whoa! more than a week just flew by like that. well actually, first week of school was kind of draggy and slow so i didn't really like it. however the second week, which is this week, time flies. i mean like, other than getting used to the timetable and the school system, 07S22 is just so fun. though we haven't had any official cg outing yet, but we're still enjoying ourselves in school. and i look forward to school just to hang out with 07S22.

but on the sadder tone, jc life is really hectic. it's like the second week into the term and i've been given never ending homework and notes to read up on. furthermore, there's CCA activities and makeup lessons! madness. i can't remember myself ever being so busy. plus some other personal stuff like coaching and also allocating time to spend time with my friends and family and him. fortunately, i'm not stressed and not as exhausted as i thought i would be. in fact, i'm actually quite happy with my current life though the timings are quite messed up. haha. well, guess the most important thing in life would be to just be contented with what you have. and i gladly say that, "i don't regret getting into TPJC!" haha. somehow, i learn alot in tpj. stuff that i don't think i'd come into contact with if i was in tj or vj or someplace else. guess this is what we're all talking about when we say leave it in God's hands.

ok, it's getting late. i'll try to update again soon.



-LeeUuZ

♥ 11:36 PM

well, this morning i was feeling kind of emo. don't know why but well, i just was! guess doing nothing while waiting for flag raising to start makes me think too much. so there i was sitting at the triangle area, i was thinking,

"actually, i didn't think much about not getting into tj. somehow during the time when i got to know about my rejected appeal, the poison hasn't taken effect yet. now, as i go about my canoe trainings, i wonder why am i doing this. i know he's disappointed that i gave up pursueing tabletennis, but i didn't heed his advice. so as i look at a friend who's in the same situation as me, i understood how he and my coaches felt. just two words, wasted talent. LeeUuZ, you're screwed up dear girl. all i can do now is to study hard and make sure i get into a university. sports career? vanished."

so negative and emo right?? gosh i didn't believe i felt that way. and it's not like my sports career would just vanish so easily. i can participate in individual competitions and all! so what the hell am i emo-ing about?? LOL. but on the lighter note, 07S22 seems to be able to cheer me up. the class is quite fun. and it's just the second day we're together! hmm, we're kind of cliqueing easy. so yup! hopefully we'll bond more and stuff.

SIGH! i hope i can catch up on my studies. really don't want history to keep repeating itself! and it's been proven that i'm not all that lucky all the time. doesn't mean that i can get into AHS by appealing means i can do so to tj. yup. i really need to buck up.



-LeeUuZ

♥ 10:11 PM

well well, so much for slacking at home. now school's reopening tomorrow! dear dear LeeUuZ, are you ready for it yet? haha.

hmm, i joined canoeing. WHOA! haha. what happened to tabletennis? truth is, i just don't have the motivation to play tabletennis in TPJC cause the opponents are well, not so good i guess. i will never know till i try anyway. but seriously, i need challenge. i want to have the thrill of knowing that my spot in the team will be constantly challenged. like in AHS, i'll always have to improve to keep up with yingen and the juniors. haha. yingen's happy right? :) so yea, i need to be pushed. i guess it's the excitement that keeps me going. now that i'm not in a school where i can find real challenges, i feel so? lost. it's not that i don't find playing in TPJC challenging, it's just that the competition is not that strong.

ok, more about canoeing. i love the training! haha. it gives me satisfaction after the training and the aching of my muscles just feel great. it's been a long time since i last felt this way. i just enjoy feeling physically tired. haha. call me mad or weird, it's just me! hmm, the seniors are really friendly and fun. when i look at them going all drama and high, it kind of reminds me of AHS tabletennis secondary fours. those times when we would just go high about random stuff and make the tabletennis room so lively. i miss you girls. really should plan an outing for us to catch up and stuff. blah! i'm getting so emo, but i really do miss you girls. :( ok, LeeUuZ!! get a hold of yourself! back to the canoeing thing. well, the j1s are doing quite well with each other. and i enjou the company that i'm in. hopefully we can bond like the seniors aye?

shucks! digress again! i just remembered tabletennis nationals for 'B' and 'C' divisions are starting! man man man!! i want to go watch it!! aaaahhh!! girls! work hard alright! get into top four if possible!

ok, my blogging mood is getting abit weird. i should stop.



