be early if i went to work myself. sigh, same with school the last time. i'm tired dad. i really am. can't you just get off my back? i'm not even spending your money alright? i don't get allowances now. i spend what i earn ok? i'm just living under YOUR roof cause you'd fuss if i lived under my OWN roof or someone else's roof.

ok i digressed. so i slept for like three hours before waking up to go for piano lessons. surprisingly, i'm not all that tired. tried calling LL but i guess he's sleeping. shan't bother him and let him rest. already did so much for me these few days.

so yea, it's only LeeUuZ here on the couch at the living room lazing away in this sunday afternoon. a change or somewhat, reminiscing the old times. haha.



-LeeUuZ

♥ 3:39 PM

had a rough time at work today. not that there were piles of stuff to do, just that i'm feeling even worse than yesterday. it's like, though i'm not cramping already, my flu and cough got worse. sneezing and coughing all the way while working through the morning. was having headache too. lucky for me, i have very nice upperstudies (senior colleagues). so i was given some slack and could rest. hopefully i get better tomorrow morning. but i can't see how if i'm not sleeping yet. haha.

after work, i went to LL's house again and he made pasta again! haha. seriously, i don't think it tastes bad. but LL and his mom said it sucks. hmm, is my tongue numbed? oh yea!! i forgot to mention in the previous post. LL makes wonderful ice blended coffee too! really love them. i remembered the first time he made them for me was our first week together. that time it was really sweet and really romantic. haha. i was in his room just lazing around and he said he needed to go out for awhile. so i just waited. then! he came in, off the lights, and on his hands was this tall glass with ice blended coffee in it! and the glass was on a plate where he sprinkled not sure was it milo or coffee powder in a heart shape. plus there was a candle too! bleh! thinking about it puts a smile back on my face. haha. i'm having this stupid grin now. xD

anyway, finally touched tabletennis today! wait, LeeUuZ, aren't you sick? yea i am. but when it comes to tabletennis, i just can't get too sick for it! haha. well, didn't play much at changkat. paired up with colin for doubles and lost 1-3. so sorry! still trying hard to learn that short pimple. then last minute games, paired with peter and lost 9-11. blah! well, at least i played better this time round. got a couple of balls in which i'm quite satisfied with. it's always nice pairing with peter. he's an old guy but he's really young at heart. haha. LL and i like him quite a bit. haha. humorous, gentlemanly, and takes good care of the younger ones. yup, nice man peter. :) he came to our birthday bbq too. sadly we didn't really provide him with quality hospitality. so back to tabletennis. well, as usual we ended at 10pm. but LL was really understanding. knew i haven't had enough so he stayed back to stroke with me for like 15minutes. then we went to find the rest for drinks at the coffeeshop. well, just as i thought i'll be going home for the day, i simply told LL i felt like playing somemore tabletennis. so! he brought me to this void deck where a tabletennis table appeared out of no where! haha. so he kind of trained me till midnight. felt quite accomplished, i'm starting to get the stroke. hope i don't lose the feel. yup. i just feel so blessed to have him. really really really. and i promise to make you proud of me k! haha.

ok, i better rest early. pray i get better in the morning. good night everyone!



-LeeUuZ

♥ 1:48 AM

LL's a superduperextraultraextraordinaryabsolutelybrilliantandallsozhai CHEF! haha. seriously seriously! i feel so blessed to have him alright. haha. today wasn't feeling too well, cough flu giddyness and *coughs*girlproblem*coughs*. so asked boss for last minute half day leave which being a nice boss, she allowed! haha. why do i like working at Starhub? xD well anyway, LL was sick too with a much serious flu and fever so he didn't go school. so i went his house to rest. picked me up at tm and we went to get some ingredients for lunch. when we got to his house, he started cooking and all. haha. so pro. bleh, i feel so lousy cause a girl's supposed to cook at home. hmm, going to work on my culinery skills soon! watch out! xD anyway, seeing him so serious when preparing the meal, i practically melted. haha. so nice. :) we had this tofu thing he came up with and also pasta with crabstick hotdog and cheese sauce. yummy! imagine minced meat on tofu with crabsticks and hotdogs and oyster sauce. then, steamed! whoopee! thinking about it just makes me hungry all over again. haha. really enjoyed the meal and was really really full. so if i become obese, we'll know who's the culprit. LoL. xD

and i finally got new slippers. my old ones are undeads man! haha. like beaten up zombies on my feet. LoL. hopefully this new pair will last. haha.

ok, i'm just being random. can't go to sleep at this time and the cramp's not allowing me to sleep too. sigh. lucky this kind of thing is just once in a month that kind so i won't die. haha.

oh! i'm still craving for tabletennis since i haven't got to play since the recent saturday. please please let me play tomorrow! i don't care whether i'm well or not i just want to play! haha. i'm like whining more and more on this blog. what can i do? waiting for tomorrow to come is taking such a long time. :( all i can do now is whine. haha.

