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the old days

2010-12-30T01:19:00.003+08:00

its really good to keep a blog where i can view all my thoughts and memories in the past.

things that i've forgotten about are reminded. decisions that were made are justified.

2010 is ending and i've enjoyed it while it lasted. got a great boyfriend, made new friends, gain new experiences, and loving all the ones around me.

enjoyed my internship thoroughly and its been one of the happiest times i've ever had.

have got a steady part time job since May till date.

2010 is a year about love and trust for me. 2011? we'll see ya?

and there's 2012 the so-called end of time. ask me last month if i'd doubt judgement day and i'll say no. ask me now? i really don't know. watching shows that questions my believes and the world. solid facts for God believers are clues for scientist and archaeologists to the past and human creation.

everything doesn't make sense except nicolas and my favourite girls.

coming true

2010-09-13T23:38:00.003+08:00

national day is like last month already. went for the rehearsal and got the stick on tattoo. WAS planning to wear it again on the actual day during work but i totally forgot! aiyaaaaa..

anyway, trends in singapore are dead boring. its like everyone lags together and start wearing the same thing at the same time! like few months back, maxi dresses were already popular in other countries, no one picked it up yet.

now, just walk around and i see like at least five people wearing it everyday! furthermore at my workplace where i don't move around at all, i see like more of it.

maxi dresses are really really elegant and feminine. versatile much(: but it loses the meaning when everyone is wearing it. its not special, you feel like you don't stand out anymore. its sickening to have people all over the street wearing the same thing as you do.

its not like maxi dresses are basics right? /:

anyhow, saw this dress quite some time ago at promod? tempted to get it butttttttttt, can't part with money. LOL.

and i got free tickets to the ALIVE gallery. its actually kinda boring. i forgot when did we went but it was fun entertaining ourselves.

forced nicolas to take pictures! HA :D

the talking mona lisa was pretty funny. like we saw suggested questions on the wall and people were asking HER those questions. we just thought it was some simulated thing and we decided to "confuse" her.

so we walked in,

mona: Hello...

other visitors: *somequestion*

mona: *answers in a very singaporean accent*

me: how come you have singaporean accent? *laughs think i very funny lol*

mona: orh, because in singapore, i have to adjust to the local accent so people can understand me better.

me&nicolas: *shocksssssss and laughsssss*

nicolas: can i have ya numba?

mona: wha??

nicolas: can.. i.. have.. your.. number?

mona: oh sorry i don't have handphone in my era.

me: *points to nicolas* handsome not?

mona: erm, not bad la. good taste.

LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.

so we went to hang around in the gallery somemore and being terribly amused by mona lisa. hahaha. but we sort of got lost so we went back and asked her how to get out. (X

well, i've been going for lasik consultation. the first got me worried cause they told me my cornea was too thin. and i had to go back today to get it consulted by the medical director (wah sound so big shot). turns out, as the doctor put it, i've been wearing lenses too aggressively (yes, AGGRESSIVELY). but my cornea is thickening when i stopped wearing the lenses.

so lasik surgery? MISSION POSSIBLE.

damn happy but i gotta wait damn long. two weeks till i get my perfect vision. excited!

for now, four eyes... /:

BYE!

promised bangkok trip

2010-09-04T20:27:00.003+08:00

you know, people should combine their fb status updates and twitter updates at every end of the day to form a blog entry instead.

but as promised, i'll be updating about the bangkok trip. no promises for the next update though sadly.

anyway, departure flight had a delay (TIGER AIRWAYS). we weren't notified in any way and only found out after arriving at the airport. which kinda sucked cause we had plans and everything was pushed back. furthermore, we wasted like four? or more hours at the airport.

fuming that day and nothing michelle and christina could do to make me calm down. LOL.

arriving at bangkok, we took a cab with michelle's aunty elpi and aunty evelyn to our LODGINGS. and got introduced to the first rule in bangkok,

no farting in cabs.

went Platinum the next day to feed our compulsive shopping disorder. damn excited getting ready for it.

aww look at the sunnysunlight glow on our skin! can do skincare advertisements already!

traveling by the "MRT".

taking a break outside Platinum after like some hours of our compulsive behaviour.

we missed christina's birthday while in singapore due to busy schedules. ): but made up for it in bangkok with a surprise dinner in cahoots with the aunts. hehehehe.

five pieces of cake. kinda forgot what flavours already but they were GOOD.

VICTORY.

act tired only.

next of the entire day was spent at chatuchak and well spent indeed. (: settled loads of our souvenirs there despite the mad hot weather.

even though i was wearing a cropped top that was super airy, i felt my perspire drip down my back. DAMN GROSS!

and you know, the best thing to indulge in after shopping?

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FOOT MASSAGE OF COURSE!

eagerly waiting our turn!

thing that i regretted after the trip? didn't exchange more money to spend/:

but i saved up and spent them all back home! LOL.

END.

i may be going through a life changing event! hold on for more updates! :D

before the key is given

2010-08-06T01:17:00.003+08:00

before i turn 21 next year, the following things i want to get done:

1. lasik - i've wanted it since my eyesight started to go above 400. i wanna see properly without going through all the hassle and fear of getting eye infection or a torn cornea /:

2. teeth whitening - i hate it when people talk to me looking at my mouth. yes its distracting and no its not food stuck there. even my lecturer is asking me to do something about it. very depressed every time someone mentions it.

3. double eyelids surgery - i damn vain i swear. ask me about this like four years ago i would've said i love the way i look. but shit la, after wearing double eyelid tapes and seeing the difference it makes.........

4. tattoo - i've wanted one when i was little. but then when i reached my early teens i decided that i'd be fine without it anyway. aiya then when you grow up a bit more, heart itchy, and i wanna mark this period of my life (as someone told me i still remember who you are!). soooo, still deciding which part of my body though..

5. get a full time job la of course.

aiya the liuying you all know now is like damn different from the one in the past. now i'm super vain and i have NO TRACE of my tomboyish-ness until i start to gesture and talk. HAHAHAHA.

i won't turn plastic though no worries! it's just my eyes and the teeth that i really really wanna get done. of course it's for my benefit cause my diploma will set me going in a job that depends a lot on how you present yourself.

okay la, i'm vain.

not much, just thanks

2010-07-27T22:36:00.002+08:00

year three wasn't as dramatic as year two. basically enjoying the time i spend hanging with the groupmates. makes project less stressful, or i can say no stress at all.

birthday passed and thanks to all who made the effort to celebrate with me (:

and the maxi dress right..... i have to clarify! yiting and nicolas were in cahoots thus ACTUALLY, the dress is from yiting. hehehe. THANKS BABE! love it loads that if i can i wanna wear it everyday!

the sweetest thing ever done for me during my birthday was from nicolas. damn sweet and thoughtful. though i know it's nothing much to you but it meant so much to me. and you made me cry on my birthday! happy tears (': thanks for being with me through our bittersweet fights, endless teasing, and constant annoyance. LOVE YOU LAHHHHHH!

the cutest and most thoughtful present i got this year was the ukelele! michelle and christina, THANK YOU GIRLS! and of course nicolas! hahahahaha.

also to ivanmichelle, christina, benyiting, and NICOLAS (again i know!) for dinner at Handburger! i know i'm a very "on impulse" kind of person so i never never plan stuff ever! appreciate that you all took the time off to celebrate with me and also putting up with my indecisiveness. (:

and thanks to alex and glen for the meal at Werner's Oven! even though only know you guys for like four months? you guys have been taking care of me and ahboy so well! really appreciate it when you put up with all our nonsense LOL.

to jane and alvin who will never ever see this, THANKS for the bag! i've never expected you guys to get me anything! best bosses ever. hehe!

daddy, thanks for bringing me all the way to JB to "shop" even though i ended up getting my hair dyed instead.

mommy, thankyou for bringing me to good food every year without fail(:

jing, at times you can be so annoying and i can be to you too, thanks for getting me the shades from Guess! never expected it at all. my first ever branded possession.

to facebook, i kinda hate it. because, people don't bother messaging you "happy birthday" any more! it's so unpersonalised and people just take for granted it's on the notification /: no one bothers to remember birthdays because of facebook. convenient or insincerity?

but whatever, THANKS ANYWAY to all who wished me through facebook because you bothered to! and especially those who took the effort to message me(:

it's been a great half year of 2010. attachment gonna start and i'm damn excited :D

GOODNIGHT EVERYONE!

namecard

2010-07-21T23:43:00.004+08:00

i love the little things you do to..

- make me smile

- make me laugh

- make me gasp in surprise/pleasure

and i especially love that you..

- remind me of something significant that we had together.

NAME CARD!

NICTAM YOU DAMN SWEET :D

two years

2010-07-17T01:04:00.002+08:00

two years...

one person can just ruin it all.

they are all good players with so much potential. but they lack discipline that we tried to instill. maybe we're not trying hard enough. maybe, i am not?

i don't understand how hard is it to just commit that little portion of time. it's not a lot, just five hours of your 168 hours a week. which equates to a mere TWO PERCENT of your week.

not having fun?

i don't have to repeat this over and over again. we are a team, not a club. we compete, not leisure. we have a goal in mind, not just playing for fun.

we did have fun. just take a look at all our past pictures. our outings..

i am a firm believer of fun. those who know me understand that completely.

so much so, i spend too little time sleeping. if i'm not in school, i'm at work. if i'm not at work, i'm at training. if i'm not at training, i'll be out somewhere doing stuff with the people i love.

i was a party girl. how can i not know how to have fun?

it's disheartening to see our efforts for the past two years go down the drain week by week. those times when we pushed our limits, it was never easy for us.

maybe you all haven't fought for something so precious to you before. maybe you don't want it as much as us. maybe it just don't matter that much to you. but, think about it. we all fight for something. for the things we want, for the things that matter, and for the people we love. it ain't difficult. it's just a matter of whether you have the heart for it.

we've been through school with all the projects and homework piling up weekly, not to forget the exams. don't say you can't cope cause we did. and when we do, we never neglect the team.

it is all about prioritizing and how willing you are to make that sacrifice. we all did it, are you gamed for it?

just because hearing stuff about your so-called captain from a person who has never contributed anything to the team, you think you know what's right and what's wrong? listening to the person who had no guts to say "i quit the team" and disappeared for an entire year, are you sure you're listening to the right person? believing that someone who is spreading animosity in the team, are you damn sure that what you believe in, is the truth?

if someone means well for the team, he/she will never ever talk behind people's back. think about it.

i'm not against the person. i have no grudge. i did nothing. if you believe what that person says, ask what i did wrong. see if the person can reply you more than just plain dislike. see the reply is more than just plain spite. ask what i did to him/her whoever.

if the answer is convincing enough for you, i dare you to speak up to me. tell me what i did wrong. because it's something i've been wondering for so long. educate me, i daresay.

all i wanna say is, your seniors put in so much effort to get where we are now. you may not be close to us enough to know, but all of us worry about the team all the time. and some of us are leaving. doing so much was never for us, but for the team. if you want to be the ones who'd ruin it, go ahead.

we will only remember those times that we fought hard and triumphed.

POL-ITE 10/11, you will understand soon enough.

i hearts buffet

2010-06-28T23:54:00.003+08:00

i love buffets,

i love sushi,

i love sashimi,

i love NICOLAS TAM :D

the sweet boy got me a maxi dress! made my day extra special. super love it (: thanks baby..

so i wore it like immediately the next morning. even the gloomy weather can't put me down! after school, we went for the sakae sushi buffet.

my gosh the salmon belly sashimi totally drove me nuts. damn nice and fat :D

then sunday after work, we went for magic wok! tomyum soup is mad love! even though its quite expensive considering the price of other items on the menu, it is still damn worth it! and i can't get enough of it (:

can say these few weeks have been the happiest days of my life. ohyeah, bangkok was awesome. will blog about it when i have more time.

now, its project!

easy heaven

2010-06-09T01:04:00.002+08:00

already its half a year gone. and in less than a month, it'll be my turn to hit adulthood. for me, a little sad that my teen years are finally coming to an end. but! a new journey ahead for me to explore. its like,

长大了！

was on the phone with michelle and christina moments ago. excited for our bangkok trip thats finally being fulfilled. after like postponing from the previous time due to the riots and all. FINALLY WE ARE GOING OVERSEAS TOGETHER :D

gonna shop till we drop!

anyway! its been a busy month for me. got a job and its stable, good boss. (:

projects are a norm already. YEAR THREE ALREADY so its kinda expected. and i really make use of all the time that i have to sleepeatplayshitpeeloveshopprawningmorefoodworkstudy.

ohyeah, here's year three APEL for you. didnt realise we could be so enthusiastic to go collect the items listed (rubberband, chopsticks, leaf, plastic bag, tissue, bottle) to earn that treat from the tutor. hope he doesnt forget though.

weekend nights are still as eventful! if we're not drinking or chilling by the poolside, we go for supper. if not! we fly helicopter! if not! they teach me how to drive lorry! if not! we feed coke to dogs.

YES, like that.

in the end the dog peed at the back of the lorry. /: we had to half stand/squat till we reach a petrol kiosk to clean up its mess.

