sometimes i wonder if i'm not who i think i am. sometimes i wonder if anyone bothers to even "see" me. nah, i'm not lovesick. i wish i am, but i am not. sadly, been thinking through alot of stuff. my studies, my relationships they all seem to be not doing that well. i guess i'm just a sucker who can't handle even one small thing in her life.
hateitwhenstuffhappenslikethisihavenobodyyetyouhaveeverybodyandme
just that day, how i wish i could be there. but i didn't dare to and didn't know what to expect. everything seems so out of place. bet you didn't even notice my presence. no one saw either so it doesn't matter. guess i'm just those kind of people who does things but no appreciation returned nor even a slightest appreciation. maybe i was just expecting too much of you but well, i can't blame it on anyone.
evenimonyoursideagainstmebutdoyouknow
sigh, i want to fly. i really do. flying towards that bright morning sun over the mountains and the seas. where i can feel as carefree as a bird and where my burdens are pulled back to earth by the gravitational forces. not a care! just being really self-centered, going where i want to go and doing stuff i want to do. just me, me and ME!! sadly the world does not work that way. or maybe it's just this barrier i put up to prevent myself from getting hurt time and time again. and darn, i let my guard down. why?
killme
loads of stuff have no explanation in this world. HOW, WHAT, WHO, WHEN, WHERE, WHY? they never end.
lifesneverfairandihadtobetheunluckyone
and again i search so frantically for these answers knowing that i may not find one. am i a retard?

stophighlightingmypostbaah

-LeeUuZ

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