-LeeUuZ

♥ 2:55 PM

sigh, it's such a disappointing thing. i got rejected by tj, AGAIN. wasted my time. maybe i should have tried other schools like nyj or saj instead but the schools are too far. never mind i guess since now i'm in tpj. it's quite alright. orientation wasn't very boring but it wasn't very fun either. but my og mates are ok so i'm enjoying the company.

well, i wanted to come online and rant about the rejection thing but guess there's no point in it. i mean what's the use? even if i rant it here it's not like anyone can do anything about it. but now in tpj, i can't really continue tabletennis cause it's like the team is erm, not so good. to put it bluntly, it is lousy. LoL. so maybe i'll just go with a CCA that's also tedious (which most probably be some kind of sport) so i won't feel bored. i really can't stand not doing strenuous stuff. haha. and now, i hope that the choir in tpj won't call me up or anything. it'll be hard to reject and tell them that i want to be in sports instead of arts. haha.

ok, i'm getting really tired. but i'm going out for meeting. sigh. this is endless.



-LeeUuZ

♥ 4:49 PM

i got into TPJC! LoL. well, kind of expected it actually. sigh, now it'll be time for me to get busy cause i need to settle the appeal stuff. troublesome, need to run here run there. plus, appeal is not a hundred percent sure thing. guess i can only do this much and pray for the best. hopefully i can get into TJ after all this trouble. i really don't want history to repeat itself over and over again. like during DSA, then PAE appeal. please please! don't fail me again. it's like playing a table-tennis match when the opponent leads me 10-3, then i'll catch up till maybe 10-9 then i lose 11-9. LoL. this is the less irritating situation. the most irritating one would be that i catch up to 10-10, then maybe deuce till some high high score like 18-18 then lose 20-18 that kind of stuff. haha. i realised i'm ranting off again.

hmm, and i realised that i'm not that depressed for getting into TPJC. haha. i mean like, entering TPJC means that i won't join table-tennis which also means giving it up after like eight years! man, i really can't bear to. and yet, i'm still quite ok about it. think it'll really hit me when i can't get into TJ. somehow, i still think that i wouldn't be very upset. maybe i'll be really disappointed and irritated that i wasted so much time, but i'll get over it. is it because i'm too contented with my L1R5? i'm really not sure. or maybe it's because i'm contented with life right now. yea, that's it! i'm really quite satisfied with my life. and i guess the credit all goes to you for appearing in my life. you've made me feel like the most fortunate and happiest person in the world. guess in the past few months i've been too blinded by studies and results that i forgot the way to live life the way i used to live. which is to laugh, smile, to love and be loved.

ok, enough about posting. i want to rant on something i haven't ranted on for some time now which is...................... ANIME!! haha. this time, i want to introduce HAJIME NO IPPO! haha. it's a super good anime. main genre is sports and humour. what sport? BOXING. xD the show made me want to learn boxing alright? LoL. but i don't think i have the strength required and also, my parents wouldn't want me to be beat up so badly that they find that their daughter is slowly reverting back to a son! haha. well anyway, just a short introduction about the anime.

this guy called Makuonichi (i think it's spelt like that) Ippo is a filial son who helps out in the family business run by his mom which is fishing. unfortunately, it is because Ippo always helps out in the shop that he gets outcasted by his classmates for not being able to go out with them. Ippo was also constantly bullied. one day, Ippo was being beaten badly and had his mom being insulted by the bullies. Ippo didn't fight back. then, a passerby saw what was happening and came over to help. turns out that this man called Takamura is a pro boxer. and when the bullies tried to attack him, he dodged swiftly and managed to grab all their buttons. the bullies were frightened off. since then, Ippo wanted to become a boxer. well, that's where his journey began.

haha. my summary sucks. i guess i'm too naggy. LoL. cause i realised that the whole part of the above can be summarised to --> filial Ippo who was constantly bullied becomes a boxer after encounter with pro boxer Takamura. LOL! haha. anyway, i want to share something from the anime.

one cannot win when their mindset is to be the best but instead, one will be victorious when the mindset is to SURPASS the best.

cool right? haha. go figure while i finish this blog post. haha. bye bye!



-LeeUuZ

♥ 11:05 AM