BAD DOG.

nicolas mend his old cap! and i got to wear it to school one of the days. hahaha. makes me feel so rider-ish and hiphop-ish. like i need an extra large hoodie with highcut sneakers to go along. :D

one of the nights that we went prawning.

school's been okay. mid semester tests was okay i guess. was late for two out of the four. got nagged by a tutor that my shorts were too short and my shirt was too low cut. she was like,

"ARE YOU WEARING A SWIMSUIT????" *staresssss*

alright that's most of it that i wanted to say. OH ONE MORE!

you know that potato thing? the one they cut one whole potato into spirals and put it on the stick and deep fry? its damn yummy! had it at downtown east once and another at pasar malam. :D

my current favourite song is playing now! this is the mash up version though.

Just Like Heaven by The Cure

"Show me how you do that trick
The one that makes me scream" she said
"The one that makes me laugh" she said
And threw her arms around my neck
"Show me how you do it
And I promise you I promise that
I'll run away with you
I'll run away with you"

Spinning on that dizzy edge
I kissed her face and kissed her head
And dreamed of all the different ways I had
To make her glow
"Why are you so far away?" she said
"Why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you
That I'm in love with you"

You
Soft and only
You
Lost and lonely
You
Strange as angels
Dancing in the deepest oceans
Twisting in the water
You're just like a dream

Daylight licked me into shape
I must have been asleep for days
And moving lips to breathe her name
I opened up my eyes
And found myself alone alone
Alone above a raging sea
That stole the only girl I loved
And drowned her deep inside of me

You
Soft and only
You
Lost and lonely
You
Just like heaven

baby, you're the first and last i think about every morning when i wake up and every night when i go to sleep. (:

jipaban

2010-05-19T00:56:00.002+08:00

OHYA PEOPLE!

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it's actually a pretty cool site that puts all your online shopping sites together! you can also create your own online "shopping mall". waaaaay awesome (:

so do check it out! JIPABAN!

(:

paths of life

2010-05-16T00:09:00.002+08:00

sometimes, i think about the choices i make and how they affected the way my life turn out. about the people i know and how i might miss the chance to be their friend if i'd taken another route.

how mysterious.

i think the most vital choice i've made was to go JC and then quit it. LOL!

because if i'd gone to poly first, i may or may not have chosen TP as my first choice. then! i wouldn't know christina and michelle. and then! i wouldn't have worked in Shugar and know xiaogui. also! i won't be working for the current promoter job because it was recommended through tim which i have to know christina first. /:

if i did choose TP, i wonder if i'd still know all these people that i know. and, i would've graduated already. i wonder if i'd be working now?

back to going JC. i might have been able to go VJ. then again, what will happen there? will i still quit JC as i did? aiya, a lot of factors to think about.

but all in all, my choices are pretty good i guess.

i went to TPJC and found out that i wasn't a canoeist. i had a great time there but i decided that i wasn't the kind of person to study subjects that i know i won't be using in the future. i know i'm no scientist/mathematician sort.

now i'm in TP and life's been good. even though my results are average but i'm still having my share of fun. i'm not being forced to study but i enjoy learning what i'm taught. i'm back to my old specialty which is tabletennis and i got to know many amazing people.

what's most important is that knowing christina and michelle, that got me to know ivan, and got me to know nicolas. and to know that i have someone always there to make me scream in joy and take my troubles away. nothing can ever beat this.

(:

'cause the beat plus the melody makes me speak of L.O.V.E so eloquently so evidently

2010-04-25T21:02:00.005+08:00

first week of being a SENIOR in school. think walk got wind one! HAHAHAHA. okay random.

weekends after weekends, keep hanging out with the usual group. ivan+michelle, danny+charmaine, nicolas.. (: like today, we went swimming at my place and we make a hell out of the pool with all the splashes and slams and whirlpools. had like a mini telematch whereby the girls sat on the guys shoulders and attempt to topple the other couple. super funny. and we tried standing on the guys' shoulders for three seconds. we're like the oldest (apart from the ahpeh ahma) around but the ones acting like kids.

along the week, met up with priscilla!!! damn happy that we met! so long never see her already. like since before i went hongkong.

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

hear no evil

speak no evil

see no evil

hair's a mess la cause the rain's a bitch. anyway!

it's been almost two weeks! i know i don't talk about it much but! i'm damn happy with nicolas (:
hope for many more happy days to come!

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
and nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us, something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they say
never cared for games they play
never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
and I know

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
No, nothing else matters

busy day! gonna sleep already. night baby, night y'all! (:

stop it

2010-04-13T06:37:00.001+08:00

moving on is one thing. freaking out the people we know is another. your reputation is at your own hands.

2010-04-10T14:19:00.003+08:00

back from hongkong. wasn't as fun as i thought it'd be. maybe cause of the communication barrier, i suck at cantonese.

anyway, didn't stay in hongkong throughout. went to 珠海 (zhuhai) which is in guangzhou, only an hour ferry ride from hongkong. the stuff there are waaaaayyy cheaper and surprisingly, i shopped more! bought the famous cigarette, 中华 (chunghwa), for nic.

i didn't know the extend of its "popularity" even after buying it. i just knew, it's considered expensive for a china brand cigarette!

so after i got it, dad, a non-smoker, told me that he tried to get that for his china clients every time he visits china for a business trip. but it was always sold out in the duty free store.

and then, when i got back to singapore, nic told me how excited that the china boys who used to work with him were when they got their hands on CHUNGHWA.

the most outstanding was, when we went butterfactory on wednesday to celebrate eileen's birthday, a guy around late 30s? asked if it was the real chunghwa cigarette. wah, this cigarette like more famous than Sir Stamford Raffles can! hahahahaha.

so that's one thing cool about china. another one is that the way they drive on the streets, it's damn messed up yet organised at the same time.

drivers honk so much not because they are angry, simply just to alert the rest that they are behind/near them. traffic lights are pretty much pointless in china cause no one uses them. pedestrians cross the road as and when they feel like without really looking at the road.

major culture shock.

okay, back to hongkong. as upbeat and modern as honkies may seem to be, they don't use their handphones as much as taiwanese and singaporeans do! when i walk on the street, i'm like the only one texting constantly.

disneyland was damn high! really brings out the child in you. when i stepped into disneyland, it was like walking into a storybook movie with background music all the time! it was hard to contain all my excitement and i was jumping like crazy. (X

mom is damn cute i swear. she surprises me at the most unexpected times. sometimes, she can just nag until my ears fall off.

when i left the house today,

"MEEE, 我处去了!"

then she was like, "OK, 另外一个leh?"

LOLLLL!!

can't hide anything from her.

so i guess you people must be wondering why i'm not in bangkok now. michelle's aunt called to say that the protesters took their rioting to the tourist attractions. most of the shops are closed for now so there's no point going.

SADLY, we had to postpone our trip till june. was really looking forward to it. i guess now i have more time to save money and hopefully, we'll have more company during the june trip! (:

gonna get myself something special tonight! keep you guys updated!

messages

2010-03-27T00:08:00.002+08:00

reply to that little boy,

don't worry about me ya? i'm doing fine even though it may appear otherwise to you.
you're growing up and you'll learn and experience life more and more.
thanks for being so concerned about me. love you loads alright (:

a poem

2010-03-25T23:37:00.003+08:00

My mind thinks a thousand words
But my voice can only speak three
My sword defeats a thousand hordes
But my love can only be for thee
My legs will run a thousand miles
Just to find your key
My body will cross a thousand miles
I want to set you free
My heart beats a thousand times
Because i want you to see
That even a thousand beautiful rhymes
Can't show how much you mean to me

thankyou (:

vanilla twilight

2010-03-21T19:11:00.000+08:00

so many things happened recently that i barely had time to breathe. emotions reaching the stars and falling into the deepest darkest space all at the same time. i wish i could elaborate.

all i know is that i have very caring people around me that stuck with me through this period of time. love y'all and you know who you are. (:

anyway let's get past that.

TODAY IS MICHELLE'S BIRTHDAY! celebrated last night at pasir ris with loads of fun-joy-laughter.

let's have a close up of the homemade cake shall we?

nice right! hahaha. of course i do not have the capability to produce something like that by myself /:

writing the "card"

bringing out the cheesecake! (:

laughing at something really funny.

hope you enjoyed yourself my dear. we love you loads!

been working for most of the weekends. very enjoyable cause the pay is good, i'm working with koksin, and the hours are very short. will be continuing on wednesdays for the coming week but this time with bignic.

think working with friends are the best, especially when they know when to be serious and when to play. haha.

ohkay, looking forward to payday, hongkong and bangkok!

no riots please!

boom wha'chu say

2010-02-26T00:00:00.002+08:00

hurtful words, they never fail to push the limit of my sanity.

it's past

2010-02-24T03:02:00.002+08:00

i bruise damn easily but i don't cry.

doesn't mean i don't feel the pain when i get hurt.

finally, the happy couple

2010-02-23T04:45:00.000+08:00

after like so long i finally got the photos from my cousin's wedding back in december.

don't know if i mentioned it the last time, we had a dslr to play with during the wedding. so during the early morning, went to my cousin (steven)'s house to wait for the bride to come over.

while waiting, jing and i were experimenting with the dslr. hahaha damn fun (X

sorta became our mini-photoshoot session. haha. but we got serious when the bride arrived and jing went to do his job,

yes, opening the car door and getting the ang bao. LOL! kept saying how much he wanted to do it hearing about all his friends doing the same thing.

at steven's house (:

after traveling like to and fro, finally went home to get the rest we needed and before we knew it, we were off for the wedding dinner at fullerton!

photos of the happy couple (: and the bride is sooo pretty!!

couple's toast

proud parents of steven!

and our very old yet wise grandma (maternal)

jing and eric SHOOTING each other

eric is a damn good photographer! let me show you why!

it's just glasses but the way he shot it, the lighting, effect, makes the glasses look so alive! it's like a professionally shot wallpaper for desktops! awesomelicious! (:

jing and me thoroughly entertained by the dslr. hahahaha NOOBS!

our table!

people keep saying we can easily pass off as a couple.

i like this photo! natural and damn cute! (: with our dear mom of course.

and a nice family photo to finish off the entry.

marriage does not only bring the couple together, but the entire family too. since marriage is such a great "bond-er", more people should do it! just make sure that the families aren't against it. haha.

ps: LOVE THE DRESS (:

back from "gathering"

2010-02-19T03:52:00.001+08:00

kay i'm back. well, not just but like couple hours ago. was so tired that i fell asleep before i did anything else when we got home just now.

anyway, it was pretty awkward for me cause nobody from my "clique" (people like jing, hanyun, kaihan... etc) were there. and the aunties were just staring openly at me. it's like the moment i stepped into the house, all their eyes followed me and i hear murmurings.

"it's her daughter la...."

"you sure or not..? don't look like.."

"i think it's her daughter.."

"she change a lot hor..?"

stuff like that. and when i finally got introduced as "her daughter", they were like bombarding me with how much i've changed and many other stuff that boosts your ego. LOL.

"wah you really 女大十八变！"

"ehhh... you become more girly already..."

"wah now so pretty huh..."

"prettier than your mom last time leh.."

and on and on and on... it was damn embarrassing and i could do nothing but just SMILE and WAVE. it got worse later on in the evening but i'll leave that for later.

so we were waiting for the lion dance troupe to come (yes lion dance, dad's lecturer/adviser is rich and generous and very very deep rooted to the chinese culture). as i've said, it was awkward for me cause i knew no one. resorted to DJ MAX until the lion dance troupe finally came!

you know right, i was damn pissed off with my BB's camera. it really sucks to the max can! somehow wish that my SE C902 was still with me. but nevermind! maybe it's time i get a camera.

alright the "gets worse" part.

you know how the lion would pick up oranges from the ground and throw it into the crowd for 大吉大利 (prosperity for the coming year). like you see in the following photo.

all the aunties would like try to bribe the lion with angbaos so that it'd throw the oranges to them. like a small token of exchange i guess. it was very amusing to watch.

so whilst enjoying the performance, the lion got up to look around for its next "receiver". suddenly, it just came over and stared at me. and i guess i was supposed to take the orange from the mouth and then!!!! it just wouldn't let go of my arm. you know there were two girls around my age sitting right in front of me and they had to move aside for the lion to "flirt" with me.

i think they are pissed off cause if i were them i would be! i think..

aiya then the aunties, including mom, were laughing and stuff. so did the entire lion dance troupe.

ohwell, as least this year i will 大吉大利.

the finale and wishing us good health for the coming year.

the "gift" from the lion.

went around exploring the house after that. it's damn cool cause the entire place is filled with antiques!

cameras and charcoal irons!

plenty of oil lamps and smoking pipes.

on the way up!

gramophone, AWESOME stuff.

many many of the pounding thingys.

teacups and teapots!

MR MAO (:

couple of old typewriters..

and finally, a pretty english lamp with lace lampshade.

it's super fun walking up and down just looking at those antiques. like a leap back in time while welcoming the new year. and i finally felt peaceful cause the antiques weren't giving me weird stares. haha.

and i realised how comfortable it was "appearing offline". no disturbance or distractions. and i can really enjoy my music and blog. and it's like, you guys will never know if i'm really online or not. haha. i can pretend not to be and avoid awkward conversations. NICE.

