i feel maligned. why am i always expected to be there? why am i the one that's supposed to sacrifice so much yet all you do is complain and i would sound like the bad guy? thanks for that.

have you ever thought that you're not the only person in the world in my life? you may be one of the most important but you're not the only one. you don't even treat me as if i'm someone important to you. you say stuff but i wonder if you mean them or not. i feel like i'm just a replacement that you use to the extent of your emotional needs. sounds harsh? i don't really know.

i thought you were so bent on seeing me go? those words?
"you want to leave me alone then say so"
have you ever thought what went through my mind that night? did you even care? i knew at that moment anything i say would be useless and will worsen the situation. since, at that point of time you feel that the world's against you. but those words? shows how much you think of me. shows how much you didn't want to be sensitive to my feelings.

i know i said that i'll walk this path with you. but have you thought through maybe you were the one that threw me off the path and left me behind? didn't you see me that day right after you said those words? i had no mood to do anything. seeing you appearing like that just pierced a hole into my heart causing me much pain. i realised at that point of time how lonely i was and how fortunate you already are. just sitting there, i found myself immersed in the scorching sunlight while you immersed in the ever flowing care from your friends. but at least, i know that there are people around that care about me and i really do not want to take their concern for granted.

sigh, this post is a double edged sword. either we can come straight out with each other to deal with the problem or the situation will get worse. i don't know what else to do but just letting you know my side of the story.



-LeeUuZ

♥ 6:57 PM