! i watched transformers and harry potter already! haha. well, i think transformers were really great, especially bumblebee (i'm sure alot of people will feel the same way), graphics were super cool. harry potter? well, it's a not bad movie. just thought that maybe if it focused more on the voldemort part it'll be better. the parts in hogwarts were kind of funny and entertaining, but i guess it's not really the main point. oh yea! HERMIONE AND LUNA LOVEGOOD are super super pretty can? haha. FRED AND GEORGE WEASLEY are super gorgeous. haha. funny cool handsome dudes. hee.

ok, i've blabbered enough!



-LeeUuZ

♥ 11:05 PM

went to watch POLites today. erm, poly ite competition. xD yea anyway, realised that the girls' standard in poly is so so so not good compared to jc. seriously, not that i'm any better. but i honestly think that jc girls are more competitive therefore aim for even higher standards. then again, the guys' standard in poly is relatively high compared to jc. maybe cause better tabletennis guys are not so academically strong (haha) so they end up in poly instead. or just put it, better tabletennis girls are more academically inclined thus end up in jc. xD either way, i'm just entertaining myself here. not feeling too good. he's not feeling well too. :(

but today was a happy day! cause LL came to find me for lunch! heheh. though it was just a short short hour, i really just enjoyed his company. laughed loads and the smile can't seem to remove itself from my face. haha. you all must be thinking i'm so silly right? like some small kid so easily hoaxed. xD sadly, one hour is one hour and i had to go back to work. so so tempted to just go home with him since he's sick and everything. take good care alright?

aaahhhh!! i'm dying to play tabletennis!! like really really craving for it. like a child to sweets, a bear to honey, and LeeUuZ to tabletennis!! haha. man i can't take it. someone please play with me? haha.

anyway, i'm like falling asleep in front of my laptop. better go sleep already. see ya guys!



-LeeUuZ

♥ 12:21 AM

sigh, my life is BORING! haha. seriously, when you just work all day, you'd wish that you're in school. well, i've said before, motivation for work is MONEY! PAYDAY! haha.

hmm, i've changed my forehand smooth rubber to short pimple! finally. got to try it on saturday but sadly, can't say i'm a genius at it. but i guess playing tabletennis for such a long time simply allows me to get the ball over the net, barely. kind of happy when my first smash went in. the sound was like a short sharp snap-SMAK! still, the timings and strokes are so different from smooth thus i'm still trying my best to adjust. need to play more i guess. anyone wants a game with me? please? hopefully i can get it done before national Bs so i won't look like a total noob infront of so many others. but i think i only have say.... half a month? whoopee. plus i don't think i have enough time to train. my work ends at 6pm from monday to friday. means i can't go for ahs trainings. :( sad. there are only a few nights which i can train but the amount of time i interact with the ball is too little for me to get any closer to average control. and seriously? i need to work on my strokes. strokes for smooth are lengthy as the rubber has more grip with the ball. short pimple however requires minimum movement of the strokes because it has lesser grip on the ball and the speed of the ball gets even faster. this also equates to shifting my weight and my legs faster. helphelp. but all in all, it's fun doing all these. hee. xD so much for whinning.

ok, so you have noticed i changed my blogskin. FREE HUGS! cute? haha. hugs are so important in life i think. every hug i've received so far has brought nothing but comfort to me. and hopefully, hugs i've given others provide the same. :)

alright, i need to go sleep already. workwork.