PEACE Y'ALL! (:

day five

2010-02-18T17:06:00.003+08:00

CNY as usual is pretty packed.

but when i have nothing to do, i really have NOTHING TO DO (perhaps i should start studying but it's quite pointless cause i only have one paper and it's waaaaay long later like next friday afternoon).

coming online has turned pointless already as there are practically nothing to do up here!

facebook is boring me out and i don't play games.

friends usually talk to me face-to-face or simply call/sms me. which kinda makes msn pointless too.

the only stuff that i do up here is to watch videos, listen to music and blog.

i have to admit that much of my entertainment at home is dependent on one factor, JING.

you can't say we're best friends la. but we do talk a lot to each other when the time arises. and i truly enjoy annoying, teasing, and being every other thing that makes up an irritating older sister. HA!

but, he's working..............

went to comb bugis, cityhall and the whole stretch from somerset to orchard yesterday with yiting. damn tiring cause we kept walking and walking. as the sky turns darker, standing on the escalator makes me wanna fall asleep.

ohya, this was the dress we got together. she wore it yesterday and jing was like,

"eh, that one not your dress meh?"

hahaha. anyway, it's a damn good buy cause it's so versatile and i'm wearing it now to go my dad's ~~boss/tutor/mentor/whatever~~lecturer's house. (it's somehow an alumni committee gathering)

wanted a proper rest at night but tim and nicolas asked me out. hahaha i think i have a problem with rejecting them but ya, i went out.

ended up at a dimsum spot and we just chilled and relax.

哎哟！

got joined by delvin and we went his house for a small charity event. LOL.

OHOHOH!! see that cap! lost it for like don't know how many months and mom sort of just found it like last week or something. thought it was gone for good. MIRACLE!! (:

alright, dad's rushing me. abrupt end bye!

shop shop, shop shop!

2010-02-12T04:44:00.004+08:00

you know what i hate seeing when blog shopping?

"ALL PENDING / SOLD.
No backorders / restocks available for this piece. Kindly leave your name and email if you are interested in being in the waiting list."

ughhhhhh..

gone for almost a month

2010-02-06T03:57:00.000+08:00

I

AM

ALIVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!

whoopee (:

you know, after all the projects and presentations i'm still pretty busy. absolutely can't wait for CNY!

this is the first year i'm not really keen to shop for any CNY clothes. BUT AH!

sweet people like yiting always tempting me here and there with blogshops every now and then. ok, it's partially my fault cause i always tempt her to get stuff too! hehhh FWENX FUREVAXSSXX!

so no CNY clothes yet. i will post pictures if i do have them! it's kinda sad that i no longer have a camera phone (using BB now). BUT!!!! my bb is still damn awesome!

the other day i was trying to put notes into my bb cause i had test in the following evening. the most amazing thing was when i dragged the file into the bb folder, it landed there within less than a second!!

waaaaaaaaaayyyy cool. i was like,

"ain't that too easy???"

LOL IT WAS!

love it like mad. and the roxio media manager thing is also kickass. has like a converter that will convert your videos (BASICALLY ANY MEDIA FILE) to the format that suits the bb most!

i have like movies and vids in the bb now. *eyes sparkle in amazement*

hahaha ok no life.

haven't utilize the bb yet. the real game starts when i finally get my ass down to sign up for the bb dataplan. SO EXCITING THAT I'M JUMPING ON MY SEAT TYPING THIS.

ohya! i'm busy.

got a job as a promoter for the pre-CNY sales period. no commission but the pay is reasonably good. only got to work four hours per day so can't complain. (:

only thing is that i gotta travel all around SG hunting for my next work place.

like today, the venue was at SUNSHINE PLACE.

WHERE THE HELL!!???????

i only know sunshine plaza which is at bugis.

sooo, sunshine place ladies and gentlemen, is at CHOA CHU KANG. which! is practically woodlands! and it's in some neighbourhood la. just like elias mall to the westsiders, a place where a friend once constantly use this phrase,

"鸟不生蛋狗不拉屎的地方！" (place where the birds don't lay eggs and the dogs don't shit)

and i have another place that's worse- TEBAN GARDENS, it's somewhere in jurong that is kinda close to malaysia already (I THINK).

UGH I KEEP HAVING HICCUPS. the time of the month is near.

weird huh! close friends will definitely experience this phenomenon once every month when they hang out with me. i tell you, there is NOTHING that can stop this hiccup. NOTHING ):

which is irritating till a point that i'm going to stop blogging now bye!

Institute-Varsity Polytechnic Table-Tennis 09/10

2010-01-19T03:09:00.002+08:00

first of all, i'd like to thank the girls team for all the cooperation and dedication they've had throughout the year. and because of that, we're in the semi finals for IVP. (:

love you girls!

can't really enjoy the moment properly though. haven't slept for almost two nights already. this is the second one.

projects really suck to the max during this period. it's like, everything is crammed together in this tiny period of time! a realization today was that we just got back our mid-semester test papers, but in two weeks time it'll be our end-semester test already. WTH!!!??

tell me, who is being overworked?

now i understand when people say that in poly you have no time for CCA. and i guess i have to agree to that certain extent. really admire those who can juggle both well at the same time.

to tell the truth, i've never been juggling my studies and CCA well la. it's always compromise. i actually prefer more physical kind of stuff like sports and i tend to work harder and excel more in them. i love the feeling of my muscles aching after training.

DO NOT, i repeat, I DO NOT LIKE the feeling of tiredness for chionging projects for few nights.

anyway! about the overworked part. i've got a roleplay in say less than 11 hours? and then i have a deadline on wednesday 11am. finally, the performance for understanding theatre on thursday.

not to mention i'm still in the midst of IVP which will end on wednesday. looking forward and dreading it at the same time. i know i won't have a proper rest till then.

hais, SUCK IT UP ANDEY.

focus, stop blogging, get back to work.

never twice

2010-01-16T02:05:00.003+08:00

did bad during IVP today. what a contrast to monday's performance.

it's always the times you've failed that have the most impact on you.

i swear i won't lose twice to the same person. well, in the case when their standard is near mine la. and only the official matches count!

ahwell, we're still in the running for semi finals so hope we continue to do well as a team! (:

apart from that sad story! i just wanna say i love acting! yes i've mentioned it before! especially those theatrical kind (: even if my part is just a tiny tiny one, i wanna make sure i get it right cause every little thing on stage makes a huge difference to the overall feel of the play.

hehehe that's just the happy thing for now.

transiting

2010-01-07T03:40:00.000+08:00

eh eh where's my new year entry?

as usual, TP has crammed all their deadlines together and everyone seems to be in these categories:

1. TOO BUSY TO.....

2. TOO TIRED TO....

3. TOO STRESSED TO....

4. TOO LAZY TO....

ANYWAY!

it's the first time for my life in TP having stayed up all night, reached school at 8am, returned home by 1130am to sleep, woke up at 430pm to prepare for training, finally reaching home at 11pm.

damn tiring. and it's not like i did it for fun-joy-laughter. days just lapse together and i can't really tell a day from the next.

so start of 2010? a blur all together.

having said that, 2009 was also a blur. it was fun while it lasted. again i broke another of my rules.

i've had my most share of clubbing, drinking, chalet, laughing, crying, and INJUSTICE.

yes, INJUSTICE.

so much that i have to say it again! INJUSTICE!

i've mentioned it briefly last time -> HERE

i had my matric card (identification pass thingy for poly students) confiscated just because i sat on table protruding from the wall.

YA I KNOW! stupid right? there wasn't even a sign that indicated that we weren't allowed to.. and TP's damn rich for changing all the desk in the school, can't they just put up a couple of signs that will only cost about a tenth of that?

so the one who confiscated my card said,

"do you want to know why you're not allowed to sit on the table?"
(no, it's ok -> i said this)

"well, i'll tell you anyway."
(huh then you ask me for what? stupid ah you. know the meaning of NO? -> this was in my head)

"because the table may break and you will fall and injure yourself blah blah blah.."

aiya, whatever la. from this, i derived that,

IF YOU DON'T EXPECT ANSWERS, DON'T ASK QUESTIONS.

point is, i always question authority. to see if authority is not misused. i want to know that i deserve the punishment i get.

and a whole lot of other stuff.

in the end i had a disciplinary hearing just before one of my mid semester tests. totally screwed up that day. reason being i was forced to apologize.

meaning i was driven into a corner, no way out. i can choose to continue reasoning and state my stand, and i will end up missing my paper. AND THEN, there will still be no conclusion.

the situation was clear, i HAVE to apologize to get out.

when i made views that the disciplinary lady could not answer, she'd say,

"well, it's our responsibility for our roles as educators........."

"the school system states that........"

yes yes. win already lor.

am ashamed of myself for apologizing to something that i felt i did no wrong. there were supporters, just that they also can't override the "school system".

hais. so how again was i reminded of this INJUSTICE?

my communication skills tutor went into labour and guess who's the relief tutor? -.-

INJUSTICE!!

past is past. but i'm still plotting some kind of imaginary revenge. pathetic.

just when i thought 2008 was a dramatic year, 2009 just went and outdo it. I HAD A CAR ACCIDENT FOR CRYING OUT LOUD. and i did the craziest things like bbq-ing in the middle of the night, ON IMPULSE. and i lost a toenail ):

wish i could post more pictures but my laptop is STILL DOWN.

so for 2010, i guess it'll probably beat the other two so i'm hopeful? LOL.

things i hope to get done this year:

1. get my driver's license

2. get abs (still working on it)

3. get a job (wait, i think my internship is like nine more months?)

4. do something i've never done before

surprisingly that's all. things get simpler every year huh? hahahaha. (lazy more like)

but some things will always be the same. like not sleeping at the "planned" time, which should be some three hours ago.

so happy new year all (:

do remember to visit QUEERLAMP for pretty preloved items!

feared and respected

2010-01-05T03:15:00.003+08:00

either you're not putting any effort into the work or you're just plain stupid.

and i am pissed off.

seriously, i don't give a damn whether you're tired or not. EVERYONE IS TIRED during this period of time. did you even stop to think, on top of your stuff to edit, i have others too? not to mention my own workload for the project PLUS another individual journal to complete.

the word "sorry" is viciously abused by you.

sorry doesn't solve anything. saying sorry and not doing anything to improve the situation is not helping.

i gave you chances. i spoon feed you personally by giving hints in the right direction. time and time again, you say you get it. time and time again, your work proved you otherwise.

honestly, i can just accept any crap you send me cause it'll end up as rubbish anyway. heck! i'll save even more time doing it on my own then reviewing and editing yours. that way, we'll save each other a whole lot of time and avoid any grievances possible.

BUT I CHOOSE NOT TO.

because i feel that there is a need for you to learn. that's why i bothered review your work and getting you to redo over and over again.

since you're not bothered to put in half as much effort as me, i shan't be bothered with you any longer.

not to worry, you'll be getting the results of the project too. maybe just 10% of it.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

needed to get that out. complaints that i'm too direct and tactless when i'm commenting. i agree with direct but not tactless. i'll be tactful when there's a need to.

i guess when you want to get things done, you can't fear people's judgment. judgment clouds your mind, distracts you from your purpose. judgment makes you soft. when you're soft, no one listens to you.

quote from Iron Man,

Is it better to be feared or respected? I say, why not both? -Tony Stark

even if they hate you for the things you do now, the results will show and respect will be earned later on.

note that i'm not the kind that just sit back and allow my groupmates to suffer on their own. i do not do pure editing, i delegated stuff that i think i'm capable of handling to myself instead of passing it to others.

fair or not, they can tell you.

ughhhh school school school. boring rants.

uncle talk

2010-01-03T16:08:00.001+08:00

awhile back, i was messing around with my PSP using the wifi and stuff. damn tedious though cause I had to scroll and type using "sms" method. Which simply means,

I CAN JUST DIE TYPING A SENTENCE.

however with the BB now, everything's much much easier. time-killing is also made easy (: youtube-d with it while waiting.

so, am attempting a proper blog entry. thing is, i'm not good with html codes but i'll still try to make this post as colourful in any way possible.

had lunch at st11 kopitiam and the tabletennis uncles were sitting around having just finished their morning practice.

digressing, IVP's in a few days. very worried about it because, we haven't had much preparation done since it arrived just a month after our MST. which we had a two week break before training resumed. to make matters worse, the holiday season marks the inconsistent attendance of the team due to vacation and temporary closing of the multi purpose hall. think next year, i'll implement a ban on going overseas during this period of time. HAHAHAHA kidding! but seriously.

guess there'll be loads of evaluation to do after IVP.

back to the point of this post, those uncles are pretty successful people. among them are bankers, engineers, and businessmen in general. they are really a bunch of awesome people even though some might piss you occasionally.

so they were talking, and two of them quoted,

"Anything that be solved using money, is not a PROBLEM. *laughs*"

argh irritating. rich people talk.

anyway, they were also advising a PR on how to apply for a successful citizenship. which is pretty cool cause i never knew there were "shortcuts". haha. i guess that's why they're so different from all the other uncles sipping kopi around the place.

moral of the story? tabletennis uncles are successful people because?

they ARE TABLETENNIS UNCLES (:

Ciaoz

2010

2010-01-01T14:48:00.002+08:00

keep going thai disco these few weeks. fun fun fun!

and a realization that male species in general,

never mean what they say.

what a way to start 2010. no wild guesses please!

