well, this morning i was feeling kind of emo. don't know why but well, i just was! guess doing nothing while waiting for flag raising to start makes me think too much. so there i was sitting at the triangle area, i was thinking,

"actually, i didn't think much about not getting into tj. somehow during the time when i got to know about my rejected appeal, the poison hasn't taken effect yet. now, as i go about my canoe trainings, i wonder why am i doing this. i know he's disappointed that i gave up pursueing tabletennis, but i didn't heed his advice. so as i look at a friend who's in the same situation as me, i understood how he and my coaches felt. just two words, wasted talent. LeeUuZ, you're screwed up dear girl. all i can do now is to study hard and make sure i get into a university. sports career? vanished."

so negative and emo right?? gosh i didn't believe i felt that way. and it's not like my sports career would just vanish so easily. i can participate in individual competitions and all! so what the hell am i emo-ing about?? LOL. but on the lighter note, 07S22 seems to be able to cheer me up. the class is quite fun. and it's just the second day we're together! hmm, we're kind of cliqueing easy. so yup! hopefully we'll bond more and stuff.

SIGH! i hope i can catch up on my studies. really don't want history to keep repeating itself! and it's been proven that i'm not all that lucky all the time. doesn't mean that i can get into AHS by appealing means i can do so to tj. yup. i really need to buck up.



-LeeUuZ

♥ 10:11 PM