hey people. i had a bad scare. a really bad one too. let me explain.

well, just now, Xiao came so that they could pass me my birthday present and pray for me. well, i was really grateful and happy cause it's already so late! unfortunately, they didn't manage to write some stuff in the book (the present) before passing it to me so they wrote on the spot. LoL. well, then i had this really weird feeling. especially when yongjing-ge wanted to start praying for me. we heard footsteps and i suspected it might be mom. so i said could we move to someplace else? in the end we decided to go into the car. squeezy it was but i felt very secure and comforted. for that period of time, i felt that i was the most fortunate person in the world to have friends that care and love me. so we prayed. after we got out, mom appeared. so suddenly and so suspiciously. how she appeared wasn't what that mattered, it was what she said.

"Hey! you all have to save her ah!!"

*pause* everyone was so stunned. ninny said i had this expression on my face like i was saying 'shit'. then my mom went on.

"must help her ah! her studies..."

sigh. what a timing! and we were just praying a moment ago about facing persecutions at home. we were all so shocked by what she said. lucky yongjing-ge was there. could tell they were all taken back by it. daniel was in the car trying to smile as hard as he could. beale and ninny were almost inside the car and their faces were still stunned. ninny gave a shrug when we had eye contact. alvin was trying to laugh it off like it was a joke about my lousy studies. yongjing-ge tried to break the awkwardness by answering my mom.

gosh. God is so scary at times that He surprises us with things that we do not expect. it's like you're praying for strength to face satan when he appears and immediately after the prayer, you see satan standing right infront of you, smirking. it was such a spiritual blow to me that i felt my heart skipped a beat. somehow, i knew it wasn't good timing or pure coincidence. i knew it was God's doing behind all that. but it was still really scary. well, i guess i'll just have to wait and see God reveal His timing for me step by step. just pray that i can follow Him all the way. pray for me people!

oh, and i need to study. people! must constantly nag me to study! thanks a bunch.



-LeeUuZ

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