XMAS09

2009-12-27T17:01:00.003+08:00

this year's christmas was one of the nicest i had. went to thai disco for the countdown! damn fun.

had like poppers, light sticks, santa hats with the blings, and foam spray!! the place was practically snowing when it turned midnight. and i got a full blast of the foam on my face. *pouts*

after that, went for supper! i love the XO FISH NOODLE at tampines street 11. the taste is unique and the uncle treats me well! haha. got free soup when i didn't order. (X

and my best bester BESTEST present of the year?

BBBBOOOOOLLLLLLDDDDDD!!!! (:

damn happy that i got it. THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU, YOU'RETHEBEST!!

still exploring the applications and stuff. it's gonna keep me busy for now. which isn't a good thing cause i still have stuff to complete.

anyway! 2010 is coming real soon!! i just know it's going to be a BLAST. resolutions? fuck them. HAHAHAHAHAHA!

[purpose of this post is really just to hao lian the BB BOLD. hehehehe (X BYE]

stuff i've been doing

2009-12-24T04:06:00.000+08:00

i lack many many updates. reason being, laptop has crashed on me and pissed me off. i prefer doing stuff on my own laptop cause everything is there and where i want them.

now? resort to using the computer. don't really enjoy it cause i can't be in the comfort of my bed ):

anyway! first up, MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE to everyone out there!

been really busy today, as in wednesday. finally it was sunhan's turn to get married. was anticipating it for quite long already because the adults were like saying it'll be held at fullerton hotel. GRAND (:

well it was grand i guess. the couple took their wedding photos on a yacht and sights in Hong Kong. really beautiful pictures, so jealous.

woke up damn early, i think like 7am something? i slept at 4am cause i was waiting for my nails to dry. really not a morning person.

you know, i really love dressing up! but i hate it when i'm being rushed and nagged at while i'm at it. SO PRESSURIZING! you see even when caterpillars are changing into butterflies, they take their own sweet time too.

OH! most of the pictures aren't taken with my phone la cause dad was entrusted with a DSLR to shoot the fetch-the-bride and tea ceremony. had fun taking loads of pictures with the DSLR. every shot looks damn nice when you use that kind of camera. awesome (:

well, i can just show you all how jing and i camwhored during the day and other random stuff.

after the morning stuff and the lunch buffet, went to IMM to get some stuff. finally got jing to buy singlets to match his biker jacket after so long. he fell in love with the look instantly. no pictures to show that though!! hahaha.

reached home around 4pm and i slept till 5pm. had to get up and prepare for the wedding dinner and off we go again.

one thing about my maternal side relatives, they love drinking, gambling, and smoking. for most of the males that is. the only thing out of the three that they can do during a wedding dinner is DRINKING!

traditionally, every kid in the family has gone through a ritual of beer/wine toasting in such events before they can speak in complete sentences. so lookie here,

this is nathaniel, natboy! my youngest nephew! so cute (: and I'M DAMN RED!!! back to the point-

see, it's not the first time that he finished a glass of wine by himself. not that he was spared during this occasion.

it was super funny looking at him finish the drink, touch his forehead, pronounced that he feels hot, and looking really confused. HAHA.

ohya! i wanted to show you guys what i bought the other time right?

BOOTS!!! love 'em to bits!

keep wearing them everywhere during the first few days of purchase. love how they give the "tough" look to my girlie clothing. but! they took a sum from my account. hais.. i was saving up well till.......

then again, there are people who still owe me money so i don't feel as guilty as i should after getting the boots. THOUGH, not sure when will i get the money back. ):

so that day, think it was more than a month ago. went to bugis with yiting and then watched mulan at night with hun at ehub. it was then i realised it's been quite awhile since i last camwhored with yiting.

plus! we had to wait for the movie too. so what other better ways to kill time then?

forced smile

failed attempt with flash

still fail!

FINALLY (:

ok during the holidays, apart from training real hard, i only went to club ONCE.

it was great but had some guy had to kill our mood by stealing ivan's wallet. wasted that night because we drank, got high, awesome music, then fuck. hais. had to leave early to make a police report. no point staying on anyway.

and i went to Marina Barrage for the second time! but with jiajie yunjen sylvia and wanteng on tuesday.

supposed to have picnic but it rained when we got there. decided to settle down in a sheltered place while waiting for the clouds to disperse.

OUR STASH (:

YUM..

had homemade brownies, fruits, sausage and other random stuff la. and soon, the clouds cleared and we shifted to the "field". only thing was, the place was super muddy. otherwise, the weather was good with just the right amount of sunshine!

while singing, we attracted a little audience!

ain't she pretty??? (:

hahaha cute. skirt is short until her pampers were visible. got a handsome dad too! (X

the sky got darker and it started to drizzle. had to pack up and shift to another sheltered place. the weather didn't dampen our mood though! still had fun taking pictures, throwing frisbee, and just making fun of each other.

yunjen can only pout.

see what i mean?

smilesssssssss..... (:

i love wanteng and she loves me!

group hug!! XOXO

did i mention? jump shots are necessary for the TP tabletennis team. (X

HAHAHA DAMN FUN (X

our sexy back views..

random candid..

there's loads more on our fb (: all in all, had a great time at Marina Barrage. after that, went to plaza sing with yunjen and wanteng for daiso and dinner. had to brave through the crowd that was waiting for jaychou to appear.

I HATE CROWDS.

i get frustrated easily, and i feel nauseous. ugh, claustrophobia. plus, most of the people there were like PRCs la. they are damn overwhelming and have no courtesy at all. made us avoid the first level of plaza sing at all cost!

bah whatever. anyway!! please do support the pre-loved sale that yiting and i set up. can't bear to throw those things away cause we think they're really pretty. and most of the stuff have only been worn once! others have never been worn at all!

http://queerlamp.blogspot.com/2009/12/dress-ed.html

you'll see stuff like this,

and this!

DO SUPPORT OK!!! (:

recently, i keep thinking of grandpa. it's been more than a year since he'd gone but little things i see everyday reminds me of him. i'm not sure if it's a good or bad thing that i've never dreamed about him at all since that day.

people say, the more you want to dream about the person, the more he/she won't appear as you haven't let go.

so i haven't let go? i don't know. i wish that i can see him in my dreams sometime. like hear him talk or just a smile will do. people will think i'm crazy but i really miss him that much.

guess he will always be a part of me. the one who taught me to cycle, play chinese chess, the one who pushed me around in the pram when i was small, the one who'd race me home from kindergarten. grandpa, i miss you.

Dress-ed

2009-12-22T07:16:00.003+08:00

HEY ALL!!! PRE-LOVED ITEMS ARE FINALLY UP!

DO VISIT
DRESS-ED @ QUEERLAMP.BS

HELP SPREAD THE JOY (:

THANKS YOU GUYS!!

uh, wrong time

2009-12-22T00:21:00.001+08:00

ok laptop crashed. bad timing. can't show you all what i got from bugis unless you went and checked out my facebook.

and! my pre-loved items, i'll get them up soon! once i finish with my other stuff first though.

MISS CHNG YITING CAN YOU KINDLY SEND ME THE PICS?? thanks babe... hahahaha (:

childhood hero

2009-11-30T04:21:00.001+08:00

you know, all these while i've been telling you guys that my childhood hero is

SPIDERMAN

but i realised, he ain't the first hero in my life know? so who is it then? the one so deserving a spot in my praise?

the daring, fearless, courageous, smart, the non-conformist?

i've got three words,

花木兰 (Hua Mulan)

(: she's my hero since i can remember la!

ever since i've watched the disney movie version, heard from my mom, grandpa.... she's my idol!

you know i had the period when i was super tomboy-ish and all? partial influence was because of her. it's way cool that she dressed up as a guy, kickass, and accomplish what the male species think us women can't do.

can she get any cooler?

i guess in her time, she probably wished she was born male so that she can support her dad and all. i wished i was born male too cause being a woman, there are really many restrictions.

then again, if she was male, there wouldn't be an inspiring story for people to tell. who cares about a guy who joined the army in his dad's place and help fought the war? like so cliche... CHEH!

hahahaha!!

the big deal is, WOMEN CAN DO WHAT MEN CAN! don't count those body parts and sexual whatsits whatsnots.

so yeah.. my loving hero!

and i got to watch the movie during the weekend. tragic, but great! (:

when we finished, hun told me and yiting that the story is made up. i was like super shocked la. all those years of aspirations to be like Hua Mulan, in matter of seconds just- POOF!

i was half convinced because i know he always pull this kind of stunt on me. then! yiting comes and support his statement! which made the matter even more absurd! and she was trying to tell me if it was real, then how come it's not documented?

hun even told me google it! and he bet on it!

i was crushed.. ):

but i caught him grinning in satisfaction and YES! he is lying.

ASS!!!

and yiting, as blur as usual still can't get the facts right. LOL.

anyway, it was a fun day (night). and i can't wait to show you all this awesome buy i got from bugis! HEEEEEEEEE till then!

throwing out the old

2009-11-26T03:43:00.002+08:00

it was quite some time ago that i packed my closet and i have a bunch of pre-loved that i can't bear to throw away.

so! after many months of procrastination, i'm finally going to start preparing for it!

do support when i post those pre-loved sale!

should be up around next week (i hope)!

school's in another ten hours time. fieldwork week thus many lessons are put on hold. going back to school for UNDERSTANDING THEATRE which is totally awesomegoodnesslicious! learning and doing something that i like. hais, i wish i can do everything i like all at the same time.

i'll be a MARKETING EXECUTIVE IN SOME BIGSHOT ADVERTISING FIRM who

owns a MEGA CLUB/PUB/CAFE/DISCO/SHOPPING MALL hahaha whatever business that i can start,

plus i'm a PART TIME ACTRESS in some theatre!

awesome (:

actually, i enjoy acting very much. kinda prefer the theatre kind, musical if possible. acting on tv, it's great but the satisfaction of preparing for it........ well maybe it's cause i've only been a calefare so there's not much preparation needed. HA

ok i'm ranting.

glutton

2009-11-19T00:47:00.002+08:00

guess what i had for dinner???

ordered the the super variety sub meal from pizzahut! which includes,

a personal hawaiian pizza, an alpha chic sandwich (like the one shown in the picture), and four honey glazed wing joints!

i didn't expect myself to finish it when i saw it arrive because the sandwich was unexpectedly huge. hahahaha. but i managed to finish it anyway. shocked mom and dad (:

ok friend

2009-11-18T05:22:00.002+08:00

finally done with individual journal for A&P (Advertising and Promotion). took me two nights that lasted from 2-3am till like 5am. hopefully it's worth it.

and i just wanna say! I LOVE PAINT!! hahaha. beats using photoshop anytime. ok i admit, i suck at photoshop. but i managed to survive many projects with Paint! (:

and had chat with xinyi. yes, the one from the previous entry lol. it was good la. finally got my message across and understand her better.

not going to remove the post though. it shall be a reminder that how we are all being very concerned friends. haha.

NIGHT WORLD!

what friend

2009-11-17T00:09:00.005+08:00

disclaimer: the author of this page has the right to save and edit any of the photos she has obtained from Facebook. because, as everyone is entitled to their own opinions and comments, the author is too. and she would like to add that owners of the images are aware that their images may/may not be subjected to use by others.

hi all.

recently, friend of mine, *Jenny has been put into a spot by her so-called friend, **xinyi.

* - name changed to protect identity of the person
** - name unchanged to subject person to humiliation

and it's not the first time. time after time, we ignore those childish and spiteful actions but today, i think it's time i do something about it.

you see, i'm not the kind of person who enjoys making fun of people. yes, i do tease my friends but it's all in the name of fun-joy-laughter. thus writing this entry, i have deepest sympathy to the person on the receiving end (though you probably wouldn't want it).

let me start by saying, *Jenny i understand how it feels like to be stuck in between two groups of people that means so much to you. trust me, i've been through it before and i know it sucks.

that's why i've been tolerant all these while. if the other party refuses to give in, we just have to step backwards.

but watching you troubling over this matter pains and irritates me. wonder if **xinyi feels the same? or is she just finding something meaningful to do in her life? i hate to see any of my friends in this helpless position.

