one day left! finally. it's coming and soon it'll all be over. the only problem now? it'll really be gone in a second. shucks.



-LeeUuZ

♥ 7:32 PM

you know? just sitting in macs, i realise how many idiots there are in this world. fools that fail to notice or follow instructions placed there for OBVIOUS reasons.

so there i was sitting quietly and studying, i witness idiots pushing against the door which has this PULL sign on it. be like, "oh! no wonder the door wouldn't open!" can you imagine how irritated i was? LoL. feel like laughing at those poor fools but having loads of them in singapore is definitely not a laughing matter aye?

therefore ALL YA LIL' PEEPLE (LoLs i'm getting high), remember to LOOK at instructions before attempting any paper! especially those taking 'O's, like me. =(

alright, just something interesting in my everyday life. got to go now.



-LeeUuZ

♥ 10:42 PM

sigh, i study everyday! but i don't seem to improve. i end up at home feeling like i haven't study anything. sad.

alright, just a short post. going out to macs to study again. wish me luck!



-LeeUuZ

♥ 9:54 AM

9 days left!! strangely enough, i don't feel as stress as i was during prelims. sigh, this is so not good. but at least i know my topics and stuff so it wouldn't be that bad.

ok, i was night cycling the day before till like yesterday morning. and haha, was pretty knocked out. xD still feeling kind of sleep but it wasn't as bad as yesterday.

alright, can't blog much. going out again. bye!



-LeeUuZ

♥ 10:26 AM

i was so fickle-minded today!! can't stand myself.

was supposed to go play tabletennis with a couple of friends but turns out two of them can't make it of the four of us. so in the end i didn't go too. so like i asked my mom if we could go shopping together. she said ok but i thought awhile, and after like 5 minutes, i told her to forget it. LoL!! so, went to study at macs again at 11plus. so like study study then felt quite saturated. wanted to ask ninny to come over but in the end, decided to go walk in orchard with cass and huihua.

alright, i have to say this even if i get scolded!! CASS IS POOR AT GIVING DIRECTIONS!! baahh!! fed up fed up *pouts*!! my poor legs have to endure walking to and fro the underpass!! sigh. but managed to find them in the end. clever me. xD then like we walked around and decided to look at some stuff for me to wear to prom. gosh. i feel so violated. haha. alright alright, the dresses are nice but still!!!!!!! haha. just feel so unaccustomed to such things. aaahhh!! my legs are hurting!! shopping is like more tiring than training can? i don't mind training the whole day but shopping???!! at least when you train, you feel physically satisfied. haha. weird huh? guess most sports people would understand what i mean. xD

after the "walk", went back to macs to study. and around 9 plus, ninny came to talk! haha. after talking for awhile, alvin and yonghwee dropped by! haha. crapped awhile before ninny went home while the two guys went for their "guy's talk". haha. brokeback. xD then when i thought poor me have to start mugging again, i saw brenda, yingen and cheewee!! haha. yay! somemore people to accompany me! xD so we chatted and ate and i didn't study!! woots!

so back home now. deciding if i want to go study in the morning. cause, i'm going night cycling tomorrow then scared i won't have enough sleep. hmm... keep in view i guess.



-LeeUuZ

♥ 12:45 AM

had science practical today! and it's easier than prelims!! woots! haha. hopefully i'll do well.

so after school, went to whitesands and found nehneh! haha. she was eating with her dad and sister. so like we went to galilee to talk awhile before she left and came back again. haha. we studied together! haha. aww, know you miss me so come find you. <33

anyway, tomorrow's graduation day! haha. 4E!! be prepared for loads of snapping and flashing! what the-flashing sounds wrong. haha. whatever! i mean photo-taking! haha. for those who have not had enough during the photo-taking day, tomorrow's your chance!! xD

i want to re-watch Goong!! LoL! but it's might be a little waste of time. haha.

alright, i'm crapping. wait!! time for thanksgiving! to who? some people. xD anyway, they are not arranged in order. i put down whatever that comes to my mind. haha.

to cass:
thanks mom! for always being there for me, for being my mom!! haha. anyway, it's this time during last year that you wrote this super long essay for me. LOL!! also when you had to *quotes* "leave this place where i (you) learnt so much from so many experiences". haha. familiar? ok ok, confidential. xD and sadly, it my turn now. but i can't really do the same cause you won't be here to watch. haha. but really, thanks for just accompanying me when i was down and there to encourage me. without you, i'd probably have went to cut myself. haha. not so serious. but well, you get the idea.

to nehneh a.k.a dear:
hey!! it's going to be two years since we knew each other and we got together!! haha. girlfriends forever!! haha. always have fun with you. be times when i feel really really frustrated while trying to explain stuff to you or just teasing you. LoL! we had our fair share i guess. haha. should go out more often to make up for all these mugging sessions. haha. retail therapy here we come!! haha. but for now, concentrate on 'O's first! workhard!!

to ninny:
yo ninny! sorry. always have to make you worry and stuff. then always PMS you. yes i know i PMS, i'm not stupid. haha. but hey, really glad to have known you. somebody who i know will always be there for me. haha. remember!! NOT YOUR FAULT! xD and also, will be looking forward to our CHIONG outing. heh. cheers!