-LeeUuZ

♥ 11:57 PM

woohoo! i'm finally seventeen. i think this is the age where all will experience major change in life especially the environment. like school or whatever you're doing. somehow, seventeen is this transition in the middle of sixteen and eighteen. sixteen being still too young for many stuff and eighteen being opened up to many many legalisation. so being in this not here nor there age just opens you up to alot of things. hmm, don't really know how to put it. oh! say you can watch NC16 movies. however M18 might not be such a big problem to you cause somehow, the gap between seventeen and eighteen is too small to let your appearances be that much of a difference. ok, forget what i said.

so yea, celebrated our birthday on friday. our first birthday! :) i tell you, the preparation was nuts. especially transporting all the stuff to pasir ris park. it was just the both of us through the whole thing and i really need some quality sleep. can't say the bbq was a success cause i don't think any of you really had fun. so sorry. but i'm just glad that you all came and that's what made the bbq special for me. met up with friends that i haven't seen for such a long long time like hanyun and kaihan. we used to see each other so often but i guess growing up just pulls us apart with all the different schedules. also met up with yingen yubing and val. i miss those girls! miss training with them in ahs, miss crapping and going nuts with them. well, i'm also glad that DISCUs came. though some were missing but i appreciate all the well wishes all the same. huayan came which was really nice of her. despite staying at ANGMOKIO and just finishing training, she still came down and brought me roses. haha. thanks girl! and like neh and nee, people who i'm supposed to see every week but fail to do so, they came and made me really happy. neh, thanks for the cookies! haven't really try them yet. they're at his house. lol. erm nee, thanks for taking time off to come. know your mom has been really tight on you lately. thanks andy and bro for coming too. thanks bro for your present though it doesn't really suit us. just thanks for your thoughtfulness and all.

all in all, thanks for all your presence and gifts. makes me feel so cared for and so loved. :)

well, didn't really have the time to blog after friday night. it's because of spending loads of time with him and everything. gave me a little surprise at his house on saturday. HAAGEN DAZ strawberry cheesecake ice-cream!! yummy! with a candle too! haha. made my day. and i sort of realise that our relationship grew stronger and more stable after friday. guess it was all the slogging together got us more bonded? i don't know exactly. but i just feel that we've just entered another stage in our relationship. :) anyway, thanks for the jacket! i really really love it!

hmm so i guess my birthday this year was really well spent. thank God for it. hopefully now i'll learn to get even stronger and continue this fight in life.



-LeeUuZ

♥ 1:14 AM

heehee, i'm so excited for friday. it's our first birthday together! so hope that it'll be great.

PEOPLE! can you all like reply me or something? i need to really confirm if you all coming or not. note that it's only my friends are coming, HIS are too. and it's like, we got different groups of friends also. yup, please please confirm with me alright?

anyway, work for the whole of this week just sucked. haha. been really busy and all (that's why i need you guys to reply me!) resulting in OTs. i don't mind earning extra by going home late, but not on days when i need to knock off on time. hmm. today or rather 4july is the worst. two of my colleagues and me worked all the way through lunch! we didn't even have time to go buy any food back. luckily, we got the other colleagues to help us get food. and man, were we starving. when our lunch came (burgerking), we gobbled them down. and sadly, i wanted to eat kfc badly and was planning to head towards plaza sing or taka to get it with another colleague. in the end? sigh. heheh, but i still managed to eat kfc in the end. met LL for dinner and we ate KFC!! like finally. it's been so long since i last ate at kfc alright? i used to eat them like three to four times per week? but now, i think the last time i ate kfc before today would be three weeks ago. haha. and the satisfaction of the juicy tender meat in my mouth simply melts the whole of me. heaven!! haha. but i WANT MORE!

I LOVE KFC! well, haha, don't get jealous over some chicken. xD

:D i keep having this wide wide grin on my face. FRIDAY FRIDAY!! my superlicious sweeping seventeen! really can't wait. will definitely look forward to seeing all my friends and of course, FOOD. blah, i'm hungry now. meat, i need meat.



-LeeUuZ

♥ 1:54 AM

it's DOUBLE CONFIRMED!

event: birthday bbq
venue: Pasir Ris Park, Pit48
date: 6th July 2007, Friday
time: 5pm onwards
who to expect: erm, alot of people
what to bring: yourselves! presents really optional. but if you want to give i'm sure we won't mind. xD

haha. please do come ok? especially those i've approached personally. haha. your presence will mean alot to us. yup!

ok it's late. i should go sleep. madness, i'm in the working class and i'm behaving like i'm having school holidays. xD

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i really should sleep early. but somehow it gets harder when you own a laptop. and falling asleep with it seems to be too easy. lol.



-LeeUuZ

♥ 2:20 AM