**xinyi, seriously what good will it do with all your spite on us? it's true that the Internet provides freedom for any kinds of opinion. but are you being responsible with your opinions?

in such a process, you've hurt the person who (i hope) you truly care for in this life. *Jenny is growing up, so are you. while growing up, you get to meet new people, learn new things (good and bad yes), fall in love and so on.

of course, i don't think you'd be falling in love anytime soon since you have such distrust with guys. have you even tried though? kinda pity you actually. not that i'm saying BGR FTW, but it's just part of growing up. if you've never tried, you'll never know (:

then again, you falling in love is one thing. people falling in love with you is another.

you should really thank God and your parents. why? because you came out as a girl, silly. i shudder to think what will happen to you if that didn't happen aye? damn, that sounds so gangsta..

ok i digressed. point is, what i conclude from this entire saga, you seemed pretty insecure about yourself and your friends, or in this case *Jenny. but hey, everyone has insecurities so i don't blame you.

what you deemed as "bad company" are actually the ones who've been through most of these two years of *Jenny's life. they've been there for all her ups and downs. cheering her up with simple things, like wrapping toilet paper around her head, or even "sloppy dance moves" that can put a smile on her face. you don't know how it works between us and *Jenny, so do keep your irresponsible opinions to yourself.

i know we're not the only ones that care about her right? i have no doubt that looking at these,

put smiles on *Jenny's face too.

you can continue to bite, spit, spite or whatever horrible things that you can say or do to us. rest assured, one day those photos will only become hurtful memories for *Jenny. reminders that her once so-called friend failed to understand the situation she's in.

anyway, what's so bad about doing silly videos? it's everywhere online. plenty of imitations and parodies for the videos. if you really care so much, go flame those other videos then.

here's one for you.

but i guess they are waaaaaayyyy better than us of course, with all the practice and video editing.

nonetheless, thank you for the delightful comment Facebook (:

and your friend's too.

we will try to do a better and more coordinated one in the future. do check out our NOBODY video too! we always welcome haters and fans alike (:

as for this entry, me myself and i are solely responsible for everything written here. *Jenny is not involved. i will not involve any others thus this is only between you and me.

**xinyi and Andey's little heart-to-heart.

one last piece of advice that i think you really need,

"friends can only advise, they can't tell you what to do."

so fuck off (:

birthdays!

2009-11-15T01:55:00.002+08:00

OK THERE'S LIKE THREE PEOPLE SO FAR ON MY BIRTHDAY WISHING LIST FOR THIS MONTH.

13 Nov - Trevis
15 Nov - Cherelle
16 Nov - Fion

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU THREE! (:

two of you turning 21, grow up please..

cherelle, turn 18 already ahhhh.. don't too naughty, be like me. HAHAHA

gonna be so broke this month!

movies and more movies

2009-11-09T04:32:00.000+08:00

remember Ariel? the pretty little balloon mermaid from the previous post? look what happened to it in just a week's time.

HAHAHAHA CUTE RIGHT (X

and let me introduce my new favourite stuff toy,

COOKIE MONSTER

it's waaaaaaayyyy cute. love the eyes especially. THANKS FOR CATCHING IT (:

anyway, been catching loads of movies recently. the most crap of all?

seriously, the plot is bad, action is bad, suspense is also bad. but Megan Fox has great legs! which is MAJOR in her "hot factor". pretty waste of money and time though. guess the movie people are running out of ideas.

and i watched POKER KING and THIS IS IT.

both are wonderful. Poker King is damn funny la but the plot is dumb (better than Jen's Body anyway). after watching This Is It, my admiration for Michael Jackson increased ten times. truly an artist, really the King of Pop.

MJ is awesome to the max. an artist that can remember every single one of his songs by heart and he knows what key they start. the whole movie, i was just enjoying the songs and being very very inspired by him. sad thing is, MJ really behaves like a child. guess he's really deprived of his childhood.

i kinda pity the dancers, backup singers, and everyone else who were preparing for MJ's last concert. especially the dancers, they were so psyched about dancing with MJ cause he's the one that inspired them to dance.

and it's their one and only time to finally shine then? MJ passed away. ):

rest in peace MJ. God bless you too.

lastly, the most haunting and disturbing and scary and whatever the thesaurus can come up with.

it's FUCKING awesome for a horror movie. scared the wits out of me.

throughout the movie, there wasn't once i felt calm at all. plus, they made the movie so realistic meaning like no exaggerated special piew-piew-ba-bom effects WHICH is why it's damn scary.

felt like leaving before the movie ended but managed to survive it la. seriously ah, anyone of you planning to watch it, PLEASE DON'T WATCH ALONE. it's a good horror movie means it'll definitely give you a good scare.

ok ok, school's at 9am. apparently i'm not even trying to get up early since it's already 430am now.

pfffffftt.

HALLOWEEN'09

2009-11-02T01:53:00.002+08:00

lazy to elaborate on halloween. still! it was fun (:

was on facebook just now and looking through the pictures that other people took during halloween. comparing it with mine?

mine is only PG-rated!!

Ariel from The Little Mermaid

Elmo from Sesame Street

Elmee from Kaya Toast Road

LOL LAME LA! gonna sleep now,
KBAI, NIGHTS! (:

fly by

2009-10-25T22:54:00.002+08:00

first week of the 2.2 flew by just like that!

determined to do well as always but don't know if this determination will last. sad huh? haha.

saw friends uploading pictures onto facebook already but i'm too lazy to get them here. have many many things to show and tell. (:

anyway, just a short update. very very tired. catching the match too.. liverpool vs manu, hope liverpool wins though i'm sorely tempted to see benitez get fired. hahaha. ohwell...

midnight bbq mayhem

2009-10-16T15:56:00.000+08:00

one of the crazier things i've done during the holidays is going to ECP in the middle of the night for bbq. hahaha! super spontaneous and it was a success (:

it started as a simple boring day when me pok and tim accompanied christina to dye her hair then suddenly,

"eh, we go bbq tonight la?"

"serious?"

"serious la!"

"OK ON!!!!"

went to loyang point to get food and stuff before going to my house for a movie, Blades of Glory. and then we're off! something even more spontaneous...

when we reached ECP, invited john to join us and he CAME!

seriously, where do you find such spontaneous peeps?

actually, the poses are supposed to be quite vulgar but aiya.. don't know how come it all turned out so normal? LOL..

喜怒哀乐 first is tim and me, then was christina and pok.

exchange partners..

we ended up doing NOBODY. hahaha video's on facebook. all in all, it was the most fun bbq i've ever had!

very relaxed, well fed and great company. (:

hope this won't be the last.

me the boy boy

2009-10-10T18:59:00.001+08:00

you know, someone that never fails to amuse me is,

myself.

three years and beyond ago when hawkers shout,

"BOY, 要吃什么?" (boy, what you want to eat)

never ever fails to crack me up. and just this afternoon nursing my headache at home, i decided to view the pictures taken when mom jing and i went to South Korea around four years back.

realised how geek/nerd-ish jing looks and how i look like a cute boy next to him! HAHA. people used to think we were twins as he was my height and i didn't look anything like a SISTER.

i miss those berms! i think either it was given or thrown away already. sad.. could've made used of it now.

anyway, other than getting embarrassed hawkers calling me "boy", i get little girls asking their moms while we're in the ladies going,

"mommy, why is that korkor in the girls' toilet?"

the mom will then hush her up and speak in a whisper,

"sshh.. that one is not korkor, is jiejie.."

HAHAHAHA. that was discreet (:

but i guess the major problem last time that got me mistaken as a boy were my baggy clothes and the way i behave. i mean like, even if i had that length of hair now, i don't believe anyone would still mistake me as a guy who wears dresses and tanks and with two something protruding at the front? (X

another story, i had my toenail knocked off by the main door while leaving home and it bled like crazy. i sound so calm even though it hurt pretty badly that day. the whole nail was just hanging by the cuticle area for like two-three weeks.

till after butterfactory on ladies' night, after many heels and sneakers massaging on it, the nail finally got loose and i plucked it out after showering (:

YATTA!!

i can safely say that this holiday has been very fulfilling. in a sense that i tried and did so many things, was ecstatic but was infuriated too. the highs and lows of this holiday made it so memorable. and glad that it wasn't just about partying through the nights.

i'll update in more details when the pictures are in. so continue to be grossed out by beautiful toe! i love you guys (:

how many more nights

2009-10-06T15:58:00.001+08:00

you know, i've never realised that Johnny Depp looks so similar to the character that he plays in Public Enemies, John Dillinger.

just take a look, this is Johnny Depp-

and this is him in Public Enemies-

finally, i present to you the REAL JOHN DILLINGER-

ok, i know you can't really see it like this soooo...

SEEEEEEE!!!

and Johnny Depp definitely does his homework. look at the way he smiles! it's just like Dillinger! one side of the cheek is upwards. and also the way he looks into the camera. HAHA so cool!

alright.. for fans of both guys, i know i'm very slow in noticing this. it just didn't cross my mind to search for the real guy the last time i saw the movie right?

anyway! nights have been very standardised for me, Simpang and Changi Village.

and i found out that the tequila guy, he wanted to make a police report for that five shots. what the hell?

where's the evidence? the witness? he has no evidence nor witness.

on the other hand, i happen to know that the tequilas are waaaaaayyy gone by now down the drains into the sea or whatever NEWater plant that we have. and i have a witness who is apparently the bartender who helped me wash the shot glasses.

and if i were to steal the revenue, i wouldn't be so careless as to leave any evidence behind.

damn pissed off with him. if i see his audi again, i'll make sure it looks like it just went through a sandstorm.

pfft.

i'll be my own boss

2009-09-26T20:24:00.002+08:00

no one likes to be accused, including me.

days (nights) have been rough for me. found a job and lost it within days. been working at some ktv pub selling tequila shots. new experience and i got to know the same type of people-

WHO GIVES A DAMN AS LONG AS YOU'RE RICH?

which is a sad but true reality. men are the most confident when they have money. why i say that?

some fat ugly bastard who claims to be a TP alumni had the cheek to bargain with me. he requested that for him to buy the shots, i would have to feed him with my mouth.

WTF?

can't he just take a look in the mirror? i was so sick i almost puked on his face but didn't. just smiled and left.

other than that, many many drama-mama stuff keep happening to me. stuff i only hear about or watch on TV. never expected it to happen directly to me. freaked me out pretty badly. hais. my life is just going through some weird phase la.

about losing the job, i saw it coming. felt really unappreciated. actually, most of the jobs that i take up, i end up feeling unappreciated. things that i do for the job, the boss never sees. all they see, are the superficial things that's too shallow to judge anyone.

i'm very definite of two things, i know my capabilities very well and that customers enjoy chatting with me. these two, none of my previous employers could tell. only the time i worked in StarHub and under olivia was i ever appreciated. the rest just fucked their own lives fucking with mine.

so i came to a very strong conclusion,

I WILL BE MY OWN BOSS.

but apart from that, i got accused of pocketing the sales revenue. what's worse isn't the fact that the cost will be deducted from my pay, but the fact that he accused me in the most subtle and indirect manner.

"i will deduct the 5 shots which went missing."

noticed he said MISSING when i told him i made a mistake by handing the tray to the bartender for washing before collecting the tequilas from the shot glasses.

why can't he just say he'd deduct the cost of the five shots from my pay?

that wasn't the only thing he accused me of by the way. blame it on my greed. money overcame my rationality.

ohwells, no point working for someone who doesn't appreciate my efforts.

new job

2009-09-19T04:27:00.003+08:00

weekday nights are all work work and more work!

it's good that i'm earning some money now. not easy though, what i'm doing..

SOME GUY IS QUITE AFFECTED WITH MY PUSSY AS WOMAN'S FACE POST! HAHA..

just quote,

"a woman's vagina is like her second face!" (:

cheers.. short post to show signs of survival. actually, i think i update my facebook and twitter more often. do catch me on twitter! it's on the right sidebar.

GOODNIGHT EVERYONE!

lies, all lies..

2009-09-13T02:56:00.006+08:00

i can't tell you how much i dislike the promoting job at watsons. not just about the ugly uniform, but the hours you spend doing nothing! of course my job would be to promote the product but i just find it so pointless. and i don't even use it.

and i found out about the stuff that made up our sanitary napkins, in short, PADS!

it's freaking disgusting, disturbing, anything horrible you can imagine. and i got to know it cause a lady approached me to do network marketing on pads.

and you guys all know how network marketing works. you sign up, get more people to sign up, and you get more commission. simple as that. but that isn't really the point of this post.

ok, about the demonstration of the miraculous pad called Anion (google it). not that i'm promoting it la. you all can go check it out. the only reason that stopped me from doing this network marketing business is cause,

"if the pad is really that good, why the big boss don't want to just introduce it into the market? that way he can earn all the money by himself instead of sharing it with so many people."

back to the point. during the demonstration, i found out that the normal pads we use are made up of these things:

1) Industrial glue - you know the sticky part of the pad that keeps it on your panties? yes, it is industrial glue. the stuff that is used to stick tables, chairs and everything else that you can imagine. and detergent, is definitely not strong enough to remove it. thing is, you also cannot tell if it's still there!

2) Plastic - think of your pussy as your face. imagine wrapping your face in a plastic bag, can you breathe? or think of it as having heavy make up with all your pores covered the WHOLE DAY. ughh

the last one is the most unimaginable and most scary.

are you ready?

do not react violently even though what i'm about to tell you is truly shocking and terrifying.