to marlow:
marlow!! thanks for teaching me math!! haha. though i didn't do well for prelims but i promise to at least get a B4 for 'O's k? haha. so you can treat me to sakae! xD haha. also thanks for times we crapped and laughed in class. just stop squishing my green thingy. it's disfigured. oh! thanks for being a nice listening ear! haha.

to shek oji-san:
though haven't really known you for long, but know that you're a really nice person to hang out with. and also someone who sleeps alot. LOL! well, thanks for tutoring me math through those mugging sessions. and GOMENASAI!! i didn't do well for prelims. well, i want to get A1 for amath but i wouldn't have a treat from marlow! haha. wait, you two don't even know each other. haha. ohwells. thanks for everything!

there's more. but i guess not all of you will read it on my blog. it's ok! i have cards to write on and give out!! haha. plenty plenty!! for those unmentioned, sorry if i didn't put it down here. haha. but know always, YOU'LL BE IN MY HEART!! hahahaha!! ok, i'm getting too high for this and it's like only nine plus?! LoL!!

alright, LeeUuZ needs a bath!



-LeeUuZ

♥ 9:30 PM

study! study!! haha. irritating right? that one small word can get all of us so worked up. LoL! another phrase that would get quite a few eyebrows raised would be 'O' Levels! haha. alright alright.

well, as usual. i'm studying at my USUAL place. fishball got fed up with me today. kept my stuff in their manager's room or something. LoL! luckily i was in a good mood so he didn't receive much retaliation from me. haha. think all the managers have some sort of problem with me. basically i take up a WHOLE table by myself for the WHOLE day. haha. and also, i only contribute to the most TWO meals in their place. LoL! macs is too expensive!! but well, won't be going back there after 'O's i guess. quite sick of seeing fishball and gang. but the rest of the staff are quite ok. except for this oversized cleaner and a cashier. one is a well-known "DAO KIA" the other just like to roll her eyes when i buy stuff and be polite to her. LOL!! so sickening right? haha.

okok, been reaching home quite late. haven't bathe yet. and yucks, i smell of macs. bye people!



-LeeUuZ

♥ 12:11 AM

i'm tired.
i'm uncertain.
i'm scared.



-LeeUuZ

♥ 12:15 AM

today is a happy day!! haha. know why? it was due to this little teeny weeny boy i met while studying in macs. i tell you guys, hEe iShX sHo cUtExXx!! xD really!! you know how cute is he? so cute that he kept me sniling at myself silly even when he left!! LoL! what he did was to bang against the seat i was sitting in. i was doing math and was quite irritated at first. so i turned back and my frown became upsidedown!! in case you're not quite sure what i'm talking about, it's actually like this --->

from >=( to =) to =D

LoL! imagine you're really frustrated. you turn around and you see this cute little boy with gleaming eyes and a smile so wide that you could almost see all his teeth!! aww!! who could bare to be angry? one thing i'm sure, NOT ME! xD so that adorable little darling was being cheeky and all. he banged my seat then quickly bend down to hide. so i was like playing along. then after awhile, i decided to get back to my math but i noticed him staring at MOKOZI!! haha. so cute!! they share a common trend, round head otherwise known as melon (nehneh says). haha. so before he left, he stood beside me and gave this really big big BIG smile and waved goodbye to me!! AAWWWWW!!! that kept me smiling through the day. haha.

now, it makes me ponder why some people just hate kids. yes, sometimes they can be irritating but well, most of the time they just provide this warm fuzzy kind of feeling. so warm and real. makes me want to have my own. =x LoL!! that's just a passing comment. haha. well, kids are so cute!! but my mom (biological) says, only kids under 6 years of age are cute and so-called "fun to play with". haha. well, looking at kids nowadays, think they know more er-hem words than i do when i was their age. thus i can't help but agree with my mom (biological).

another thing that made me smile was cass. oops!! not thing. haha. she's a IT! xD haha. joking only. well, she gave me an anklet that we were eyeing on! aww!! thanks cass. it means alot to me especially during this time of the year. haha. MOM<3SON FOREVER!! xD LoL.

one last thing!! i'm going school TOMORROW!! haha. to erm, get my books and to see the class. haha. xD i miss 4E!! 4E got miss me? haha. shucks. i'm getting quite high here. so better end quick. so yeah, going to school tomorrow. meeting ninny in the morning for erm, some CHERISHING moments. haha. xD then i'll be in school for awhile only cause i have an appointment in CGH. LoL!! hey! it's not my fault. the date was preset!!! haha.

alright, better be going.



-LeeUuZ

♥ 11:10 PM

woots! changed my blogskin in like less than half hour. haha. furthermore, i'm not at home so i was quite surprised. sadly, the airport computer has no speakers so i can't add background music even if i want to cause i won't be able to hear it anyway. haha.

so yeah. been slacking today. the TJC people finished their promos today so was playing with them. LoL. played pool in the afternoon then went window-shopping. so i'm kind of bored now since i'm so not in the mood to study.