3) Recycled materials - yes, it is as you read it. the supposedly "cotton" that is used to absorb our blood is actually made up of RECYCLED paper and other stuff. you know? like cardboard, newspape-

*GASPS* used pads.... ohmygod.. and how they make it look clean? BLEACH. super strong bleach. how to find that out? simply tear out the "cotton" in your pad and put it in water. you'll see how the "cotton" turns yellow.

these are the stuff that women have been placing on their pussies for soooo many years! it's no wonder cervical cancer is the NUMBER TWO disease that is killing us, number one is breast cancer fyi.

us women should protest and sue the sanitary napkin companies for endangering our lives all these years. the world is so unethical!

fake meat-fillers, fake milk, now fake cotton. what's next?

verse of the day

2009-09-07T02:09:00.001+08:00

this verse ah... is going to make me do bad things...

blue ribbons, where are you?

2009-09-04T23:18:00.006+08:00

crazy with hair accessories recently. they're like simple objects that change your whole outfit into something entirely new! super exciting and all. haha.

taken on last sunday after work and going for movie. and i really enjoy the attention i get from it. haha super funny. people just keep staring. maybe it looks "costume-ish"?

movie watched,

COCO BEFORE CHANEL

i enjoyed it very much. i get high when i see all the cute boyish outfits that she made for herself before she became a full-fledged apparel designer. haha.

anyway, went out another day in blue!

and blue ribbons in my hair too.. haha. ended up wandering around orchard by myself due to some unforeseen circumstances. ohwell.

taken in thai disco after our paper that day. went to watch singapore cup too! geylang vs tampines which tampines won! (:

i get red very easily when i drink. this was like halfway through a glass of bourbon coke.

then like this week, went to visit christina at her chalet but ended up going to another group of friends' chalet at aranda. don't know the people there except for these few,

left to right,
top- christina and trevis. bottom- me, pok and tim!

which we had a lot of fun while some were mahjong-ing outside. played truth or dare and i laughed till my stomach cramp.

the next day, which is wednesday..

we went butterfactory to celebrate pok's 19th! (:

girls- me, christina, sihui

guys- tim, christopher, pok, trevis. (dedric's missing)

ribena vodka! yum.. or actually, the only alcohol that i drink.

getting very VERY RED already.

tada! missing person found! (:

and saw other friends there too. for one, there's........

MENGCHOU!

and saw benpeh too. but he disappeared off real quick.

the crowd that night was mad squeezy! to manoveur through takes loads of time and technique la. everyone's like molecules sliding past each other. lucky i didn't get past anyone sweaty. EWW!

MUAH! toilet break! (:

smoke break.... not me though. i'm like killing myself in the room.

the entire group!

ended up at macs munching on burgers and gulping down our drinks. so much for butterfactory.

when there's a high, there's a low. i was high, so go figure.

packed my cupboard today and cleared out loads of clothings. now it looks fresher and i got space for more! KIDDING~ spent like three to four hours at it. hope it last at least two to three months. HAHA..

my blue ribbons are missing though ):

sigh so many times

2009-08-29T20:31:00.001+08:00

really admire those people who can blog with arty-farty pictures ALL THE TIME. does that mean that they always search for those pictures every day?

had a very controversial thing happen to us today. was at the mrt control station and hun drank his bottled apple tea. instantaneously, the station master or whatever he's called came up to us and asked for identification.

well well well, with the recent stringent rules of NO EATING/DRINKING in train stations, even candies aren't spared.

managed to get the guy to call up his manager to talk to us instead. got a warning, much preferable to a fine thankyouverymuch.

hun said he saw the guy following us after we past the barriers staring at our plastic bag carrying the drinks. did he follow us on purpose? was he that free?

SPEAKING ABOUT PURPOSE, the idea behind the NO FOOD & DRINKS was to prevent people from littering. baby singaporeans just need reminding all the time! like eg,

babysg-ian: *chews burger and throws wrapper on the floor*

boliao station master: EH! DON'T LITTER! babysg-ian: orh.. *picks up litter and throw in bin*

NEXT DAY...

babysg-ian: *eats food and litters*

BL SM: WAHLAOEH! this time we add LAW AND FINE. $_$

ANOTHER DAY...

babysg-ian: *ea-

BL SM: EH! PAY FINE LA. eat eat eat..

AND ANOTHER DAY...

everyone else dies on train due to severe dehydration and starvation.

THE END!

by the way, i think like bottled drinks should be allowed what. if not why they put this sign,

shows that drinks that are in cups aren't allowed what. unless, that strange looking thing on the left is supposed to be a bottle. or is that some pepper thing? WHATEVER.

IT'S SO MISLEADING!!!!

and bottled drinks are bottled up because they are meant for you to carry around. it's almost like a water bottle. we asked if people drink from water bottle, will he "arrest" them too. guess what? he said,

"it is still drinking what.."

hais. why got this kind of jfrhfe%^&uhg(*&(ljak+nws not flexible people working in smrt? maybe they should let their prospective employees go through an EQ and IQ test before hiring. wait, ALL transport and service industries should!

yeah yeah me with the rants and the crap.

AAAANNNEEEEWAAAAAEE!

been buying loads of stuff recently. spending a lot of money yet i haven't got any steady income yet. terrible terrible.

BUT I REALLY LOVE THIS HAIRCLIP!!!!!

hehehe..

anyway, i'm going to go out again. see you all again soon! (:

first half down

2009-08-27T15:29:00.002+08:00

with only one paper, i finished it on tuesday and it didn't even feel like i had any exam la. but went out for sleague and thai disco that day.

i think with all my brief updates, it's no wonder the readers are bored-away. hahaha.

i promise a proper one when i get the night to do so. complete with pictures, captions and everything. till then, bear with me (:

friends do help me financially by clicking on the ad which is on the right side! THANKS.

study week 2.1end

2009-08-20T15:17:00.002+08:00

motivation for studying? i'm already in the holiday mood! with only one paper like all the other marketing students, what's there to "mug" about? haha.

studied for a bit yesterday with christina and michelle. ended up chatting loads more than studying. but it was fun la.

ohya! we were discussing like how the three of us ended up so close and all. i mean for regular cases, most people are generally closer to their secondary school friends. but for us, we're closer to each other.

not that i don't have close friends from secondary school cause i do! we just don't meet up as often anymore. except for yiting la. cause we live near each other and usually a call would suffice a meetup. haha.

so it was really like DESTINY to meet the two. and funny enough, both are younger than me. and we each had our share of being taken care of and also taking care of each other. whether it was heartwrenching confessions or drunk moments, we had it all (:

i think i mentioned it before that we weren't close at the start of year one. erm, i think it was just me and christina, michelle was still floating somewhere. HAHA.

got close cause of SHUGAR, even though we had a rough time from the bosses.

alright, i need to get going. might be going out to study.

my headaches dont stop

2009-08-12T22:30:00.000+08:00

i'm not sure if i lack sleep or i'm sick. my head hurts like mad every single day. am i thinking too much? am i stressed? do i need more sleep? or i just need some medicine?

can't say that i've been busy this week even with tests and one last presentation. it's actually quite manageable. so i guess my headaches aren't from school. and it's been there since last week.

finally slacked with the guys today after school. haven't been hanging out much with them since the tests. even though i hate them smoking, i do miss their cologne+cig smell. hahaha weird eh? wanted to catch a movie but i've already watched most of it. SORRY!

told them today that after knowing them, it becomes harder for me to trust guys. hahaha. not that it's entirely their fault la. just that some of the stuff i learnt from watching them, hais. and stuff that's been happening to me, just proves the point further.

anyway, within two days during the national day weekend, i conquered THREE movies!

it's been some time since i've watched two consecutive midnight shows and it's super tiring! keep falling asleep during GI Joe. thought it was quite nonsensical and boring.

went to watch sleague Super Reds against Gombak United on friday night. Reds made a nice comeback but it ended in a draw.

haha, taken at jalan besar stadium. it was damn embarassing cause,

1. i was pointing middle finger in the air for quite some time

2. many people were passing by cause the match just ended

3. i'm too pretty so get a lot of attention!!! hahahahahaha!!!! kidding la!

can't you people take a little joke? LOL..

weekend was mostly made up of this two!

other pictures are too.... erm, graphic (X

i think i'm really a marketing student. it's like, i can never do well for my exams but i do excel in my presentations. honestly speaking, i'm pretty proud of my presentation skills. haha. ohwell, when one's to evaluate his/her own strengths and weaknesses, i know myself through and through.

just glad that my course ain't all about exams (: and we have FUN people in it!

ohya! back to the point about guys..

i told the guys that i trust them as friends, not as guys though. and they were like asking me to decide who i thought was the "friendliest". obviously, i'm not going to reveal it here. hahaha. the person(s) should know who they are.

i want to trust again though, but life ain't that simple anymore.

after those busy weeks

2009-08-06T19:01:00.000+08:00

thought i started with the nails. hahaha. taken during POL-ITE. lightest blue is mine, the others are wanteng's. cool eh? i'm gonna do another colour soon. just bought it the day before at dte.

anyway, had a very slack day with yiting on saturday. went to hang at bugis area. mainly drawn there by TCC but ended up having Thai Express instead. haha. but we slacked at TCC and took pictures! it's been damn long since we last took one together.

upon seeing this, one of the waiter stopped and watch us cause we were using timer. hahaha. frowned and he then offered to take it for us. LOL!

quite nice leh i think. not bad! seldom got waiter take nice pictures(: maybe he was helping the other group of customers previously that he got skilled! hahahaha.

i always feel like i'm a man! LOL

after that we went back to ehub for movie. caught Public Enemies the second time.

JOHN DILLINGER ISWAS THE MOST CHARMING MAN I'LL EVER KNOW!!

or rather, johnny depp la. haha. he's damn awesome! love the way he calls his girl,

"hey doll." omg damn sexyyy!

FISH FACE!

oh, i cut my hair already. but not the short one. i just got it thinned and also shortened my fringe. haha. feels kinda weird for me cause my fringe has been long for a long long time. haha. i keep touching it now. LOL

went to nick's house on sunday to study for FAOM test. hahaha. ended up half snoozing through while the guys dota-ed and fb-ed.

don't know why yinghui looks so macho here. maybe cause damien looks like he is using a lot of effort to hurt yh but like no feeling. LOL!

then yesterday, record breaking time in school. first time i slacked till 11pm plus in school ok? stayed back not for training or camps or projects leh. i stayed back to WAIT FOR CHRISTINA la. hahaha. watched and helped out for her CCP presentation. i'm kind i know (:

my BLACKFACE and shorter fringe.

chriss, you do realise that covering your forehead like that makes it easier for us to tell if it's bigger? from here, i see that it's almost as wide as four of your fingers! (X

went Mr Teh Tarik for dinner with chriss. miss this kind of feeling. like nothing to do kind of feeling. finally not so rushing for projects anymore. feels empty but it's great! loving it (:

left with a few tests and one major exam. and i'm going to sing and beach next week! excited..

defending champions

2009-08-01T06:23:00.007+08:00

first of all, i want to say,

I'M VERY VERY PROUD OF YOU GIRLS!

congrats to all of us for retaining the GOLD. couldn't have done it without every single one of you. thanks for allowing me to gain such a result in my time of being the vice-captain. (:

went to celebrate just now with some of the team. sang and sang till my throat is so sore right now. had a really enjoyable time with all of you. you know, i wish i had the ability to treat you all for the ktv just now, especially the girls cause you all really deserve it. and by ability, i mean if i was working and earning my own money. sigh so sorry..

finally, the most hectic stressful and sleepless week that i've ever experienced in my poly life so far is OVER! all those submission datelines, presentations, competitions.. really threw me all over the place.

especially since thursday cause coach decided to let me do the line-ups.

you know? after POL-ITE, i really really appreciate and admire all my coaches. one thing, i don't understand how they handle the stress level la! it's like, when i did the line-ups, i was so scared that i screw things up and cause the team a loss. all coach face that so often but they face it ever so calmly. either that, or they can really hide their emotions well.

by the way, thursday we were against our biggest rival- NYP. thus making the decision for the line-up was even tougher. lucky for us (and me of course), the line-up and matches went through smoothly. even though the big score 3-2 may seem like a close fight, but really, we won them quite easily.

seriously, being a coach you must have the team's interest at heart.

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erm i fell asleep at that part cause was really tired.. ANYWAY!

after that day i swear i don't want to be a coach. everything that you decide, it must never be personal/emotional. and it's damn hard to do.

anyway, this has been a tough semester for me ba. besides projects and presentations, responsibilities for the team - defending the champion title, implementing physical training, watching people leaving the team... being a TPTT vice-captain is not easy. all i can say is, i pretty much messed myself up.

really need the holidays to freshen up and prepare for more that's coming.

3 letters to 3 different people

2009-07-28T23:58:00.003+08:00

POL-ITE started already and the girls have won SP and RP! technically speaking, only SP cause RP had two walkovers and we were losing 1-2. but lucky we made it i guess.

for those who are disappointed with your performance today, don't be! it's not your best, true.. but we know that you can and you will do better! so let's do well on thursday and friday against NYP and NP (:

i'm here today because i want to write letters to people. everything's messed up again.

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to the first you,
signing in to msn, the first name i'll always see is yours. but today when i signed in, as usual i saw you. but your nickname..

"u give up on me."

do you have any idea how much it hurt me? i couldn't take my eyes off it no matter how much i wanted to. i thought while showering, did i really? just doesn't make any sense. afterall, i thought it was mutual? weren't we still laughing and joking about it? didn't you make promises? but i think it's time cognitivity rule over affection.

how can you say i give up on you when i never did? yes i said i was tired. but i didn't say i was finished. the difference is that when i get tired, i need rest, after my rest i'll carry on with the journey.

it is more about you giving up on yourself, you giving up on us. you've made your choice even though you knew clearly what will happen. ignorance?

i don't even care if i'm known to be the badguy. i only care about what you think about me and what's going to happen to you now

just so you know, a simple remark by you causes pain to my heart. this time, it managed to pierce through the numbness that was within. i really hope you know what you're doing.

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to the second you,
i'm speechless. it shocked and terrified me. i was told many times that my judgement is wrong but i didn't believe them. i believed in you and i protected you. but what i found out, i guess you will never know how it came about. you see, in life there's karma. things that you do will come back and haunt you. while i'm still in disbelief, i keep thinking back to the times when you told me stories, were there links among them? were you trying to hint me something? or you simply can't let me find out about that double-life you're living. i guess now i'll just leave it be. until the day you tell me from your very lips. i guess i'll never trust you again.

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to the third you,
just forget me.

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ladies and gentlemen, have i or have i not just won the prize for the world's most rotten judgement?

blank

2009-07-26T18:14:00.000+08:00

my mind's a blank now. it happened just yesterday but it feels so long already. i don't know how i'm feeling right now though. and it's not the first time i'm feeling like this.

i guess if it was meant to be then it would. i'm a person who believes in carving out your own life. not that i'll go against fate or destiny or something. i guess everyone from the moment you're born, a life has been set ahead for you already. and the life alters according to your choices along the way.

the point is, there's no point.

you see, my mind is demented. nothing makes sense. everything's twisted.

forgive me, i should have done it a long time ago. from the moment i could tell from your eyes that you'll never really let it go, i should have done it then.

hopefully from now on, things will change and get better. i really really hope so. and hope that one day, we can do this all over again.

on to better things, been shopping lately. the flea market at smu with yiting... orchard with christina bryan and tim followed by supper with addition of michelle and ivan at simpang.

and i finally got my new contact lenses and specs. i've been dragging it for few months already. blurry vision and stuff. in the end, the optician told me that i have a lazy left eye and that my astigmatism has increased. i'm going to be blind ):

realised that i haven't camwhored for the longest time already. think with all the school work, no one's in the mood for anything. just really looking forward to the holidays when i can go everywhere and do everything with everyone! awesome (:

and i've conquered many many movies. i don't know how many have i updated already.. but here's what i pulled out of my wallet since june..

cool.. i enjoyed the hangover most. very lighthearted and the concept of the movie is so fresh! haha. got some hot babes in it too. was actually quite reluctant to watch the hangover at first cause i wanted to catch public enemy! but didn't regret (:

and finally, for all the males..

love you all.

hair

2009-07-23T00:38:00.003+08:00

this is something that i really really want to get if my long hair doesn't work out.

she is gorgeously cool she is.

and i'm way serious about getting the exact same thing. yes, the colour too! (:

for now....... hais, bearing with the mess on top of my head.

girl, rants and weird people

2009-07-20T04:20:00.003+08:00

i'm not sure when it became the part in me but i guess i have tendencies to take care of people. seldom the other way around.

sometimes it gets really tiring always being the one looking after people.

don't get me wrong though. that kind of instinct has been in me since young luh. being the older sister and all. i used to take care of jing and jovian last time.. i do bully them too. haha. and when i grew older, i was still taking care of people. got one, everytime fall sick or have some sort of injury or whatever one. HAHA you know who you are la. don't need me to broadcast right? (X

i'm independent. i just know it. but i guess at the end of the day, i'm still a girl no matter how tomboyish i may be. and girls just need that little tenderness.

hanging out with a whole bunch of guys, it's good for me cause at least i don't have to look after anyone cause they can take care of themselves. and they don't have to keep taking care of me. unless it's like going club or something like that.

all's good.

went to SMU with yiting on saturday for flea market. got myself a ring, bracelet, vintage clutch and a pair of shoes!

and while we were walking there, this old lady cycled to our side and cut right into our path. and she just point middle finger at us and mumbled some stuff that we couldn't understand.

what the hell?

lucky she went off and the rest of the day passed quite smoothly, erm for yiting i guess.

then like later at night was waiting for bus at plaza singapura. there were the inconsiderate COMFORT DELGRO TAXIs which conveniently parked themselves before the busstop. and the stupid bus driver just stopped right behind them without honking or turning out!

so the entire row of buses were just stuck there for practically 10minutes! in the end, the bus just stayed there while the ones at the back finally had some sense to turn out.

damn stupid..

anyway, did projects over at sam's place. quite productive i guess.

distance

2009-07-12T17:27:00.007+08:00

a relationship is not determined by times and distance that you're apart.
but by the connection between both parties.

i'm sorry i left you lying there for this period of time all by yourself. even at times when i have this urge to reach you, but failed to do so. all because my life's been controlled by school projects and erm, other friends.

it's not that you don't mean as much as they are to me. it's just that, hais. i don't know how to put it. i guess you should be disappointed in me as i am myself.

all those late night partying.. drinks.. supper.. i know they're just excuses. i can have so much fun without you, so why can't i do it with you? it's sad i know, that i have neglected you just so i can be out there spending and enjoying time with other people but you.

even the recent times that we've met, i dealt it with much haste. only meeting you because i have no dates or have nothing to do. what we have used to be so effortless but now it's such a chore. i hate us being this way.

i feel like i'm using you, sorry ):

it makes me feel so guilty that you are always here for me, whether for good things or bad. and that i could always find comfort in you. guilty that you would always welcome me back with opened arms, but i would leave the instant someone else finds me.

and worst of all, you don't hate me.

why do you treat me so well?

i can't promise you anything. but know that even as i can't be there for you, i still do always think about you. about all the things that i want to tell you, and for everything that you've done for me all these years.

please don't give up on us. i'm fighting hard to save this relationship.

am terribly sorry for what i've done.

DEAR BLOG, PLEASE FORGIVE ME.

I'LL BE BACK TO FIND YOU SOON (X

19 years on this dying planet

2009-07-07T13:50:00.003+08:00

yes people, this little witch has finally turned 19. thanks for all the wishes everyone! each and every one of you made me smile!! (:

now i'm going to be an old hag.

first things first, ivan's going into NS on the tenth! had a farewell BBQ for him on sunday night that turned out disastrous due to heavy downpour. hilarious!

we were like hanging umbrellas from raffia strings tied across a pillar and tree. LOL. still got drenched in the end but the food was OK! we had loads of fun though. only the part when the drinking started to get fierce, christina and i retreated into my house. hahaha.

was getting lazy and all but then chris told me to go out after 12midnight ma. so i went la.. then reach the pit, she and michelle went like

"1! 2! 3!"

ohman, haha so paiseh. they help me sing birthday song. hahaha. shucks..

after the bbq, went to meet damien nick and rubina with chris for supper at pasir ris central. hungry and tired man.

chris stayed over at my place and we slept like logs till 10am plus. didn't hear my phone ring at all. and i've told people that my bed is damn comfortable. once you're on it, it's hard to get off. hahaha.

chris says maybe she's just tired luh.. WHAT RUBBISH! hahahahaha...

went to school and met damien nick for lunch while poor chris go for project group meeting, damn sad. end up only me eating. then just talk slack until lesson start then i go for class.

got another sing song session from 2m04 after class plus an oreo cheesecake. thanks people! enjoyed the super soggy cake! hahaha. feels like i'm biting off cream. AWESOME! (:

slacked at biz park after class with rubina nick damien yuanhui anson jeremy. think they got bored or something then started to sing birthday song for me la. damn loud make me super super paiseh. and they sang it in chinese too. double paiseh.

went to training afterwards.

oh ya, last friday after training,

saw this board at the bridge there. i think cause people have been sticking their temperature stickers everywhere! like seriously. even on the posters can? hahahaha. damn funny. ohwell, whoever that placed this board here is damn thoughtful (:

oh anyway, got a surprise from the team. hahaha. so sweet.. but i sort of guessed something was up after jiajie and candice disappeared too long. haha. so as usual, i was being a cheek and got up to leave.

immediately, the backup squad got to me and like desperately holding me back. HAHAHAHA super cute.

and it's the rare few times that i got smashed by cake la. usually, it's the other way round.

went off to 85 market to meet rubina nick damien yuanhui anson jeremy amanda yanping for the finale of the night. haha.

look what those idiots got me,

muffin with a cigarette la! damn gross.. hahaha.

and i had to blow out the cig-.- while at it, i got smashed in the face by a chocolate muffin which i made anson and jeremy lick it. LOL!

thanks la you guys. i like just got to know all of you only then you all treat me so well. haha.

then the guys disappeared for awhile to "smoke". and came back with,

my immediate reaction was, OMG GG..... hahahahaha.

had to down the whole bottle neat. i screamed in protest and persuaded them successfully to let me buy drink.

after like downing around 2/3 of the bottle, they decided to let it go la. so i got yuanhui to help me finish the rest.

man i was so naive.

was trying to get rid of the alcohol taste so i gulped down the sprite. the WHOLE bunch of them just smiled and stared at me la!! then, nick took out another bottle of the vodka!

guess what,

it's EMPTY o.O

kao! they're unscruptulous luh! spiked my drink!

lucky i was sent home already. and for YOUR (the whole bunch of you) information, i puked. hahaha. but that was after a failed attempt at my project, rolling around my bed and a shower. damn awesome! (:

and my room reeks of alcohol. haha!

after all that trouble, i'm very thankful for all of them la. haha. this few days keep making me laugh until buay tahan.

and really, thanks everyone for the birthday wishes whether phone or msn or facebook!

now for my piano exam ):

can't breathe

2009-07-04T21:45:00.006+08:00

last night was bad. emotions getting out of control, crazy thoughts, impossible wishes.

it was rough but i made it till morning. and things got better, i suppose as it always does when the sun comes out.

haven't got much sleep the whole week due to individual assignments i was struggling to complete. and there's still more group projects due next week. school really sucks with all that crap and exams.

on the other hand, i do look forward to school so i can see all my friends. i'm tired but they are the ones motivating me.

training has been consistent for the past few weeks. monday wednesday and friday nights, i'm all booked for the game. want to retain the gold we had last year very badly. i don't say or show it, but really working hard.

thursday went to watch,

with damien rubina and nick!

not a bad movie as i thought it might be. very touching.. lucky it wasn't the cliche love story or i would've fallen asleep.

and i think this movie is better than Transformers luh! hahahaha.

the part when paul said he believes in conner and loves him, i teared.. so touching can! hahaha. sadly ah, jing not so mushy la hor?

then went to meet dj to "celebrate" birthday. haha. thanks for everything(:

hais this is one year that i wished hun and i weren't born on the same day. it's like every year, we like stealing each other's thunder/limelight whatever. last year my 18th, it didn't feel like my birthday at all. but it was a good year through and through.

this year it's his 21st. i don't want to steal his light la. i'm not as bad as him luh. HAHA.

but i think i have to put any celebrations on hold la. mad busy.

one more thing that's troubling me,

i haven't got my pay yet. so i still don't have money to do and buy stuff that i want. i have a sad life, for now. LOL

ok i'm going out for another movie!! and i complain i have not enough time to do my work. the irony!!!

leave you guys with one of my disney faves.. (:

I Won't Say I'm In Love - HERCULES

family trip and some other updates

2009-06-30T05:07:00.001+08:00

finally got time to update. but i'm sacrificing my sleep time cause in the day i have school and more to worry about.

the "AND MORE" refers to project datelines and also my piano practical exam. hais. finally it's here and on july7! just after my birthday luh. am i sad or what? plus i don't practice usually, pretty last minute. so going to fail ):

on the teeniest tiniest happy note, i can sleep in for all my sundays from after the exam! well, not that encouraging though.

so for the trip, managed to camwhore with jing. haha. it's in our blood.

i did mention we don't really look alike right? but i think this is only one of the very few that we look like siblings. mom always say that we look more like a couple instead luh. yuck, damn incest.

OMG DAD'S TUMMY!

looking at that motivates me to do crunches. hahahaha. but the motivation was only for three seconds (X

at the hotel lobby- wah bears leh...

and then they got all hyped about measuring height right outside the theme park. haha. and i got a candid of mom, LOOK!

ain't she just adorable? the time when i released the shutter was convenient enough to capture this. haha.

typical jing. having a picture of his own is never enough luh. need to steal limelight. hahaha.

and that's all before we took jing to his virgin club experience at Safari! weird clubbing with your family la. especially looking at your own parents club.

i think i mentioned them dancing on the kelong to demostrate their prowess at dance right? it's like they're pro but it's just weird watching they ARE our parents.

same thing here. just weirder.. hmm..

dad's not in the last picture cause he went back to the hotel early. and i'm RED! as usual la.. haha. that time had 2M04 steamboat, don't think i drank a lot but i got damn red. and everyone who walked past me, will look stunned and exclaim,

"WAH, you're dddaaaaaaammmnnn red la!"