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I WANT TO WATCH DEATHNOTE!! baah. haha. ok, that was rather random. really sorry guys. haha. i'm just too bored. but well, it's only so near!! 19th October! wait! shucks. that's my 'O' level science practical day. sigh. and i'm not even sure what time it starts. haha. any kind souls want to tell me the timing? xD

ok, i should go try and study. i SHOULD. and TRY. means no guaranteed success. xD



-LeeUuZ

♥ 9:19 PM

i was being silly...

I'M OK!! xD

school? hmm........



-LeeUuZ

♥ 11:27 PM

sometimes i wonder if i'm not who i think i am. sometimes i wonder if anyone bothers to even "see" me. nah, i'm not lovesick. i wish i am, but i am not. sadly, been thinking through alot of stuff. my studies, my relationships they all seem to be not doing that well. i guess i'm just a sucker who can't handle even one small thing in her life.
hateitwhenstuffhappenslikethisihavenobodyyetyouhaveeverybodyandme
just that day, how i wish i could be there. but i didn't dare to and didn't know what to expect. everything seems so out of place. bet you didn't even notice my presence. no one saw either so it doesn't matter. guess i'm just those kind of people who does things but no appreciation returned nor even a slightest appreciation. maybe i was just expecting too much of you but well, i can't blame it on anyone.
evenimonyoursideagainstmebutdoyouknow
sigh, i want to fly. i really do. flying towards that bright morning sun over the mountains and the seas. where i can feel as carefree as a bird and where my burdens are pulled back to earth by the gravitational forces. not a care! just being really self-centered, going where i want to go and doing stuff i want to do. just me, me and ME!! sadly the world does not work that way. or maybe it's just this barrier i put up to prevent myself from getting hurt time and time again. and darn, i let my guard down. why?
killme
loads of stuff have no explanation in this world. HOW, WHAT, WHO, WHEN, WHERE, WHY? they never end.
lifesneverfairandihadtobetheunluckyone
and again i search so frantically for these answers knowing that i may not find one. am i a retard?

stophighlightingmypostbaah

-LeeUuZ

♥ 12:07 AM

i love God!! i really do!! today's worship spoke to me and i was so, so touched.

i forgot what's the title of the song but it was really meaningful. one part of the song, the person prays for peace in the heart instead of praying for lesser trials and tribulations. then i was like, yeah!! like someone said, "God will never lead you into anything that is too difficult for you to handle." for my case, i shan't pray for easy papers anymore!! i'll pray for peace in my heart and that i can go through my papers with a calm and clear mind. AMEN?

so yeah, think i need to go get some rest.



-LeeUuZ

♥ 11:59 PM

your words and actions have hurt me. how did it turn out this way?

sigh. suddenly, i don't even know what am i feeling guilty about. how wicked is that?

anyway, this week was just bad i guess. couldn't really concentrate much on my studies. furthermore, the haze's getting worse. and i still see people smoking!! gosh, can't they tell it's already smoky enough without having them contributing ash to the environment? then, my erhem was late. LoL. maybe it was due to the pre-prelims stress. haha. well, it still arrived and i feel so terrible. pain.........

alright, short post will do.



-LeeUuZ

♥ 11:59 PM

i want my study break!!!! sadly, my voice is unheard and so are many others. sigh.

school was boring. maylan talked to us today about our prelims stuff. did not really pay attention to it cause it's early in the morning and HELLO??!!! we know the statistics of the school score cause, YOU'VE SAID IT SO MANY TIMES. LoL.

hmm, next week's going to be even worse. we reach school at around 8am and study till 1pm. then, people who have L1R5 above 20, have to stay till 5pm! wow!! only those whose L1R5 are 10 and below are not required to report to school. sigh, guess which group am i in? so i guess i'll be sick for the rest of next week. hahahahaha!

oh anyway, i have something interesting to share! haha.

ever met someone you barely knew but that person is able to tell you every little detail about you? LoL. well, saw someone like that today. and boy, it was scary. it was like the person was some kind of stalker!! haha. really!! fortunately, i wasn't the one being "stalked" so it's not that scary. haha. but well, someone got quite a shock? haha. while i was listening to their conversation, it got so interesting to the point when the "stalker" could remember my friend's hobbies, primary school class, secondary school, etc etc!! LoL. the "stalker" even knew what class in the secondary school my friend was from. surprise surprise. weird people everywhere we go. LoL.

ok, i feel so lost now. don't know what else to blog about. i guess i'll be super random and put down anything comes into my mind. like now, the term "JUNIOR COLLEGE" just flashed past my mind. haha. well, sad to say, i won't be able to enter TJC with my current L1R5. but on the lighter side, i might be able to enter as an unofficial student. hopefully? and thinking really positively, i actually improved in my prelims when compared to my past upper secondary life. LoL. well, it's just a mixture of feelings of not sure to be happy or sad. maybe it's just me trying hard not to feel THAT sad. smiling, laughing, crapping, is that how the real me is feeling? well, even i can't tell. but i'll try to smile, laugh and crap genuinely. from my heart. to prevent myself from falling into that world of emptiness forever. haha.

alright, i'm getting too random. haha. pray my studies?



-LeeUuZ

♥ 9:12 PM