"yea i know. people keep telling me that."

second day at genting, had bonding time with jing luh. LITERALLY. we just spent the entire day together, shopping eating and themepark-ing.

lunch, thai style fried rice and sugar cane juice.

on the way to the SPACESHOT.

THIS IS SPACESHOT (:

nervous jing smiling weakly.

AND WE SURVIVED! (X

we left to KL the next day. and i think i was too busy shopping that i didn't take any pictures! haha. made good buys, but not cheap luh.

and we stayed at dad friend's house.

went for lunch somewhere near the last shopping centre we went to, forgot the name though! and there's a cute girl and i finally took pictures.

and many other little cute things too.....

hahahahahaha! abundance of FLY cuteness. and they put it on the table where all the customers can see and might be eating on it later luh. gross but awesome sticky papers!

journey back was delayed twice!

first by this old mercedes whose engine got too hot that burnt the whole car into a black skeleton. can't even see number plate to buy 4D la! hahahaha.

the second is some chain car accident. it's soooo THE NORM. lol.

when i got back, school started immediately. was praying that TP would close cause of H1N1 but no it didn't. still, first week of school was quite relaxed as some tutors got quarantined. because of that, we're now in the second week already. damn fast.

and i went st james on saturday! so long never club with rubina already. she is really damn funny when she drinks la. hahaha.

then i got to know even more of my course mates. even though i can't remember their names right now, but i know the faces already! improvement ok? i'm not good at remembering faces de.

and i caught,

TRANSFORMERS: Revenge of The Fallen

during the week. can't say it was damn good la. but it was quite enjoyable to watch i guess. quite funny too. (:

ok, getting very tired le. just finished an overdue assignment and had training before that.

maybe i should just put off my birthday la. too busy to have anything luh. unless, someone care to plan for me? HAHA.

DRAMA-MAMA

2009-06-27T00:21:00.003+08:00

ugh.. haven't got the time to properly update on the Genting-KL trip. but entertain you all with this funny video first (:

guys, it's a useful trick if you want to get a girl's attention too!

HAHAHAHA!!!!

AAAAWWWWW but damn drama mama. hehehe (X

BY THE WAY,

I PASSED MY FTT!!!! (X

yay damn happy!

home sweet

2009-06-22T15:05:00.002+08:00

i'm back from MALAYSIA already! (:

SHOP-EAT-PLAY-SLEEP everyday!! hahaha that's the life. will update more when i get my pictures onto the laptop.

shouldn't have gone to school today. tutorial was canceled cause tutor went japan. wah, i also want to go...

finally watched the finals of American Idol, awesomeness. yea i'm slow ok?

BE BACK TONIGHT! (:

clouds in my head

2009-06-18T02:46:00.000+08:00

leaving for genting in another THREE HOURS! jing and i decided to ton now and die on the journey there. ha!

thing is,

I HAVEN'T PACKED MY STUFF!

reason being...................... two things.

1) i was doing an entry about my views on plus-sized models. it's right here!

http://www.mtvasia.com/Funstuff/Contests/BloggerContest/viewentry.php?id=158

do view it and rate! supports greatly appreciated (:

2) this one shall be kept secret for now. heeeeee.. i'll tell you all when everything's done proper!

alright, i should do SOME packing now.

spam

2009-06-15T15:54:00.007+08:00

remember that bitch i blogged about last time? yes la, khadijah yeo that one. LOL!

look what she spams-

it's damn irritating to get spam mails and everything. mostly you get them from different unknown sources. but this zharbo have to send all her "friends" la. kao! how can just make use of our email addresses to do advertisement?

finally someone with some sense told her off. can't tell you how happy that made my day (:

Dear Khadijah,

CAN YOU STOP SENDING ME THESE RUBBISH!!! LAST WEEK, I RECEIVE 4 OF THIS KIND OF EMAIL FROM YOU.
PLEASE STOP SPAMMING AND THINK OF OTHERS BEFORE YOU PUT THEIR NAME WHEN SENDING ALL THESE RUBBISH WITHOUT THEIR PERMISSION!

Yours Sincerely,
Sharil

i love you sharil! xoxo

i need expression

2009-06-10T04:17:00.001+08:00

why is it when i start to feel things are going right, everything falls apart in an instant?

it's driving me insane dealing with everything. it's the first time in my life i'm starting to think that i'm being fucked by life. i'm not the kind of person that gets put down so easily. but it's getting harder each day.

my relief is in searching pictures that i'm able to express myself through. hais. i would love to take my own pictures and have them here instead. i'm still learning and there's many restrictions for a 5mega pixel handphone camera.

not that i'm complaining. i do get not bad pictures when i get lucky.

this is taken by me. sucks right? LOL

it's damn frustrating nowadays. i'm confused over everything that i'm supposed to do. and i seemed to mess up every part of my life. love, friends, responsibilities....

can't i just run away from it all?

recently i've become more and more moody. and i get tired of socialising. in the first place, i was never the sociable kind of person la. just that in poly, you really need to socialise in order to survive.

no, not peer pressure la. reputation and good connections is what you'll need right? to get all the help you can get.

hais. i feel so alone even though friends keep telling me that they'll be there for me and all. really appreciate it very much. but sometimes, i just feel that i need to be alone to clear my own mess.

people who know me well should also know that i'm not the suicidal nor the self-inflict kind of person la. so no worries aye?

thing is, do you trust me?

i'm hurt and exhausted. my only output is training, blogging, and dancing. blogging is starting to get restricted in many ways. mainly because it's a huge information source for people who know me. i love to keep people in suspense..

i should get over it la. for now, just let me dance away my troubles at butter factory tomorrow. finally.

and here's a few songs to share..

假如 - 信乐团

咖啡 - 张学友

Look What You've Done - Jet

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

before i end, shopping is always the best remedy for girls i think. went to buy my bikini yesterday. it's something that i've been eyeing on for a pretty long time. finally it was on discount and i found my courage to get it. can't wait to wear it (:

and, i really love this blogshop --> http://treslovechic.livejournal.com

advertising for free!! haha. so many stuff i want to get in the newest collection la! there's the black striped zipper top, black lace minivest, jackets, acid wash highwaist skirt, shoes, belts..... OMG.

aiya i'm a goner la. i realise i spend excessively when i feel extremely upset or extremely happy. i really need to get a better part-time job now.

ps: i wanted to watch FRIENDS but look at the time now? somemore i got to wake at 1130am.

night all.

dilenma..

2009-06-09T03:28:00.001+08:00

what should i do now?

ivan's 19th

2009-06-08T04:33:00.000+08:00

ivan's birthday was madness la. drink drank and got drunkards in the house. haha siao. everyone puked in the end. except for me and nic i think. hahaha.

BUT I THINK I'M DAMN USELESS.

only drank three redbull vodka and i got super giddy with my heart pounding in my head. in the end i just lay on the bed for an hour plus before i "regain consciousness".

that was when some guy came and ask me,

"you know who am i?"

i thought he looked like one of the earlier guys,

"leon?"

"what? you say i am who?"

"leon?" still a blur..

"eh ivan come, she say i'm leon leh.. who am i?"

doubts myself, "ivan's friend?"

LOL!!! turns out that was nic la.. hahaha damn irritating. i felt so blur la and my head hurts like crazy.

took many many pictures. lazy to give details la. just enjoy them like we did (:

birthday boy damn happy that people ARE PUKING.

the girls!

love the last picture of michelle and me cause my eyes looks BIGGER! (X and notice how red we both- actually, look at how sober christina looks luh while lijia michelle and me are red like lobsters.

the guys- leon tim ivan tg

and we played tag teams for BIGTWO. the pair with the most number of cards left have to drink one cup each.

TAGTEAM ONE- ivan michelle

TAGTEAM TWO- christina tim

TAGTEAM THREE- me tg

TAGTEAM FOUR- lijia leon

and more group pictures!!! (:

yay.... fun (: they all finally fell asleep by like near 5am leaving me and michelle to chat and keep an eye on them. went to get breakfast and i finally got my appetite back! quite a relief.. all the stuff pent up inside me, i finally got to relax.

work has started for me. i think cause of my bad knee, standing for straight six hours is super taxing for me. and i keep missing meals cause i'm not really sure about the protocol of the place.

looking forward to wednesday night cause we're going BUTTER FACTORY! hehe. so long since i last clubbed. very very looking forward to it. better don't last minute cancel la. i'll be damn dulan.

and i re-read xiaxue's older entries.
http://xiaxue.blogspot.com/2005/09/fucking-unfair.html

hais, i feel it man.

anyway getting really sleepy already. so i'm going to finish this up.

recently i got to do this personality test. the result is quite unexpected but very true. ohwell, here's one part of it,

Recent disappointment has led you to become truly introverted. You are becoming suspicious of everybody and consequently you now feel that you are unable to trust anybody. Unfortunately it would appear that you are curbing your natural enthusiasm and imaginative nature - perhaps this is because you are fearful that you may become over enthused and find that you could possibly be carried away by wishful thinking. You are keeping your distance to see whether attitudes towards you are sincere - but this watchfulness could easily develop into suspicion and distrust.

hella week

2009-06-05T02:54:00.000+08:00

hiiisssssssssssssssssss!!

loving the snake bracelet/anklet/necklace/belt/anything else that it could be. haha.

don't know how to start so i'll just be random (:

so, i'm left with my last paper for the mid-semester tests. i can fully assure you, THEY WERE HORRENDOUS. because of many many reasons la. hais.

basically after this week, i've lost respect for a lecturer in school, and also the school system.

FUCK THE EDUCATION SYSTEM, THE SUPPOSED "EDUCATORS".

well, not all lecturers are bad la. just those two "educators".

very pissed and it affected my studying progress. i feel so useless for letting the matter affect me so much. i want and will get back at him. i'll make sure of it.

i will crush his ego and make him cry.

pfft, anger anger whatever. it's so mentally taxing these days that my period forced itself out 10days early! when i say forced, i mean it luh.

it's like so little, yet it's still flowing out can? weird..

and to lighten the mood, everytime me christina michelle cherelle sees this picture, we sure laugh until CMI! hahahaha! (X

very curious to know what we saw?

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THIS GUY LOOKS LIKE ONE OF OUR FRIEND. GUESS WHO? (X

and by the way, though past midnight and i've already wished you, still!

happy birthday ivan! (:

going to celebrate his birthday on saturday night. hehe can't wait. cause it'll be the start of my partying days right after the midsems.

speaking about midsems, i think i'm really not taking my studies seriously enough. because throughout the whole week, despite my many tests, i still went for gatherings, competitions, and had my BTT!

ahstt girls gathering, five generations - 1988 to 1992!

competition was for chinese swimming club. played better on the second day (wed) cause i managed to warm up more. hun came down specially to support me. sadly i didn't win, but still played not bad la. (:

and, i passed my BTT! one step closer to driving. pretty awesome stuff (:

after that, i went to meet alvin and nee joined us a bit later. chat about many many things and laughed like crazy. i miss them so much! damn long never see them and chat like that. might be going butter factory with them next week. hope we will!

today, FAOM (financial aspects of marketing) was quite alright. the only test so far that i have written nonstop. sheesh. really going to flunk midsems, i suck.

and i went to sentosa afterwards to play LUGE! (X

had to take the skyride to get to the starting point and ALMOST FELL OFF!

WHOOAAA!!

nah i'm just kidding. it was actually pretty safe, except for slippers. never ever wear slippers for the skyride, they might just fall into the never-ending greenery at the below the ride.

slacked around sentosa for quite a bit. couldn't fully enjoy it cause i still have one more paper to go! sucks.. i'm already not in the study mood. plus, 2m04 is going for an outing tomorrow, but aiya, i've got work. lX

i feel so shu nu (ladylike) in this picture! LOL!

got caught while camwhoring! whoopsie daisy...

went for dinner at Tao's with mom jing pauline and her friends! reason for doing so is to fully utilize my right as a free loader and with a teensy hope of getting a sponsored shopping after dinner. WHICH, i did get! (:

jing and me. i think these are the rare photos that we took and we actually look somewhat alike! OMG.... finally some signs that we are really blood-related siblings.

and i got new bras! hahaha overshare yea? fully sponsored by mom. hee, made my day! (:

lastly, before i go off to sleep/study, i just want to say that my piano exam is reaching in a month's time. final grade to pass. sadly, i seemed to have lost interest in playing the piano. hais. i guess nobody likes to be pressured into something that they enjoy.

playing music is fun, the exam sucks..

just like school l:

thank you girls

2009-06-01T18:12:00.003+08:00

my weekend was a tough one.

i think i had enough sleep but i'm so mentally drained that it overrides my physical strength. but i shan't elaborate here.

all i want to say is,

thanks michelle christina and cherelle for listening and giving me company whether in school or out. really appreciate you girls for all you've done for me. don't know what i'll do without you girls man. haha.

still going through a rough patch. i just have to stay strong.

i really hope this is the last time.

2009-05-23T16:12:00.000+08:00

how long more will i allow myself to be treated like this?